Feeling angry

Mar 4
Father, I am not in a good mood today.
I took a jibe at N and immediately teacher bounced back. This time I didn't give ground. Nothing to lose. I have told her about N and she is still protecting him. She has taken out Ma and Me and now on my case.
For Ma and Me, they r attached to Isha. Whereas I am not, nothing to lose here. Mmm, payback time.

Father, I am angry and heart is beating. I want to be true to my feelings now. My heart is beating fast. I guess I got angry because I took the time to prepare the report. I did it out of responsibility. I didn't want to leave people in a lurch. And here I got pounced for the small jibe. Whereas his emails was so off-putting and bragging.


Truth is Now.
I used to push it away, rationalising.

Behind my anger is feeling hurt. I am hurt that instead of appreciating, she hit out at me. It is not worth it. I am doing this out of responsibility. I just wish to be left alone to do my practice. I am not even keen on ashram nor Isha.