Romantic love is not unconditional

Feb 26 Eve
Father, I finally did it. I didn't go to the event and instead went to a cafe. I felt good.

But I am now sad about Z. He didn't return my call and even when I ask him to return call, he also didn't. It is a slap on my face, a rejection. As I was writing this, a tot came in, he did it before and u r still together. He doesn't mean the way I see it.

The old me would have sweat about it and having rejection tots. But the new me feel like scolding him. And also since I am going to overseas trip, I won't be speaking to him for next 2 days. Let's face it, he doesn't love me as much as I do. He doesn't need me as much as I do. He doesn't see non-response as an indication of rejection. He just see that he was either busy or he wanted a rest.

Anyway, I tried to call again but he is still unreachable. He is unreachable to all except his mother. Even his sister complained. Anyway, I have done my part. I didn't go on rejection mode and I called him. I rest my case. Besides, now that I see his house, there is no way he could have hear my calls.

I have just spoken to the friends from Isha. And looks like it went well, there were 42 persons who came. That's great! I am glad both C and M understand my situation. They too just want me to be happy.

Anyway, with that my feeling for Z settled down somewhat and I msg him that I have called him but he is unreachable. And I am going to overseas.

South Node in Leo
If Leo people doesn't remain conscious of the importance of this emotional connection, they may stop following through on their impulses to be generous with their partner. Then the partner may start doubting themselves:"What's wrong with me?"
They look around and see that other mates are being doted upon by their partners and wonder why they aren't getting the same attention. They then no longer feel that they are special to the Leo person and so they begin withdrawing to protect their own sense of self-worth. They also stop going out of the way to make the Leo person feel special. This starts a downward spiral and no one wins.
The unmet need to feel special and important to a significant other continues to grow and if this dynamic doesn't change, it leaves both people open to seeking alternative fulfillment. Then down the road, if someone comes along who says to either one of them; "You are really special!". Its all too easy to go into a new direction.


Soul
Perfect lesson for me. Luckily I overcome it and now having knowledge of Nodes, I know nothing wrong with me. It is just him.
Exactly, love is not unconditional.