Still on my sadhana despite the flu

Nov 13

Woke up at 4.20 am instead of 3.48 am as doing three Surya Kriya instead of six.
Body bit tired cos down with flu and nose is blocked. But not as bad as previously as I took tumeric powder and honey. Been taking twice a day.
This morning took neem and tumeric combined.
Father, without the flu I won't be taking the medicine. Looks like blessing in disguise.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Back has improved but still cannot bend my back.
Breathing was good.
Shakti was good too. Still keeping with slow kapala Bhakti. In the end contented silence.
Shambavi was good with the corrected cat stretch.
Had tots flowing in during Kapala Bhakti, some of Z, some of TV drama, some at work, some on local Isha. Was lost a bit in my mind.

Erich Fromm
The Art of Loving
I have to know the other person and myself objectively in order to be able to see his reality, or rather to overcome the illusions, the irrational distorted picture I have of him. Only if I know a human being objectively, can I know him in his ultimate essence, in the act of love.

Soul
I don't ask Z any questions whereas he asked me loads. Even when he asked i try to brush him off. So he got to know me a bit whereas I don't get to know him at all. That's why I didn't see his move. Guess I was afraid to know him or for him to know myself.
His main attraction for me was his loyalty to marriage as I had massive fear of being rejected of being left half way. Alas it happen as I didn't become his wife. He is now married to another.