Worry unnecessarily

Oct 18
Me, m fine. Despite the pain of left shoulder, left leg and right elbow, I did my asanas. It was painful but its worth it. Need to check out my awareness sheet.
Yea, now knew why feeling down cos no more window shopping on potential partner and d guy didn't initiate. So, unknowingly tot my wish not granted. Well, its window shopping and I have not buy yet. So, I desire love and money. My wishes, grant me.
Father, GM acting up with tooth ache. Since its mouth, I think relates to suppressed anger.

Afternoon
Yea, took me just 2 hours to complete the budget. Was done by 1 pm despite hiccup.
Also on ikea furniture, I don't even have to go and the period extended.
New biz and profitability meeting postpone. Yea. Everything was cleared.
Father, my worry was unnecessary.


Evening
Father, just now tot that perhaps I got too many things running. I want to focus on d writing and my website first. As for 7thunder, I can do it during weekend.
So, for morning, focus on writing.
　
Today is a fine day, everything turns out well. My worry was for nothing.
When a colleague asked me why I took up meditation? I told her that's because I worry too much. She was surprised and say that I look like a happy go lucky person, and definitely not like a worrier. Well, I am, especially the Sunday before Monday. She agreed and says that Monday blues starts early for her. For me, now it is hardly there. I just need to watch for the uncertainty. Be with it instead of cover up with food and books and tv.

Diamond Heart
The unveiling, the discovery and penetration, is a process of becoming more and more naked until ur bare bottom hits ice. Then u get stung directly - not through the mind, through ur bottom. That's when u really know.
Losing ur mind, means losing direction, inner direction. Being completely lost. If u have any direction, any preference of one thing over another in ur experience, it is still the realm of the mind and there is no innocence. Innocence means u r completely open. Nothing has happen yet.
If u keep on going back to ur preferences. That's it, no freshness for u. Things will get more and more dull. Cozier but more crowded. Less light and less freshness.
To not have excess of ur preferences means there is a detachment about it. You have them and u like them but u r not attached.
Do not ever let urself feel you've arrived. The moment u feel arrived, penetrate deeper until there comes a time when u do not care whether u arrived or not. Then u have arrived, but u do not think u have arrived. You just do not care. That means the mind is finally quiet. As long as u care whether u arrived or not, u haven't.

Soul
Same message. Don't rest on my laurel.