Feeling settled after the drama with Z

Jun 25 Aft

Firstly, all the turmoil I faced yesterday with Z. He really did contact me for so many times. He called and msg me and called the hotels so many times. I let child cried loads yesterday. Luckily I tot of emailing him and I refer to Osho and it led me to see clearly. To allow my sadness to be and to have the courage to go with the flow.

Good thing is that I vented my anger. I am no longer afraid to show both anger and sadness to Z.
He also told me he felt bad about the previous botched date. He drove all the way outstation but couldn't repair the machine.
Father, he really deserved to be love lah. Something about him tug my heart. When he said he is ok with my menses, my heart melt. We slept so well together.

Father, thanks for guiding me with him. Thanks for yday episode, all the old fears of rejection came in and I faced it and I overcome it. I choose to let go of my past. I felt a sense of contentment. I am tired but fulfilled. Now issue is more at work. I don't really want to work.


1. The Issue
Ripeness
When the fruit is ripe, it drops from the tree by itself. This card appears when u r ready to share ur inner riches. All u need to do is relax right where u r, and be willing for it to happen.

Soul
Really not sure on this. But I know now is the time for Sadhguru. Actually I have turned into a Philanthropist. I have contributed 1k for ticket, then another 100 for car sticker and now another 200 for banners and I reached out to all. Actually I think raising money is easier for me, but I would say I too need to contribute.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Success
Enjoy the peak while it lasts and then enjoy the valley when it comes.
A peak is an excitement and nobody can exist continuously in an excitement. Low is relaxation.
All the phenomena in life, whether they be valleys or peaks, "this too will pass"

Soul
I m getting this card for consecutive weeks. I am not sure of the success. But I just want to know everything will pass, especially the work. On Z, that was our biggest finale to date and we overcome it. One thing I know is that both of us wants to be together.

3. External influence
Morality
Queen of Cloud lurks in the minds of us who have been brought up with rigid ideas of good and bad. All judgements are just products of our conditioning.
Only when we break through the cage of our conditioning and reach the truth of our own hearts can we begin to see life as it really is.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Integration
The politics is within u.
The eagle is the embodiment of power and aloneness.
The swan is the embodiment of space and purity, gently floating and diving, upon and within the element of the emotions, entirely content and complete with her perfection and beauty.
We are the union of eagle and swan
This card of integration is the symbol of self-creation, new life and mystical union, otherwise known as alchemy.

5. Resolution
The Fool.