Lunar in 5th house - affairs of the heart, children and creativity

Oct 20

Woke up from a dream at 3.52 alarm. Feeling bit heavy as got some difficulty sleeping. It took me around 15 minutes, must be due to the little coffee I drank yesterday night.
But body is fine.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by corrected Cat Stretch
Amgamardhana was quite effortless. The hero posture was not painful and can sat in stillness.
Surya kriya was good too except that my left knee back ankle can't be stretched so unable to touch the floor. Breathe fluttering is good.
Breathing meditation is okay.
Shakti was good with 150 Kapala Bhakti and little tots. After the finale singing, went into deep meditative state.
Shambavi was good, went into deep silence.

While my left side forward bend is effortless there is a tightness to left shoulder. Was planning for massage but didn't happen. The swim didn't help cos I was unable to lift my left hand widely.

Lunar in 5th house
U are learning to take life less seriously and to play. U are also learning to accept good fortune and love.  U tend to want to know the motive behind everything that comes to u and to doubt whether u are really worth of receiving it.
By learning to release old emotional insecurities, u are more willing to take chances, stepping out into life for the sheer enjoyment of pursuing a new pathway.

The lesson of accepting is a difficulty one for u, yet it is essential that it be learned. If u are going to love the universe, u must first learn to love urself. To begin loving urself means first getting over ur hesitancy about accepting love, gifts and praise from others. When u live in a state of acceptance, u are truly able to give love not only on an individual level but on a universal level. At that time u will come up ur own true power and have the ability to teach universal concepts.

This lifetime u are learning how to deal with affairs of the heart, children and ur own creativity. Through procreation u learn how to incorporate the joy of ur creativity into existence.
As u begin to allow urself to be proud and accept love from what  u create in this existence, u also allow urself to develop an ego and self identity through what u create. This helps u get more in touch with ur creator and other universal energies. Learning to recognise that u have the ability to create puts u in touch with ur power to manifest ur own positive destiny.
Through consciously creating what makes ur life happy, vital and alive, u learn to accept responsibility for creating ur own reality.

Soul
I created my blog and website. Written a few ebook of my inner journey.
And on the way create my working life of 3 day week.
Create a temple of shrine in my room.
Create a life style of sadhana.
I have come to the realisation that I can create the happy life that I wanted. I need not wait for my husband to give me what I want. I can give myself what I want as I am financially and mentally capable.

I have come a long way.
Now let's see how I can create the marriage that I want.
Father, what's the next step, please.