Guidance is always there for me (2)

Oct 2

Msg - Whatever the path is ok.

Soul
I was thinking if I am on the wrong track. I tot I was supposed to quit or etc.
My plan is not enlightenment.
I just want to fulfill my destiny, which is to be transformational leader and to be happily married.
And I want to be secure while doing it. So, I still wan my job until I am financially secure.
So, goal and challenge is to pursue my destiny as Transformational Leader. The rest, I don't have to bother. Even if I am not as loving, its fine.
My question also, will I be with my partner. When will I have a loving presence like Tamil teacher.

Msg - Hope.
You are not ready yet. Continue meditation and be love. Then only it be true marriage.

So, my question is why RA
I want to focus on my writing and website. So, for now to ease on reading.


Oct 2 Eve
Father, today did Soul Sister and also the Transformation card.
Father, again I found myself judging the facilitators and says that I can do better than them in terms of giving insights and charismatic communication. Who am I to say that?? I never acted on my gifts.

Today, unsurprisingly, S got the card that say she need to Show up, something I told her on Day 1. And the psychic gal, whom I said is split, is really split. She is a psychic but also a mind person. Its like 2 personality in one body. A psychic is generally sensitive, but she is also rational. So, I am right, she is split.
And then F, whom I tot was a young soul, and I wonder why she need so much healing. I suddenly say that she was on acceleration mode, giving herself unnecessary lesson to become more spiritual. She is only 27 and want to have experience of people 10 years her time. Why does she want to go so far ahead? She told me my Insight is very profound.

I got back and check 7thunder, I was right, she is a young soul, Ace of Club - desire for knowledge and love, with Ruling of Ten of Spades, working like crazy till she achieve it.
Father, perhaps that's me, my ruling, Ace of Diamond, desire for love and money. Me working hard too.
Mmm, Ace of Club, same as A.

Msg from Soul Sisters pgm
Action
1. Get support from a trusted group of like-minded friends
Meerka
The people in ur life would love to offer their support to u, ur only job is to receive it and, indeed sometimes ask for it.
People who are dealing with dire illness and have the support of friends and family members usually fare best: however, u certainly don't need to experience such an extreme situation to take advantage of the love and care others have to offer
List down a list of the names, identify three traits that makes u trust them. U will have a good ideas of the qualities in those u rely on - trustworthy
Sure, u have been burned or disappointed at one time or another when u trusted someone and were let down or betrayed.
So, now u may be afraid that if u let others in and count on them for support, something similar will happen.
Those memories, consciously or unconsciously, will not only filter out any chance of being disappointed or hurt, but will also serve to keep others who are trustworthy at a distance.

Soul
I don't trust people to come near me. I believe that u can only trust people as much as their security level.
I guess the incident with C reflects that. Someone whom I was really close to and knew about my issue and interest can suddenly delay 4 mths on my cd. I felt let down by her. Even now the rship has not fully recover.
I guess my issue with my mom and brother is the source. Also the part on my brother forces me to buy the house. I tot he would take care of us. (This sound like victimisation. It was my own issue of fear of commitment/loan instalment that makes me delay in buying house.)
My sister who joined Christianity - who I felt abandoned the family (she is now back, asking us to go breakfast on sunday)
These authority level who loves me, have hurt me, intentionally or unintentionally.
My mind has accepted them. But I think my emotion has not.
I also was hurt by my sis joining christian and now
　
2. Your loyalty and faithfulness is misplaced by serving too many masters.
(A tot came - burden card - to serve myself)
Dog
Over a number of years, u may find yourself attached to the leashes of many masters, leading u to feel fragmented and, to some degree, powerless.
Instead, take off all those collars, and let Spirit be your one true Master. Then u will experience true freedom.

Soul - any path is fine, as long as I am authentic. Same msg. From now on, I will work on my destiny.