Settling down with myself )6) - expressing anger

Feb 24
Father, I slept at 10 pm and woke up 4 am, 6 hours of sleep. I felt refreshed. I did my suria. Shakti and shambavi was fine. I doze off in the end.

Again, uncertainty with Z. Even with my heartful declaration, he just make a joke and laugh it off. The thing is he tries to talk about it but I wanted to switch it off.

Anyway, he didn't reply to my messages, and that mean he is very busy.

Soul without shame
U feel the pain, and u r larger than it. U experience a sense of allowing and support for the truth, without needing to do or be anything.

In the openness of a truthful heart, there are no boundaries, no walls against the flow of life, inside or out. U can know the experience of other people, of flowers, trees and squirrels, of the wind and rocks, because ur heart is completely awake, open and undefended.


Feb 24 Eve
Father, my slight outburst of raising my voice at the other gal has promoted my profile further. Both E and C came to me and told me about it.

The gal was pushing on strongly despite my numerous reminders. She seem oblivious. Anyway, I don't hold it cos that's just who she is. I am glad I was able to tell her that she was not direct but coming in too strongly.

I have not been able to do shoonya for the past 2 days due to meeting. And now I have to leave for next country on Mon and Tue.

Diamond Heart 1
We learn to develop the capacity to be aware of what is happening but not to identify with it; we develop what we call awareness and disidentification
U have to be aware of what's happening inside of u and outside of u.
Developing this capacity to pay attention and to disidentify at the same time ultimately leads us to experience our essence.
"In the world but not of it" not only describes the person who is free; it describes Essence itself.

U can dig in the body, in the emotions and in the mental events to find the precious substance. For eg, u can do bodywork to develop the sensitivity of ur body. U might explore ur emotions and sensation until u become so aware of them that u see subtle discriminations.
U see that u were sure an emotion is not an emotion; or physical is not physical.