I am not open

Feb 18

Father, Z msg me on my BB's headings. I just let it be cos I was watching my favourite drama show. Then I called him an hour later but no response and I know he slept already.

I called him around 7 pm and he woke up. He was very tired from all the travelling. We spoke and have fun. He wants me to intro his chartered accountant friend. Of course, I said nope. He then said I always says no and I am not open. Well, I react the same way with others too. My first response is generally no, unless it relates to my work. That is also mentioned in my nodes.

I normally don't like to do this connection thingy and favours asking. My friends also doesn't ask me. And those who asked, I either ignore and said no to.

Diamond Heart - Ah Almaas
In the world and not of it
It doesn't mean u have to forget about relationships and go off to a cave someplace or to the north pole and merge with the icebergs. If u want to this, that's fine; it doesn't really matter.

What does matters is that whatever u r doing, whether in a relationship or not, u need to look inside urself and find what the barriers are that prevent u from experiencing that part of u that can feel merged and melted no matter who u r with and where u r.

Soul
With Z, I seek bliss with him. As for the merging, I can find that during meditation. I know I don't need him. Infact the merge of myself is even more potent vs the merge of us both.