Emotions are not bad...

Feb 14

Father, I did my asanas. It was fine. Shakti and Shambavi is ok too. These days I take it easy on myself. If I feel like resting, I would rest.

On Z, I am surprised but I am fine. I have called and msg him twice but he didn't respond. I think he wants to get his money sorted out first. "Face" is important to him. Looking at his card after 1 April, there is Queen of Clubs in Saturn and that is his wife. One always displays extreme in Ruling cards.

For me after 18 Mar is Five of Spades, change of life style, job location, which is true.

Soul without shame
If ur parents deplored hatred or greed or if they had difficulty tolerating ur explosive energy when u were angry or ur tears when u were sad, u learned that these feelings were bad. This inevitable led to avoiding, hiding or denying these feelings when they arose in u or learning to condemn urself for having them.

Soul
Yea, negative feeling is taboo. My father don't like us being angry or quarrel and mom doesn't like us crying or sad. No wonder, I become a thinker. Anyway, I can now feel.

Soul without shame
Ur contact with ur soul nature is diminished much more by blocking the experience of ur tots and feelings than it is by blocking their expression, because u learn to distrust the spontaneous movement of ur own responses to life.

Another aspect of growing up is learning to experience the value of ur experience whether or not anyone else sees it, responds to it, or approves of it. Expression is important because the child needs to communicate, be heard and be understood. Feelings not acknowledged by others will not be perceived or integrated.

Soul
True. I am now more able to express anger and sadness. I can also feel being overwhelmed.

(Mar 23 - now I know why I feel resentment. My expression of my need to get out from Isha was left unheard. I also ignored my own feeling as I sought approval from friends and teacher. Well, the Universe has helped by sending such a bad leader as a teacher. It broke the camel back. I finally stood up and said enough is enough. No more. I also don't care that I will lose my standing as Isha leader and friends.)