Fear in letting go of comfort zone

Feb 19 Eve

Suddenly I miss Z and I want to talk to him. I ask myself, we just spoke yesterday. So, what is it? Then I realised I have worrying tots of tomorrow. What are they? I am worried of the new role. I am worried I can't make the Maha on time or rather I am afraid how they viewed me if I want to go off early. I have these flexibility in old company and I felt I lost it. Even jeans, they don't wear.

While I am not so bothered about what E tot of me as I already told him I was supposed to be on leave tomorrow and tuesday. I am more worried about the rest.

Yea, the inner judge poking why I left my old comfortable job. And now after 3 years, I now start to have worrying tots. Tot of seeking comfort from Z. A tot came to me, for him is money worries and etc. Work is not an issue to him as he is not afraid of hard work.

Father, I know leaving current company was the right move as it is crumbling. And I know I am ready for my next growth phase. I can be the COO, but I am not sure of the price to pay. Aiyah, no worries lah.

Mmm, what's my internal Influence Osho card
Ripeness
Only if ur meditation has brought u a light that shines in every night will even death not be a death to u but a door to the divine.

Soul
Yea, facing my Nine of Diamond. It is not I am afraid of the new job but its more of me losing my old comforts.
I didn't seek this change and infact I resisted it. But I am in now.

For the first time I want some guidance for what's next. I think just released energy from my mind.