Hidden unlovability is what drives us (4)

Jul 5
Father, today my feet hurt and hand too, but I did suria namaskara. During d practice, its fine but now feet is pain. It was quite strenous, good that I am able to join.
As for family day, as expected little interaction.
The more worrying thing is that there is now new faces. This means the lack of interaction for the last few sathsang finally taken its toil. Need to communicate that to teacher.

Father, this mornin while driving, I was sitting upright with my whole back touching the seat, so comfortable. Also did a few rounds of loving affirmation.

Radical Forgivness
Makes very little sense to the rational mind, or at least to the part of the mentality that is grounded in everyday reality as perceived through the five senses. That's becos Radical Forgivenss operates according to spiritual law, not physical law. It is essentially a metaphysical idea.
Since the pain of separation is an emotional experience, we need a body to be able to feel it.

The human experience is meant to be an emotional one, so the extent to which we deny our feelings is the extent to which we deny our purpose for being here.

We are spiritual beings having a spiritual experience in human bodies.

Vibrationally, we live in two worlds simultaneously;
1. The world of divine truth (spirit)
2. The world of humanity.

Once we awaken, we can live comfortably in both.

The world of humanity is a spiritual classroom and life is our curriculum. Our lessons are the events that happen in life. The objective is to awaken to the truth of who we are and return home.

Life is not random. It provides for the purposeful unfoldment of our own divine plan, with opportunities to make choices and decisions in every moment guided by our Higher Self and ego.
We create our reality through the Law of Cause and Effect. Thoughts are causes that show up in our world as physical effects. Reality is an outplaying of our consciousness. Our world offers a mirror of our beliefs.

At the soul level, we get precisely what we need in our lives for our spiritual growth. How we judge what we get determines whether we experience life as painful or joyful.
Through rships we grow and learn. Through rships we heal and are returned to wholeness and truth. We need other to mirror our misperceptions and our projections and to help us bring repressed material to consciousness for healing.

Through the Law of Resonance, we attract people who resonance with our issues so that we can heal them. For eg, if abandonment is our issue, we will tend to attract people who abandon us. In that sense, these people serve as our teachers.
We come into the physical life experience with a mission; to fully experience a particular energy pattern so we can feel the feelings associated with that patterns and then transform that energy through love.
Physical reality is an illusion created by our five senses. Matter consists of interrelating energy fields vibrating at different frequencies.

Soul
All the abv is what I know except for last one that is jus belief stage.
As for emotional experience. Didn't realise its importance as I hav been denying negative feelings. I hav relegated emotion to third rate class. Ignored it.
　

Jul 5 Even
Didn't plan to share abt my unlovebility. A friend drop by and I shared. Coincidentally cos I was willing to go in deep and unravel a long hidden mirror of myself, it gave her courage to see too.
She has just gone in and see the depth of her self-loathing, unlovability stretched to max. And now she seen it. She doesn't feel better yet.

My reply to her;
Just feel and experience it. Give urself space to grieve over it. We deserve to give love to ourself. Once the grieve is over, u feel humbled and later a certain calm will arise. Remember its can be both ur strength and weakness. Once we know which side its playing, we can act consciously instead of unconciously, we become the master instead of its slave.

That's how I experienced mine. Once I unravel the unlovability. It no longer has me in its group and cause me to attract unloving people nor me to do unloving action. I taken d plug out of it.

Father, there is no mistake. Me being a Pluto card to 8 of Club, really help to transform her. And I m glad I experienced it before her so I can guide her into the darkness and lead her out into light. Amen.