To be honest or to be avoid difficulty

Jun 26

Father, thanks for letting me hav a good friend like V. He has given me an insight on the CEO and myself.
Firstly, I have pushed button subconsciously on CEO. I can push button if I am Coach or Guide. But if I am not, then it will not be welcomed.
I told him that all my bosses seeks validation from me. He replied that becos I could have push their button and they wan me to acknowledge that the 'issue' is resolved or not applicable.

Coach is the one to insightly push button to enable the person to recognise the issue and to transcend it. But it is not really welcome if I dispensed my insight without the seeker's agreement to do so.

So, from now onward, I would provide insights or push button carefully.

V also shared on CEO's emotional turmoil and her increasing insecurity. She has masturbated her mind till the very end, thinking that I was planning her downfall. No wonder she wrote the note that she knows m not malicious nor have a bad bone in my body. Looks like the "relationship building" really hits her.

Also, I guess I must tamper it. Me must play smart. Even if I don't meant it, I must say it. Will learn from GM. Will see the other person/seeker's insecurity and learn to say things or don't say things that would trigger the other person's insecurity. Like V says, m not learning from my own insights.

To be honest or to be happy. That's the question I should ask mýself. Previously, it was to be right or happy.
Why do I have to trigger people's insecurity unnecessarily? Why should I make myself a target for them to project their insecurity?
Father, I choose happiness. As for honesty, will only enforce with if they sought me out and give me approval.
Like Krishna/Sadhguru, I can play it anyway that is required by the circumstances. I am flexible and need not hold strong to my personality.
This would be CEO lesson to me.

When the fungshui master says CEO can't change her anger because its her character. I tot why not? Why should we stay on wit our character/personality if its no longer helpful to us? Why use it an excuse?
Now the same question I am asking myself. Why stay on wit my character on its creating unhappy situation for me? Why use it as an excuse to trigger people insecurity? Why make myself unhappy?

Thanks to CEO for giving me to opportunity to change. Thanks to V for making me aware, I hurt people feeling, pushing insecurity button.

Same case wit C, I also push her button for procrastination. Her button for inability to fulfill her promises. At first tot of sms and say goodbye. But then tot, she will be feeling bad so, saying goodbye will only make her feel worse. Also tot of pushing button to send me the cd. Nevermind, she is feeling insecure and bad without my reminder. Don't increase her guilt. This is abt her and not me.

Jus becos I forgive her, I need not make her feel guilty. She is not ready for the Light in me.
I am feeling better already. As for my mind working on d fear of future attack, jus the same of what CEO. Like what V says, our working tool can be too efficient. Effectiveness depends on d database, whether positive or negative. Same as our perception or mirror depends on what is brewing internally.

Ironically I shared wit V on CEO. She is positioning herself for chairman role and that's means she is lengthening her stay.
Mmm, then my strategy will be to void her stay.