Why outer ransformation doesnt happen to me (6)

Oct 1
Father, today breathing meditation was deep. I was lost in it.

Diamond Heart
It is a natural law that the more u experience, the more understanding u have, and the more u need to live ur life accordingly.
That knowledge and experience has to come out to life; it has to manifest. If not imbalance will increase. The imbalance will be exaggerated and as a result u will experience more dissatisfaction and more frustration, eventhough u might had wonderful experiences and insights.
If u continue to live ur life from an imbalanced perspective, all those experiences and insights will only enhance the state of imbalance. If u do not learn from these experiences and u merely decided u want to take, rather than allowing the complete impact of the experience, u will tend to increase the imbalance.
If u know there is a subtle dimension and so on, u can no longer live just according to the mental dimension; they will have to affect ur action. If that does not happen spontaneously, u have to ask urself: "Why not?", and try to find out how to do it.
　
Soul
Father, ur timing is now on the dot. Yday I was wondering what question to ask during transformation card game. First tot, my destiny. But that I already know. Then this mornin tot I shld ask why RA. RA is resulted from imbalance. Previous year is was caused because I was living like a workaholic, working way beyond my system's capability and it broke down.
Now I am living as if I have not experienced all the spiritual dimensions and insights. I think I could be living below my system's capability and it showing up again.

Now the question is Why does my action does not arise spontaneously?
Others do that because there is a push factor, they don't like their life/work. For me, I am comfortable where I am. Also, my destiny seems far away. But the RA is forcing me to evaluate.
A tot came, u were also comfortable working hard, didn't knew u were beyond ur system.
So, tomorrow question - Why is there no spontaneous change in my life despite so much experience of spiritual dimension?

Diamond Heart
Insight and realisation can be used to magnify imbalance or to balance and harmonise the consciousness.
A primary component of this balance, is doing, action.
Understanding is also very important because u can experience a state of being without understanding. It is possible to block the flow of understanding. When there is a state of being that is not yet understood, whatever understanding come from it needs to flow and then the whole thing needs to come out in action. It has to seep completely into your life to transform ur life.

Soul
Father, U r great.
Tomorrow is soul sister pgm and so happen also transformation card game.
Because its same day, I tot jus stayed on also becos since I will be more open after it, so will have better access to the Universe.

Yean, I have many spiritual experiences, but I tend to dismiss it. And I even avoided it in ashram. For me, the spiritual experience is not my effort, something took over. Infact, its definitely my past lives.

My take on it, was I just want to have a grasp on my running mind. Just want to have more moments of peace and quiet. That's all. I don't want to do anything.
For the 10 plus years on understanding, I was fine cos its my mental effort and I was transformed by my Insights. It was a humbling experience that leds to reduction of judgement resulting in forgivness of myself and others.
But the spiritual thingy, really not sure what is it. I never really queried why am I so receptive to the spiritual dimension.

So, perhaps 2 questions tomorrow.
1. Why am I so receptive to the spiritual dimension and have loads of connection, even without trying to.
2. Why is there no spontaneous transformation after so much spiritual experiences
3. Why am I having RA

(Nov 19 - can only ask 1 question and I chose No.3)

Diamond Heart
There is no reason why a human being cannot live a life of truth, love, strength, impeccability, dignity and self-respect. You do not need any special situation or occasion. Any interaction, any transaction, is a place for u to be that way, and that is when u see the grace and beauty of life.

Soul
I was waiting for special situation and occasion.

Diamond Heart
Manifestation does not come about merely by thinking about it, because one person has million of insights. You cannot just use ur mind to figure out how all these insights and realisation relates to living life. You cannot integrate them into living by thinking about them or by merely having more insights. They will be the insights of a couch potato. You cannot do it that way.

Soul
Father, I am a couch potato. This is exactly me, using my mind, mental approach.

(Nov 19 - I am not. I now realised I have changed. My lifestyle is changed completely. I exercised daily either hatha yoga, swimming or walking in the park. I woke up from 4 am and latest 7 am. I delayed my eating so I can meditate. I go on vegetarian when I need to. I spend at least 3 hours on meditation daily. I am changed. Its now just need to focus on my Plan A.)

Diamond Heart
If is when u put effort to be present, to be aware, to be essentially in action, the awareness becomes the understanding part, and the presence, the Being part of action. You will encounter difficulties and barriers to being present and aware in action. Learning how to deal with these barriers is the actual Work.
Usually the ordinary doing is separated and split-off from Being. There is the doing of the personality, while being is somewhere else, not involved.

What we are learning to do is the Being and doing together; Being in action. Being flows into the action, and that way the action is efficient and beautiful and graceful.
Being doesn't know the method to do. But Being knows how to do it the best way, in terms of the sense, how to do things in such a way that u feel integrated within urself.
Eg when u water the plants, Being know how to hold urself, how much effort to exert, and etc.
Being shows u how to manifest the beauty outside. There has to be a coordination and a working together, and ultimately a harmonisation, a balance, because we are not just talking about a state of being, we are talking about living.
We are already Beings.
To learn how to live on earth in physical bodies, do things and enjoy things that the inner being is usually not concerned about.
The story is how to bring this Being into living.
Regaining of Being, which is enlightenment is not the end; it is the beginning.

Soul
Yes. This is it.
RA happens whenever I am disconnected from my system.
There is an imbalance between my inner and outer. I was disconnected with my body previously and now I was disconnected with my spirituality.


Oct 1 Even
Father, got over my apprehension of receiving call from SL. I tot it was the issue again, but it wasn't. She just wan to find out how I am, if I am ok. She also keep the conversation swee an short. Amen.
Just now meditation, about 2 hours in total. Got deep in.

Diamond Heart
Regaining of Being, which is enlightenment is not the end; it is the beginning, which we how it stated. But we need to grow up, and learn how to be as mature beings.

(Nov 19 - yeap)