Why outer ransformation doesnt happen to me (2)

Sept 28 Eve

Father, looks like I got money for the investment. At first was worried and then later calm down as I realised it was my fear of commitment. Then was prepared to draw down fixed deposit, but it was not necessary as I have enough money in my current account.

So, the next year investment, I also got the money already.

Father, part of me tired and tot if I should retire. But this is easy money and I am good at it. Besides, even if I quit, I be worry about money. This year, just status quo to increase my saving.

Did my shoonya, try 5 min of samyama and followed by a long surka kriya, followed by Shakti. I was lost in shakti. I went in deep. I was so strong and flexible, can do the plough back in one swift movement. Great. Thanks for motivating me. Did all in about 1.5 hour The surprising thing was I did a long surka kriya, right elbow was stiff but still fine and after shakti, its cleared. Thanks.

Diamond Heart
When there is imbalance in one's consciousness, one's values tend towards the grosser of human nature (success, riches, comfort or security). The refinement of human consciousness require harmonisation and balancing of all the human elements. The more harmony and balance in one's consciousness and in one's life, the more it will become a life of beauty, grace and efficiency.
The consciousness first need to be balanced and harmonised before it can see what is truly needed.

Soul
I never knew surka kriya was powerful. This mornin, I wrote surka is good for me cos my masculine side is too strong and the self-centred position enhanced.
I think after samyama refresher, I will do 1 samyama and 1 surka kriya. At least for now. I do 1 breathing meditation first. I have not got samyama.

(Nov 10 - now not doing surka kriya. Infact, m now reducing my Friday evening session. I just feel at ease.)

Diamond Heart
For a balanced consciousness that lives in a balanced, harmanious and mature way as a human being, enlightenment is not enough. It is just a beginning. Realisation is also only one experience among many others that are needed for a person to develop capacity to live correctly. Many people who have been engaged in spiritual work can see that their experiences have not necessarily transformed the way the live their lives.

Three elements need to be balanced or need to stay in balance as a person is engaged in the process of development.
1. Understanding
2. Being
3. Doing.

Most individuals tends to emphasise one of these over the other two.
Our work involves developing these three elements into a harmonious unity and this involves balancing them. A constant balancing needs to happen again and again, whenever an imbalance appears in either the individual or group.

For a long time, understanding will in large part reveal that the personality, the false personality, and the life of that personality are empty.
Realising that the normal personality is actually empty, will lead to the awareness of the fullness of Being, which is the second element.

We come to know the actual experience of Being, the feeling of beingness, state of being, the realisation of presence or enlightenment.
We then discover that the state of being, although wonderful, is still not the totality of a human consciousness. The state of being, and the understanding accompanying it need to be embodied, to be integrated into one's life.

This is when the role of action becomes important. It is not enough to have understanding of yourself. It is not enough to realise the presence of Being. For a full integration, these need to manifest in ur life in action.
They must appear in ur actions so that u live ur life according to that understanding and from that state of beingness.

If a person doesn't live according to the understanding that comes from the realisation of beingness, then the realisation or development is restricted to certain experiences and does not touch the person's soul deeply enough to allow the integration for maturity.
The real action is what differentiates a developed human being from an undeveloped one.

Soul
You answered my question. I have understanding and I am in Beingness, but I am not in Doing yet. How to cross over?

Diamond Heart
Human development has three elements/stages
1. Understanding and knowledge, as in insights and intuitions.
2. Realisation, which is abiding in beingness.
3. Doing, which is the embodiment of the beingness and the knowledge in ur life, in how u live ur life.

If u have experience 1 and 2, but then go through the rest of ur life and live according to the usual personality, it's as if it has not happened.

Soul
Exactly. I know there is more but don't know how.

Diamond Heart
A maturing person needs to live according to those experiences and those insights.
A person who has not had these experiences and insights will be unable to live in a mature way. So, all three elements are necessary.

If it does not happen spontaneously, a person will need to intentionally live life according to what has been learned and experiences. This might not necessarily happen by itself.
Some insights, realisation and even actions, will come to you as gifts that just happen, but some of them u will have to work for. You will have put in effort to regulate and balance yourself.
If u r open, if u r interested in truth, things will happen to u, BUT not everything.
For something, u will have to take action, u will have to make greater effort.
Both elements are needed; the spontaneous arising and the effort, the expenditure of energy.

The first part of understanding is the easiest part. It is sometimes difficult to see the significance of states of being and to allow oneself to abide in these various states of being. Then the most difficult task is to embody being in action.

Soul
Father, thank U. U answered my question. On my RA, part of me knew that is just to end my current career, to drop my values. The pain is to make me be aware.
Also thank U, for understanding and being comes effortlessly to me. I guess perhaps that's why triple challenge when it comes to doing.
I have not embody and I know I want to but I am afraid to.

(Nov 19 - yeap, I am now taking action and responsible for my growth. I know now tht if I do nothing, there will be no growth. I dont want to waste the opportunity. I know the journey is still going on and I don't know where is heading. But slowly and surely I know my life is uncertain and I can only do what I know. For now I will focus on being a Writer - Firefly, lighting up ur mind. Will need to make investment in money and time, also the emotional stress of not having success. But it will be a change of mind set. From now on, whenever I worry, I will look at it again to see if it is real. If real, will act. If not real, will shine it away. I want to live up to me. I want to show up. I want the world to knew Me, the Joyful one.

Father, I just realised, I was hoping for handout. Also, I generally doesnt like doing. But looks like thats my growth part. I need Doing to promote my Gifts.)