Ego triggerred..but I didn't react

Jul 6 Eve

Father, the yoga event was supposed to be great. But I was cut down by the Core team.
Suddenly I tot perhaps that's how J feels too.
I guess in my case, it was greater cos I had and now I was cut down to size.
Lk also agrees with me that its the events that pull people in. Like me, she is also disappointed that guru poornami was not held.
V was also shocked. She said if this opportunity was given to Iy, they would grab it. Here she noticed it was not supported.
Anyway, I contributed 500 to make it work.
Who knows, perhaps they see this as me bragging again. I must remember that P is a Nine. Perhaps she is really angry about having to lead and she did the best way she knows how, which is to do task allocation, project work.
So, it is true...the culture of a team always depends on the leader. Since C is mild, and K takes a back seat, then P is the one leading it.

I was surprised that with such a video clip, she can still say we should go small, don't need big event. Perhaps, it was a scare of any event itself.

I feel hurt but I shouldered it. I know this is an opportunity from nowhere. It was funny, a few months ago Lk said to do IK event and I said no. Now I am doing for 2 k people. Aiyah, nevermind..maybe it will not materialise.

But I am glad K was on my side. She knows what I went through and so she understand.

Father, I am having suspicious tots of uprising. My auto defense mechanism. Just drop it. Its just another week till 15 July. So, no worries. After that, I won't join.
My conscious is clear. I just wanted to help out. Perhaps it could be taken wrongly as I make them feel small. That's what some people said about me.

Resolution.
The Fool
If u trust ur intuition right now, ur feeling of the "rightness" of things, u cannot go wrong. Ur actions may appear "foolish" to others, or even to urself if u try to analyse them with the rational mind.
But the "zero" place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.
Soul
I just do what needs to be done. Life is here and we move. No regrets.