Deb Shapiro - supppression leads to psychological imbalance

Oct 21
Woke up upon alarm at 3.52 am. Body is fine and I m thankful to my shrine. Yesterday pooja truly helps to reduce the stiffness in my left shoulder.
Did Bhuta Shuddi and followed with corrected Cat Stretch. Still not able to get to correct posture but at least maintain table pose.
Angamardhana was quite effortless.
Surya Kriya is very good with proper breathing, alignment and both feet able to touch the ground during mountain pose. My left feet back ankle has loosen up bit. The swell has reduced.

Left head still feel bit heaty and slightly heavy. Left shoulder is still bit stiff though better than yesterday.


Deb Shapiro
I was introduced to meditation when I was only fifteen years old.  I loved the merging into the quiet, the stillness. By the time I was twenty one I was teaching mediation. It had become my life, my focus and my healer.

Soul
That's what sadhana is to me. And it enhanced with the shrine with sannidhi.
Now that I finally know how complex I am, how suppressed I am; its understandable that meditation help to release all my suppression of emotions and movement.


Deb Shapiro
Now imagine u are a toothpaste. U are under pressure and beginning to experience psychological or emotional stress. But u do not take off the lid, as it were, by recognising what is happening and taking the  time to relax or deal with ur inner conflicts. So what happens to the mental or emotional pressure building up inside u? Eventually it has to find a way out and if it can't come out through the top (by being expressed and resolved), it will come out somewhere else.
It will find the weakest point - whether through ur digestive system, ur nerves, ur immune system or ur sleep patterns. Pushed down it becomes illness, depression, addiction or anxiety; projected outward it becomes hostility, aggression, prejudice or fear.

Soul
Mmmm. My weakest link used to be my immune system and I got cold easily. But after Bhuta Shuddhi, immune system has strengthened and hardly fall sick.
But body joints is the weakest one now. So it goes there.
Of course my excretion system never been top form, that get affected too.

Menses is delayed for two weeks. Been having tots of all my exes. I know this is psychological but it needs an expression. Just not sure what I m feeling.