Hidden unlovability is what drives us (2)

Jul 1 Evening

Shared wit SY on my discovery that our root cause is unlovability.
She says that my level of lovability is much higher than her. We talked abt her inability to say No. I told her that is an outcome. She was safeguarding the rship, wanting to be loved and hence cannot say no.

She says now I can emphatise wit her confusion and dilemma. I replied that its humbling experience and I do emphatise with her.

Mmm, suddenly tot of C. Perhaps she doesn't want to open up, be vulnerable becos she afraid she is not lovable. Only when she act knowledgeable, she is lovable.

Father, suddenly tot of CEO. Her reaction of getting a third grade PA, is attached to her image as Glamour person. And if her glamour falls, her value falls and her lovability falls. That's why her reaction is so volatile as PA is part of her trophy.

Father, surprisingly now I can understand why people doesn't wan to change. The change may trigger their self image, increase their unlovability. That's why people don't act on change.
In my case, almost all reduce my unlovability, so easier for me to change. Except for counselling.
Father, let me not judge others. Its true I can slice and show them blood, but I now cannot judge them.

Osho
The moment humility is born, the door to the divine opens.

Soul
Thank U.

Osho
Never has before was the world in such dire need of meditation as it is today. And if we fail to make a large portion of mankind deeply involved in meditation, there is little hope for man's survival on this earth any longer, he will simply disappear from the earth.
There is already so much neurosis and insanity in the world, there is so much political madness.

Soul
Did my practices, today new acrobat style. Laughed so much. Could hav continued but I wanted to watch d drama. During d practice, tots came in and I told d mind to stop. Do practice and we can nego later. Father, unlovability is from the mind.

When I drove back, I cried for all the unloved people in d world, me included. The unconsciousness that I was searching was the unlovability in me. The part that triggered all fearful/defensive action.

So humbling, finally seeing myself at d core. And yet so liberating of all my judgements on people, those who are trigger-happy, those who are fearful to change. In the end, all is due to fear of losing love and etc.

Sadhguru
Once a person doesn't care whether he lives or dies, that person has no limitation. He can do anything he wants. People who want to live well, they have to think. Yes, they have to think hundreds of times; just once is not enough.