Falling in love with Cat Stretch

Oct 23

Had a good sleep without any stiffness after the massage.
Body has 'redness' due to 'quasa' being used. This is the first time I agreed to it. But I was feeling desperate as there is much heat in my body, the left part of my back head is tingling  with heat.
It has reduced much yesterday.
This morning can still feel its tingle, but much lesser heat.

Woke up at 4.52 am, an hour later as I am having breakfast at office.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by the corrected Cat Stretch. Love the Cat stretch. Yesterday Masseur said my shoulder has loosen up, I think it is something to do with the cat stretch. Yes, the shoulder has loosen up, that is a miracle.
Was looking in a method to loosen my shoulder, even tot of Upa Yoga, looks like it was the cat stretch.
Again such irony, used to dislike it and avoided it. I never do cat stretch as preliminary for Hata Yoga but instead sing guru pooja. But the last few months I begun to do Cat stretch reluctantly due to Angamardhana but alas wasn't the correct way. Now that it is corrected I am in love with it, especially since I know the benefits to my shoulder  and with that the improvement to Surya Kriya.
Angamardhana was quite effortless. Both forward bending and the squatting exercise is quite effortless.
Surya Kriya was good with alignment and both feet touches the ground on four mountain pose.
Breathing meditation is okay.
Shakti was good with 150 Kapala Bhakti. Had some tots of Z but didn't hold on to it.
Shambavi was good, sat in silent contentment for longer period.

This week card is real true. Been having tots of the past, especially on Z.
Also could be due to my menses delayed for more than 2 weeks.

4. Whats needed for resolution?
Moment to Moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet: both are unnecessarily moving in directions which don't exist. One used to exist, but no longer exists, and one has not even started to exist. The only right person is one who lives moment to moment, whose arrow is directed to the moment, who is always here and now; wherever he is, his whole consciousness, his whole being, is involved in the reality of here and in the reality of now.

This card challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now. Life is a great ocean in which you can play if you drop all your judgments, your preferences and the attachment to the details of your long-term plans. Be available to what comes your way, as it comes. And don't worry if you stumble or fall; just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh, and carry on.


Soul
Thats the right thing to do.
Yesterday when Massuer asked me if I found a replacement for Z. I said nope. I was comfortable in saying no. I am no longer anxiously looking. Whatever will be, will be.

5. Resolution

Awareness

Mind can never be intelligent - only no-mind is intelligent. Only no-mind is original and radical. Only no-mind is revolutionary - revolution in action. 

This mind gives you a sort of stupor. Burdened by the memories of the past, burdened by the projections of the future, you go on living - at the minimum. You don't live at the maximum. Your flame remains very dim. 

Once you start dropping thoughts, the dust that you have collected in the past, the flame arises - clean, clear, alive, young. Your whole life becomes a flame, and a flame without any smoke. That is what awareness is.

Soul
when tots of Z came, there were no regrets or etc. Remind myself that he only sees me as safe sex and our rship was a hidden one, quite dishonest I would say, suddenly tot of the Jack of Club in age 42 to 48.. I agreed to it cos I myself is private.
I just see the tots as the past.
And now knowing about body memory, I don't judge myself.
I can't help the tots from coming in, but I can help myself by being aware and not to be carried by the tots nor be affected by it. It is past.