RA pain is back (2)

Jun 29

Father, thanks for letting me meet d RA fellow. She looked quite bad and she is apply for early retirement, will get 50% of her pay

Something that I can explore also. Cos 50% will be more than enough for me. I now need not worry. I am glad for my social contribution fund.

Father, my cosmic lesson is 7 of Spade, card of Faith, to stay positive despite physical affliction.

As expected, RA is higher at 51. But m fine. Today Doc asked me to rate myself out 10 and I said is 4.
He wanted me to be aggressive in medication. I said nope cos I don't believe in it. Medication only preventive measure. It doesn't contain it and higher intake will only make the body immune to it.

Father, listening to Sadhguru. He says no matter how careful we are, we wouldn't be able to avoid unpleasent situation. So, no matter how capable we are, we cannot control the external. And we can only control our internal.
Tot of me and my current situation. Instead of thinking I failed or lapsed. Tot of how this can motivate me to manage my interior.