Missing my dream

Jun 29 Aft

Father, a drama with E. I am really up to my neck. I told him this morning I wake up with a tot to quit by year end. I told him to back off and gave us time to set up my dept and that we r not like him. I told him to stop throwing spanner. He corrected and said he is throwing a screw.

Anyway, net is that I told him that I am wrong hire and I cannot cope with him. Anyway, we make up in the end. Father, we are like good friends that can 'fight' and yet be ok. We been through many rounds.

Father, I really cannot do this pace. I want to focus on my Top 5. I did the work just now and E relented and did the pricing. But I don't feel satisfaction, more of a sense of relief. I just want to do a good lunch.

Father, I am not afraid. This morning I tot I can do 2 days for old company, they pay me 6k and then I can do freelance recruitment for new company - maybe 3k. That is enough for me already.

Father, I know. This is part of growth. I am meant to be a Queen wherever I go.
My swan is out and I am worried I lost her. The eagle was before that. I know I have to combine eagle and swan.