Suffering is first step to healing

Sept 28

Father, what I did is not samyama meditation. It was just my breathing meditation that has gone deep :)

When Tamil teacher said that samyama is a combination of shoonya and conscious breathing, I did it and since it was so great, I automatically tot it was samyama. What I did was I forgot to open my eyes. Will do that tomorrow.
Bit embarassed, but ok lah. That's me, the funny gal. Hope T doesn't reply my email, then I don't have to inform him. Looks like the more reasons I m going for samyama. A real refresher.

Father, yday reading AH Almaas was quite depressing but he could be right.

Got P and her sis to edit, but both says no and instead recommend me to the lady editor. I never tot of approaching book editor cos I tot mine was just articles and maybe can edit if for 300 dollars. Mmm, who knows my publishing is coming nearer.

This mornin tot of my issue with food, my issue with hard labour. Who know perhaps I am attached to body and hence cosmic lesson on body.

True Self
Can u heal ur wound or will u pass it on? If you heal, u will pass the test of embodiment. If u do not, u may have to come back and try again.
Once u heal the wound, u no longer have to experience it. But until then, u will feel its pain more and more deeply until it becomes unbearable. And that, for most of us, is the turning point.
This is when we step on the road to healing. That is when we give meaning to our lives and begin to take responsibility for the life that we are creating.

A Course in Miracles call this a "Journey without distance", because the place that we are traveling to its the place where we already are. We begin at the top of the circle and travel around the circle to the same place where we began, only now we see thing differently. We see what we could not see before.

We had to bring love to our fear, healing to our pain and forgiveness to our guilt to reclaim our innocence.
Truth is awakened when we are willing to see it. Until then, we will see only what we believe to be true, however erroneous that is.

Soul
I originate from happy go lucky to sadness and then come back to joy.
I originate from perceived Ok to dissatisfaction, Not ok and come back Contented.

So, now I originate from financial security .... And it seems to go down... perhaps I will come back with abundance financial security.
Tot of Osho from nothing to nothing. In between, we makes so much drama.

I tot of my 2 passion - firstly to write my Insights, secondly to counsel on business/human strategy. Both also my forte. I only coach CEO for their personal and biz devt. Cos then, I can still use my mind for its good business acumen, excellent human assessment and get money/security for my spiritual conquest. Then I need not depend on my spiritual Passion.

True Self
Illusions go when we stop holding them in place.
Suffering seems to be very real, but it is real only because we have signed up to suffer. When we resign from the course, we don't have to go to class anymore.


We come to this world merely to experience the limitations of what we believe. We mistakenly believe that these limitations is real, but they are real only to the extent that we accept them. When we stop accepting untruth, it ceases to be true.

Soul
I tot I cannot have financial abundance on my own. I can only save money I earned. To get more, I have to marry rich and hence man represent security.
I recall Natal Chart says that in my past life I marry for money and now need to make money on my own.
Mmm, I can do both Spiritual passion and Business passion. Suddenly I tot I can write a book for CEO also.
I regained my power as Queen of Diamond.

True Self
The truth is you don't have to meditate at all. You don't have to go to any classes. You don't have to go out to find yourself or to save the world.

You just have to take that blindfold off. You just have to realise that what u believe about yourself and everybody else is not necessarily accurate or true.
Don't go in search for truth. Just let go of falsehood.

We are not here to suffer, but to free ourselves from suffering.
We are here not so much to do, but to undo. We are here not to confirm our beliefs but to challenge them.
We are here to learn how to love ourselves and how to love others.
We cannot embody love until we learn to receive it. And we cannot receive it as long as we are running away in fear. We need to learn to stand our ground and tend to our garden.
Earth is a school. The classes have been set up so that we are challenged from the start.

Soul
Me, my role is lifting the veil of illusion.

True Self
Without knowledge, there is no hope. Knowledge is power.
Knowledge is a gift that must be exercised everyday. We can never be complacent with what we know.
Each of us bears a torch that will light our way home. It is up to us to gather our light and tend to it so that it grows into a steady flame.
Each of us must understand the nature of our suffering and overcome it, so that we can light the way for others. Waking up is not just a solo act. Those who wake up hold the door open to others.
The spiritual path is not glamorous. It does not reward the ego. There are no short cuts. Only those who are patient and persistent experience the fruits of the journey.

(Nov 19 - Father, this helps to keep me grounded to my Plan A)