Love is not attachment

Oct 30

Woke up 4.40 am but just want to sleep back as it is nice cool early morning.  So decided not to do Angamardhana. Woke up 5.20 am instead.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Cat stretch.


Got this from Facebook.

Tinybuddha
I had attachment to a person, an ideal, a hope. In many ways I had attached my personal happiness to this person.

In my mind the love of my life was attached and permanent, to me and for me. As I have now learned nothing in life is permanent. If we can appreciate this reality, we can open ourselves to cherish “now” moments.

Love is not about attachment or permanence. Love is about spending time with another person, sharing moments, experiences, and each other.

The moment we make it about “keeping” another for our own gain, our own need, it becomes about our ego, fears, and insecurities. A mindful, compassionate, kind being only wishes happiness and love for others. Sometimes happiness and love for others is moving on and letting go.


Nov 12
Just read this and decided to look at Z's latest pix of himself and wife.
Earlier refused to look out of fear of feeling envious.
Anyway, just looked and I don't feel the attraction anymore.
I like the old Z, not the new fatter Z.
The old Z was the one struggling, the one with vision.
Perhaps he is now okay as can see from the pix that they are doing overseas travel, which is what he wants. Z and wife truly meant for each other. They look compatible.
Slowly but surely knowing that Z was truly not right for me. His role was just to open me up.
Just as Y was not right for me. His role was to help me see that Z was not right for me as we are mentally not compatible. After the physical is explored, we would be unhappy with each other.
With Y, his culture not right for me. Also seeing how he treat his wife, truly domineering. I seen him glimpses of it.
And I am glad both Z and Y are not with me.
Amen.
I am truly at peace with where I am now.