Why outer ransformation doesnt happen to me (4)

Sept 29 Aft

Father, V has read my articles and he thinks that it really good. He will help with the copyediting.
Suddenly, I recalled that I used to write composition in primary school. I would write abt story from TV show and put my insight on it. My composition is generally read in school.
Father, I am good in story telling, weaving the scenario.
And now with my understanding and being, the genre has expanded and deepen. Amen. I found my calling.
And I would supplement with being a CEO coach

Ten of Diamond
Card of financial success and the best money card to have. Success in dealing with groups of people in some financial way is also indicated.
Good sign

Evenin
Did my surka kriya - I think at least half an hour. Shakti, I was knocked out, very deep. When I did my plough back, suddenly realised that my feet is nearly touching my face. Did the head bend down to knee, I can touch my knee.
Father, m thinking surka kriya is really incredible. Why no one ask us to do it before? Its a requirement for shoonya and samyama.
The more subtle the meditation, it require sun salutation and surka kriya. Why??

Diamond Heart
Carrying the understanding and being into action is the primary and most powerful integrative process of both understand and being.
If u do not take the action, if you do not try to live ur life according to what u have learned, what u have experienced, then there is a tendency to create as split between different parts. There is the wonderful part of u, and then there is the rest of ur life - frustration, complaints or indulgences.

When a person begins taking action according to what they know, what they experienced, rather than rote, automatic action based on their conditioning and patterns, then those insights and experiences will be integrated into the soul itself. The soul will transform by metabolising the old personality pattern and will thus mature.

The personality is not something that need to die or be thrown out; the personality needs to develop in time, to be refined, and integrated with the sense of beingness.

You actually have to take action. And ur actions have to be real action that takes into consideration everything u have learned; all insights, all the knowledge, all the experiences. Only then will all the elements be integrated and so that u can become a more and more integrated and balanced human being.

The work is a development of one's self and one"s life.
You are not going to be do doing a certain kind of work and then be automatically be rewarded with wonderful things; this is the expectation of most people. Things do not happen in that way.
A person who is mature will use those experiences in life to transform. Your experience of Essence or Being is a kind of food for u to consume, but its also for u to digest and metabolise them.

Soul
Yea, I am one of them.

(Nov 19 - Thank YOU, Father. You are always with me. Whatever I need, will be given to me.)