Opening up to family

Jun 6

Father, my mom says m not nice cos don't let my nephew sleep in.
Surprisingly, m not feelin as bad as I did previously. I need my privacy cos m doing meditation tomorrow. I have not reached the state whereby I can do wit people watching.
So be it lah. I accept myself. Besides, I gave them a chance to go back and they didn't take it.
Aiyoh, next week another batch of nephews comin. They say sleep in on tue n wed nite. Hope my brother leaves before that.

Today meetup. The discussion led by CY was leading into world affairs and economic. I was curious and wonder where it leads to. And then I tot, yeah, he is just sharing his forte, like all of us. Since he has not venture into spiritual matter yet, he is not able to speak out. As for C, she shared abt her depression. Surprisingly, towards the end, she told me that she heard what I said in d previous session about self acceptance, accepting whatever mode I am in and she is practising in.

I also told her my insight on doorway. I now know her doorway is thru her body and she is using her mind, filling it up wit knowledge. I shared that she may wan to continue to cook, clean house and etc and infact she can do hatha yoga. Perhaps, that's why she has met me.

I wonder whether it is so, people's who strength is in body, somehow not able to control their mind/emotion. So, outcome is depression.
Whereas people like me who doorway is the mind and able to control emotion, is afflicted with the outcome of body.

I clik with Y. I told them I drop my intellect and now jus wan to be simple in my outlook. I also
shared that m localised and I believe I managed myself and people around.

Mmm, 7 thunder card. Elder brother is 9 of Heart and sis in law is 8 of Diamond. Mmm, no wonder brother break his rship wit us. We impede him and he would has impede us. Thanks to him not being wit us, we all grow independently.

My card with him. He is my Jupiter in Life and Spiritual spread and I am his teacher. He did give to me, but as for me teaching him, there is none since m younger than him. But alas, perhaps that's why he always 'dig at me'. Somehow, I make him felt insecure.

Osho
New Man
Your holy scripture is your whole life, and nobody else can write it - you have to write in.
You come wit an empty book, and it depends on you what u make of it.
Birth is not life; it is only an opportunity given to u to create life .. to create a life as beautiful, as glorious, as loving as u can imagine, as u can dream.

Korean drama
Jus now when d guy took d other guy hand and says "remove ur hand frm my woman", I felt bit envious cos she is protected. Wonder abt me.

8 July
Soul - mmm....my unconscious lovebility issue already arise to my awareness a month again