Opening up to new friends

Oct 9
Father, just met A. I felt a connection to a mature soul. We both are using the tools and finding our path.
I was surprised that I confided in her the conman issue, something I have kept hidden since 4 years ago.
She asked again for my articles and asked me to email her at least a copy. She also asked about my blog and I gave her. Father, first time I open up and I guess I was finally ready since I just did my profile for my blog yday after 2 years.
I shared about my issue with romantic rship. She says to do window shopping. Rships are never in our control and there is lots of risk. So, respect ourselves and go only how much we can take.
Yea, which is what I am doing now. Not buying, just looking and seeing. So far 3 guys I have look, see.

Evening
Diamond Heart
Oneness happens by complete relaxation, not by going after anything. We have always been going after something since the moment we developed a mind. In oneness, there is no going after anything, no seeking whatsoever. That is why the center needs to be dealt with first, because that center is the seeker. When the center is quiet, it is possible to become aware of the boundaries, and to see that the boundaries are the barrier. Then u live a life according to boundlessness.

Soul
Perhaps this also the experience of the space that I am.

Diamond Heart
Helpfullness means that everything around u is part of ur family. Helpfulness means u r loving the other. It does not mean just giving away everything u have got.
If u do that, u might not able to help anyone. It means using all ur intelligence, all ur capacity to help the best was possible.
The more u r in touch with ur love, the more u naturally want to go outside, to others.

(Nov 21 - It has been a week, but I found myself listening to the radio after 2 years of hiatus. Its like I am ready to go back into the world. I have also accelerated on my writing and now decided to go for professional help in the website and ebook. It is up to me to create and shape my destiny. I cannot rely on my friends, especially those who does not have the same passion as me. Remember I am a Queen of Diamond...)