Comfort zone does not lead to growth

Feb 15

Father, today practice was fair. Woke up by alarm and still feeling tired.

I had a good chat with Z and I am glad I no longer let auto-rejection mode to come into pix. He was busy and he is aware he didn't return call twice and so must take call even if he is very tired and hungry. We spoke about one hour and I noticed he didn't want to end our call. He told me his case is going good and the charges put up by his ex has nothing to do with children access. I am happy for him.

On my Osho's card;
1. Issue
Laziness
The gentleman clearly thinks he got it made. He doesn't have the energy to get up and do anything because he thinks he's done it already. He hasn't yet turned to see the mirror cracking around him on his right, a sure sign that the place he thinks he's finally arrived at is about to shatter and dissolve before his very eyes.

The message this card brings is that this poolside resort is not ur final destination. The journey isn't over yet, as that white bird flying into the vastness of the sky is trying to show.
Ur complacency might have arisen from a real sense of achievement, but now it's time to move on.

Soul
Yea, I had lunch with J and she said to move on, do a transfer. She said I should not waste the opportunity.
Then in the afternoon M told us that our major client has put us on 6 month notice for bad delivery. Looks like everything is telling me to go.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Ripeness
Only if ur meditation has brought u a light that shines in every night will even death not be death to u but a door to the divine.
When a fruit is ripe, it drops from the tree by itself. One moment it hangs, next moment it falls - not because it has been forced to fall or has made the effort to jump, but because the tree has recognise its ripeness and simply let it go.

Soul
Yea.

3. External influence
Success
Enjoy the peak when it lasts and the enjoy the valley when it comes.
The greatest wisdom to keep in mind with all the phenomena in the parade of ur life, whether they be valleys or peaks, is that "this too will pass"

Soul
I am not sure if this is success or going down. I can only think of the price to pay, what I lost. I can't see what I gain yet. What I see is major work going on. I just had idea of how to keep to 4 days. Morning in current company and afternoon in new company. Then they can have me both.

5. What is needed
The miser
The moment u become miserly, u r closed to the basic phenomenon of life; expansion, sharing. The moment u start clinging to things u have missed the target. Because things are not the target, u, ur innermost being is the target

Loosen ur grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.

5. The understanding
Ice-olation
We r miserable because we r too much in the self. To be in self, means to draw a boundary line around u. To be in the self, means to make a distinction between 'this I am' and that I am not'. This self isolates. It makes u frozen and u r no longer flowing.

If u r flowing, the self cannot exist.

Soul
Yea, take on both, do together and the route is great.