Feeling good

Oct 7
Father, today practices were good. My head was touching my knee effortlessly in the single leg sitting posture. As for double leg, some effort is required, but m happy with my body after 1 year of hatha. The plough back was effortless and I can just be there and relax.
Father, it has been 2 years since I started on the meditation, everything is coming together.
Was imagining of going with him to all the places I want to explore, like diving, driving to the villages and hills, going back hometown, explore some cave. Imagine our weekend all filled up with adventure.
Of cos, a tot came, why so into him? Well, nevermind, I just visualise it to be manifested. And the beauty is he is also a thinker. I know our rship will be effortless.
Then have tot of going with him to my dream swiss restaurant, going with him to the french restaurant. A tot came, that he will see the beautiful french gals and drop me. Then immediately an alternative tot came, he has been around the world and he came for me. Besides he know its difficult to find someone like me, very unique
This is the adventure that I wish for.
Also tot of introducing him to MF and gang.

(Nov 21 - Father, this is just the mental relationship I have in my mind. It was good while it last. I now realised I do have a compulsive behaviour is projecting one-sided relationship in my mind. Alas, since it is one-sided and only in my mind, its no wonder that it never materialised. And here I forgot and instead perceive myself as being rejected. Alas, it was me who have done it to myself. No one rejected me as the relationship is only in mind.)

Message from Fairies during the Transformation Board game played last Saturday on 2 Oct.
1. Your Wish is Granted!
What you've asked for is coming true.
The fairies know how to magically manifest all of their material needs and desires, and they also assist people - like urself - in making their dreams come true.
This card represents that the fairies are very happy to grant ur wish.
They work with universal forces and energies, but u can also help your prayer rapidly manifest by going with the flow in ur own life.
Stay as centred and peaceful as possible because negativity could block ur desire. Go outside in nature to keep ur spirit soaring with the magical energies of joy and gratitude.
Your tots are manifesting into form quickly, so be sure that ur silent prayers and spoken words are aligned with ur desires and not ur fears. Trust in the Universe. Keep a sense of wonder and awe.

Soul
Silent prayers and spoken words to be aligned to my desires and not my fears. Yeap, what I want will come quickly.

Ace of Clubs
A new plan and new way of communicating with the world around you and to pursue ur new plan.
This is embarking on a new way of thinking and communicating with others. Good to start something new.

Soul
Amen.
Will align my inner tots and spoken words with my desire of having an effortless relationship with my partner.
Just send out email to Tamil teacher asking if he know of nice volunteer willing to take me out for the day in Chennai. Ask and u may receive.
Also send out note to the guy. He was very appreciative of my help. First tot was I cannot take the credit. 2nd tot was I just do my job so I can get him out of the way.
Father, why can't I take credit. At least I select the right Real estate agent and got YL to recommend the right Recruiter.
P always say that I don't give credit. I know I do, but only on things that takes effort.