Your own Passion is the second step to healing

Oct 21
Father, today I dozed off after breathing meditation. Yday, dozed off after shambavi. Father, not sure if this is good or not. I have never dozed off before. Today, even more deep as I was even having a dream.

Diamond Heart
The fundamental problem is an issue of identity. We are the elephant taking itself to be mosquito. The mosquito think it does not have enough food or the right mate, or it still hasn't found its work in life. But the mosquito will not know what its right work is until it realised that it is an elephant. Only then might it stop trying to accomplish job that require flying.

Soul
Yea. That's why I believe Passion List is the key. Without it, we go scrambling around getting something we may not even want.

Diamond Heart
Suffering persists as long as u take urself to be a person who was a child, who is now a woman/man, with this occupation, and this name and so on. Your past affects you and determines your joy or your pain only if you take yourself to be the person that you have always thought you are.
You can be free from that character only if you eliminate that history and you can eliminate that history only if u realise that it is not ur history, only if u begin to perceive beyond the appearance of things.
The less repression you have to hold on to, the easier it is for u just to be, to let go. When u can do what u r doing in a relaxed way, it is possible to just be. When u can just be, then it is possible to see the reality of things.

The world of appearance has a certain pattern or flavour. Certain patterns in the way u do things are always repeated; the same kind of tots and preferences persist. You live in a certain groove, determined by ur history, and that groove, ur personal groove does not change until its basis is gone. Its basis is the belief that appearance is reality.
When we believe so completely in what appears, we do not see that we are somewhat responsible for the way we see things. We think that everything is thrust upon us, everything is given. But reality is not like that. You are the one projecting the whole universe outside of u.

Our Work is not just to be free of the inner critic, or free from emotional conditioning, not simply to be successful. We want to move freeing the ultimate basis of suffering, not the relative suffering that comes from our history.

We are beings who exists in two worlds at the same time, while believing that we exist in one world, the world we know. But the way we need to live is with one foot in each world all the time. With one foot in the appearance, and one in the reality, we will never forget one or the other.
Who we actually are is the bridge between two worlds. We are both worlds and we are also the connection.

Soul
Osho - Zorba.
Diamond Heart
Issues and difficulties are not the only stepping stones towards reality. You need also ur interest, ur curiosity, ur appreciation of, and love for, the truth. Your essential experience will help counteract ur emotional identification. However such experience is not an end in itself. It is not something u get. It is a tool u use to keep seeking deeper truth.