Amazing Sannidhi pooja, feeling Sadhguru presence during Brahmanda Swaroopa

Oct 17 eve

Took me an hour drive through traffic jam to get Thulasi leaves for sannidhi pooja
I got the Sannidhi pooja set ready before 6 pm, took a quick shower and changed into white clothes.
Sat down just before 6.10 pm in Shakti pose.
Light the incense and tears just came. Sat for awhile. Then start to pooja, but mixed up the chant.
Then start the cd songs. Just immersed in the sannidhi song. Feel so at home.

Then chant along Brahmanda, suddenly I felt Sadhguru presence and his hand touching my head. I cry profusely, just calling to Sadhguru and tears continue to flow. My tears flow profusely. His presence was with me throughout Brahmananda. After Brahmanda ended I sat for awhile with Sadhguru. Amen.

Many years ago when I first heard of Brahmanda, I hated it. There was much resistance. It took around two years plus during my visit to ashram that I finally succumb and start to sing Brahmanda. Now I know I was resisting my Guru. Hearing and singing Brahmanda gets me closer to Sadhguru and I was resisting it.

Later whenever I sang, sometimes bursting into laughter and sometimes cries. I only chant during Sathsang and Inner Engineering. I don't chant on my own, still avoid it.
The only time I did voluntarily is during Kailash especially on the bridge.

Now with Sannidi, I grown to love it. Alas can even feel Sadhguru touching my head. I come a full cycle. I finally accepted Sadhguru; I m truly baptised by Sadhguru. Amen.


Sadhguru on love.
Love is not something that you do. Love is something that you are. Either you can use somebody as a support to make yourself loving or you can simply become loving. After all, it is not somebody else’s quality, it is your quality. You are using the other person as a key to open this up. But you can also open it up from inside without the help of the other person. Then it is definitely more enduring because when you open it with the other person’s help – nobody on this planet is 100% reliable

If you are trying to extract joy, love and pleasantness out of somebody, this is going to be disastrous for both the people. I am not saying it is better to live alone. I am saying the way you are should be determined by you. If this is so and you are here to share your love with people, if you are feeling wonderful and you want to share this with somebody, then it will be very beautiful.

Nov 2
Soul
I know I am now loving with the Shrine.
Today, saw that the flowers for both Devi and Sannidhi not okay despite being 'fresh'. I bought new flowers and I feel they are now looking good.