Saturday, November 1, 2014

Breakthrough from the past

 Oct 13 eve

Looks like my right toes are not sprained. Its RA pain which I worsen by doing the walk last Sunday. It has swelled considerably. The tingling inflammation pain is considerable and I can barely walk. Just went to see a doctor who confirmed its RA.

Look like time to start on the neem and tumeric but not today.

Did something today that I tot I would never do. Acknowledged Z's wife on group chat.  Another breakthrough.

L said I seem to have gone into silence since I have the sannidhi.
In a way its true, the sannidhi resonates my silence. Silence now fills a big part of me.
Everywhere I can feel the silence and I savour the peace the silence brought me.
Alas coming home, looking forward to be in sannidhi presence.
Now I know why I m disturbed.
I have fall in love with silence but feeling afraid if I have lost my self..
Maybe thats what is needed, going into the silence...something I never truly embarked on out of fear of losing validation, out of fear of being out of the loop.

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