Settling down with myself - dont want to be lead in Isha

Feb 26
Father, I am really not keen to volunteer in Isha. I am doing it out of responsibility. There is no passion for me.

I am only continuing cos I don't want to let people down and now with my new job, I really got no time. I really don't want to volunteer. Anyway, I asked and they have enough volunteers, so I don't have to go. I cried cos I really don't want to go. My only concern was in letting down my friends. Anyway, they can handle it. It is my arrogance to think otherwise.

I just want to do my new job and also have time for my writing.

Eight of Spades
This is the most powerful card of physical and willpower. When this card is present, u will find urself experiencing more power over ur health and work matters.
Success is indicated by this card, along with the ability to overcome any obstacles that may appear in a way.
Power comes from a focusing of our will, a narrowing down of the areas of our interest. Because of this, we often lose focus in less important areas while we gather force in one.

Soul
Yea, alas I finally said no to Isha. At first, I tot a group of 26 and I know I don't have to go. Later I found out is 54, I felt pressured to go. This is a big event and I felt responsible. Anyway, I know I really don't want to go. If I went it is because of responsibility.

Ruling card for the year
Pluto challenge
This could also be a year when u complete involvement with a certain type of work and u tend to resist letting go. If we realise that the time has come to move on and simply accept the timing of things, we can flow with this on to something much better. Something new and better ways always follow a nine year

Affirmation
I am releasing myself from things, occupation and people that were once good for me but have now outlived their purpose in my life. I set myself free to move on to higher and better things in my life.

Soul
Yea, lot of releasing.