May 23
Father, just did my practice. Was hoping to swim but it rained. Such a good opportunity today. I can actually start work late. Practice is good. Mind is still working bit on Z. But I decide to let go. I am now more direct in telling Z my feelings and what I want. Its time we talked whether we can compromise.
Sadhguru
Blissful state is not a goal by itself. This blissful state will eliminate the fear of suffering. Only when the fear of suffering is gone, only when this anxiety of "what will happen to me," is completely eliminated from u, will u dare to explore life. Otherwise u only want to protect it. It does not matter where u go, if u r not in that blissful state, security becomes the only issue.
Everything u r going through now, education, career, marriage and etc; it is all about the search for security.
Everything is about security: physical security, emotional security, psychological security, social security, financial security and etc. But it is all about security.
As long as the fear of suffering is constantly playing its role, u will not dare to really go into the deeper dimension of life. Only if u r drunk like this - totally pissed within u but fully alert - there is no fear of suffering. Wherever the hell u go, what does it matter? If they ask u to go to hell, u will go there, because u have no fear of suffering. Only when u r in that state of intoxication, are u willing to explore life.
Soul
Yea, I want Z to be open about us cos that makes me feel secure. When a relationship is known to others, less chance of it being ended easily. I was also afraid that since our view on marriage is not the same, we won't be married, again it is about security.
I love him and I want to feel secure knowing he be with me.
For him, he has failed a couple of times and publicly shamed by his divorce. So, to have an open rship creates more fear in him. That's what he was trying to tell me.
Such a dilemma, what gives me security will create insecurity with him. Father, I now feel at peace. I found my answer.
Father, suddenly tot of Sl and her boss. She loves her boss. No wonder such major drama.
Sadhguru
Once u r blissful by ur own nature, ur life becomes an expression of ur blissfulness, not a pursuit of happiness. And that is the shift that needs to happen.
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