Suffering is call to return to ourself, go back HOME

Feb 28 Eve

Father, I am tired. I now have my nice room to come back to. Spacious and nice. I miss Z and I called him but no response. For the first time, instead of naming him, unreachable. I just said he must be very tired cos he didn't want his mobile near him.

When I was on my ride back, I know I no longer believe the "rejection" mode anymore. Instead of taking his "unreachability" personally, I now accept that he is just v tired and want to have down time. Just like E and me too.

Suddenly I realised that perhaps talking to me is also tiring. He needs energy to crack his jokes, to keep me entertained, to avoid topics that I don't like. So, just give him space.
(Apr 1 - suddenly it occur to me on why he tries hard to keep me entertained. He tot he was boring and his ex left him. He doesn't want me to leave him. Thats show I am important to him. It is more than 1 year already and we are still going strong.)


Yea, let me remember his need for down time causes him to be unreachable and not because I am unlovable. I no longer take it personally.

Diamond Heart - book 1
The more we are in touch with ourselves, the more we feel this innate desire to know and be who we really are. We want the freedom to live as we are supposed to live, to fulfill our potential.
When we don't live that way, we suffer. That suffering, rather than being a problem that the Work aims to solve, is simply a hunger for our true selves. It is a signal that we want to return to our true nature.

Soul
Yeap, hence my blog; suffering is blessing

Father, I now acknowledge that I am hard working. When I got things I want or are committed to, I will do it. Perhaps, u could say I am too hardworking. I worked even when my true self no longer wants to. I lost myself.