What is the mirror between me and CEO

Jun 22 Afternoon

Father, not sure. But these last 2 weeks, I really don't like CEO. I cannot find myself to understand her. I rebelled thinking since all people doesn't understand and like her, why should I? Why can't I be like the rest.
Why is my lesson to accept someone that is unlikeable?
It would be easier to accept myself.
Why am I not as understanding? Part of me feel that understanding won't help her. Part of me feel I don't need anymore challenges, I don't need to take pride in handling a boss from hell. I don't need to stand out and be recognised for able to handling challenges.
I don't need to stand out anymore to be of value. I just wan to be in whatever circumstances that makes me happy.

Osho
Why should one need to inbibes another, even Krishna. It is enough that I inbibe myself and am totally myself. It is the greatest injustic that someone can do to himself, by inbibing another.
The whole idea of imitation is mistaken and wrong. I have my own soul which should come to its full flowering. What will happen to it, to my own soul, if I inbibe another and copy him.
I owe it responsibility to myself and if I become like someone else, I will be betraying myself.
All sages' lives can help u in ur self discovery. Self discovery, and not assimilation or imitation, is what u have to seek.

Imitation is like a ready-made garment, buy and wear garments. You don't have to do a thing, not even to wait for them. It suits our easygoing minds which want everything gratuitously.
To explore and find one's own innate being is ardous, to imitate Krishan/Jesus/Buddha is easy enough.
It takes time to be oneself, but imitation comes in handy. Self nature, self-fulfillment, has to be earned, borrowing is effortless, convenient.
But this pusuit of convenience is disastrous. It really lands one into the very vortex of sorrow and misery. So, never commit to imitating others.
I call him a religious person who goes on a voyage of self-dscovery, who really discover himself. In the discovery of self, understanding sages is helpful. Because in understanding others, we lay the foundation of self-knowledge which is central to spiritualism. Instead of knowing oneself directly, it is easier to know through knowing others, because others provides u wit a distance, it perspective to know. Because there is a lack of distance between knower and the known, direct self-knowledge is really ardous. So in understanding oneself, the other is helpful. So, remember it is only a means in self understanding and self discovery, they are not your goal.

Soul
Mirror image.
Mmm, yea CEO lack of self acceptance is my mirror but I am not her. I can learn by accepting myself, and not by condoning her wrongful behaviour of causing unhappiness/fear in others.

Osho
The purity of self, this virginity, this unspoiled innocence is what matters. This ultimate purity or aloneness is called nirvana or ultimate liberation. This primeval innocence is called Krishna consciousness or God or what you will.
Ultimately every seeker, regardless of who he walks with (guru), only discovers himself.