Saturday, March 24, 2012

Settling down with myself (4) - my negative emotion

Feb 22 Aft
We connected and Z said he was only joking when he said all those things to me.

Alas, I overcome another hurdle, the fear of telling him how I feel, the fear of losing him. I realised everytime we overcome hurdle, we felt closer.

Today got the Filipino Reporting Analyst. He fits the role well, can speak well and I think hardworking. His Destiny is Jack of Heart, so that's fine with me.

Soul without shame
Awareness is very powerful, and this process of exploration must be undertaken in safety, especially from ur judge. In other words, discovering that u r feeling like an angry and humiliated four-year-old is not a reason to attack urself. It is important that the awareness be held in a space of gentle and respectful kindness.

Soul
I guess it was me with my brother. Someone that I love and I hide my hurt cos if I expressed I worry he hurt me or at times he will said he is joking and I am too serious. So, that nullify my sadness and I just stop expressing it.

Soul without Shame
AH Almaas
To live in freedom and absolute fulfillment, we need a complete, radical shift and such a shift can occur only when there is a complete understanding of what we are actually doing. All the work u do here is based on understanding what u do and how u interfere with the natural process.
If u try to do anything other than understand the situation, ur effort will be a blockage, a resistance, an interference. U cannot make urself grow; u can only cease to interfere.

U cannot make urself happy; u can only stop ur judgements. Growth and expansion are natural; they are the life force itself. And u cannot predict its direction.

Soul
Yea, I know.

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