Meditation raised energy to give us awareness (2)

Jun 28
Shared wit LKand she says that sometime I poke directly wit a needle and it hurt. That's why people would avoid me.
Father, coincidentally. People like S, YL, SL all poke needle. They poke it without thinking of the others.
They r my mirror, I poke it also and in my case, people bleed.

　
Sadhguru
When u did Samyama, u r bringing out the whole truckload of karma. You opened the warehouse.

That's the reason why, when a person walks the spiritual path, in many ways - if they don't handle the situation properly - they will suffer much more than someone else, because they are bringing up large volumes of it. Others are just handling what is alloted to them. Now u r trying to take up the whole portion, u want ur Ph.D today, so u r not going step by step.

That is the reason why so much discipline was always brought into yogic practices, so that when things overwhelm u, u r able to handle that situation. Otherwise, if u open up things for which u r not ready, karma can just smother u completely. To live gracefully or not, that's not assured. That is something that u have to earn, there is no other way.

Sadhana is to live gracefully, to live beyond the present level of limitations.
Sadhana is done so that u create a certain sense of awareness and u r hastening the process of dissolution of karma so that ur prarabdha gets finished faster and faster.

If u dissolved some aspects of ur prarabdha, generally u r working towards the mental and emotional dimensions of ur prarabdha so that u can live in a blessed state for a longer period of ur life. U will then live without the struggles of the minds, the struggles of the emotions. That's a blessed state.
If ur energy becomes aware, ur life begins to move from compulsions to choice.

Evenin
Received an urgent mail for concall. Surprisingly didn't feel resentful, but feel bit victim. But I did follow thru, try to call people but no reply. I opened up the email and read thru the RFP and extract where I can.
That's all I can do. Contacted GM also to assist.

Let me focus on the positive. Surprisingly there was a reply frm Health and Awareness site. And she also asked for the flyer so that she can forward to other people too. Good start.
As for saturday intro. Jus saw Sadhguru dvd is 48 min. Jus asked for 15 min extension for sharing. Its fine.

Father, mmmm free from mind and emotion. That wld be great. Jus focus on day by day. Don't overwhelm myself. Lost my confidence wit CEO and close friend. I prick people and they bleed. Perhaps that's explain me being a Pluto card for so many people.

(Jul 24 - Just realised that during pre-meditation days, I would be much more affected. Now it has reduced at least 50 percent. So, meditation really does release me from the struggle of mind and emotion)