Body not feeling great.

Oct 23 aft.

Tiny Buddha
Most of us know the pull of compulsions—from the siren call of the refrigerator and that last piece of homemade whatever to the thought or worry that keeps repeating to memory that shadows our lives. Mindfulness saves us by gently, gently, gently pulling us back into the world of the living, the world of new possibilities. But here’s the thing. Mindfulness is so gentle in it’s action, so subtle and inclusive by nature, that it needs the help of concentration (samadhi). In meditation, concentration on an object like the breath is a tool that keeps the sensitive attention of mindfulness anchored. The catch is that mindfulness brings meaning and understanding to what we see—without mindful awareness, concentration can become narrow and driven…compulsive.

Soul
Good one. Timely.
Father, been facing bit of constipation, not sure what I m holding back.

Thank for the release of stiff shoulder blade. The heat on left side of head has reduced.

Deb Shapiro
A stiff neck is a sign of emotional  stiffness and inner rigidity.

Soul
Neck is bit stiff.
Left head tingle again. Is this a mild headache?

Deb Shapiro
Deep within ur flesh are memories of ur past, unexpressed traumas, shocks and sadness. Layers of fat are built to protect painful memories or the events and tots that have formed ur fears.
Ur innermost beliefs find expression through the soft tissue, through ur shape and ability to move. Issues to do with soft tissues correspond to where ur thinking is self-negating, angry, bitter, hurt, self-destructive or self-limiting.

Soul
When I first start Isha, I begun to lose weight or rather I didn't put on weight as much. Then later with Z I start to put on weight. At first I tot it was the contraceptive pills. Later after the breakup I continue to put on, that was me using food as comfort. Then I lose weight when I stop taking meat and become seafoodtarian in Mar 2013.
After closure of potential romance with Y in Jan 2014 and then Angamardhana in Mar 2014, I had lost considerable weight. After Kailash in Aug 2014, weight continue to goes down despite double food intake. Appetite has increased considerably after Angamardhana.

Maybe now I no longer need to pad my body to numb feelings. As a result of no padding, now body pains starts to show up.
Father, what do I need to learn? What else I need to release.

Oct 23 aft

Sarah Miller on Oct forecast for Cancer
Your ruler, the moon, however, makes you nostalgic and emotional about the past. Keep focused on the future, dear Cancer. The past is done, but the future is where you can write your name across the midnight sky.

soul
No wonder keep on having tots of the past.