Focus on my path (7)

Sept 26

Father, was abt to tell u abt my foot. But never mind, its going to be part of me, cosmic lesson. So, don't have to talk about it. Will remember pain is to bring me awareness and not suffering.

Diamond Heart
When u become urself, u r clarified and ur action becomes love instead of frustrated ego activity.
All that effort to be a person has been the result of the developmental thrust towards being the supreme person, whether u r conscious of this thrust or not.

But most of the time u misunderstood this thrust. You thought it meant u needed to be to this or that person. That is why u have been resisting and rejecting. You want to protect yourself and this desire is motivated by love. But we forgot this original love; the accumulation of the past have blinded us to our original motivation.

This is why u need to understand all the accumulated layers of ur reactions, until u get to what lies beneath. Only then can u understand the initial impulse of resistance, which is love. One when u perceive the love under it all, will u realise that u have not been eliminated or replaced by Essence but that u and Essence are one.

You r personally and impersonally contented, objectively contented for yourself and

Soul
Father, I get this. I have always know behind everything is love. Just like my brother's constant criticism of me to be better is just him loving me.
And I have accepted all of me, the good, the bad, the unlovability me, the pain me. All is me.

Korean drama _ some messages
Life is all about going thru times. You have good times, bad times, sad times and happy times.
Life is like a flower in the field.
Once it withers, u don't know where it goes.


Diamond Heart
All of u, not just one aspect of u, is satisfied. All of u is complete, ur mind, ur body, ur personality. All must be integrated, not discarded. Then u r someone who is just living. You do what u do without feeling that there is something wrong with u, that some part needs to be rejected.

Personality is not something to be eliminated. It is simply full of fear, because it does not know its true nature. The personality needs to be completely and thoroughly understood and cherished.

Only with that compassionate, accepting and objective love, is it possible to understand the true reality of the personality. With clarification comes this understanding, and then ur heart becomes completely nourished. Because of the fullness in the heart, love can flow. The heart is completely contented. The heart spills over and its no big deal. You cannot help but be loving; that lovingness is the source of, and the motivation for, ur action.

You live in joy and you relate through love, because u r taking no action that is divisive. The thing that we experience as personality at the beginning and for a long time on the path, is actually nothing but the soul. The personality is our soul, but our soul imprinted and shaped by past experiences. Our past experiences shapes and forms our experience of ourselves and of our conscious and dynamic soul, obscures its true nature by remaining as residual content in our true nature. These residues are the self-images, the internalised object-relations, the reactions, the suppressed feelings, memories and the many defenses we use to protect ourselves. The process of clarification is basically the dissolution of these residues through the light of understanding. This way, the personality reveals itself as the soul developing towards individuation. The soul develops into Being.

Soul
This outline my approach in my inner journey. This also explain why just either psychology or spiritual only cannot make it. You need both.

Diamond Heart
In all seeking, and in the activity inherent in seeking, there is an assumption that u r deficient. This is one way the activity of seeking reinforces the sense of poverty.

Many people assumes that inquiry and understanding are a matter of figuring things out, searching for issues in mind or body or dificulties in ur life so that u can resolve them. You hope u will suffer less.
And if u r not trying to get rid of suffering, u r looking for some essential state or pleasurable condition, so u can grasp and hold on to some aspect of ur essence.
Instead of searching for success, u r searching for enlightenment. It is just different words for the same thing, it is the same activity, whether it is directed inside or outside.
This seeking activity is not loving or compassionate for urself or anyone.

Understandings, realisation and insights appear when u r relaxed, when for a moment u stop seeking.

Be compassionate and loving towards yourself and let urself be. If u let urself be, there will be spontaneous curiosity about what arises. To simply live and rest and let urself be, allows this spontaneous inquiry.