Opening up to Z

Jul 9 eve
Father, after the whole drama on P and Isha. I tot I deserve a rest, then the mind swing to Z.

Shoonya and samyama was great. I noticed I have gone in deeper.

Anyway, called Z but not reachable and I left a msg - sometimes you can return my calls.
He called me back about 2 minutes later. He started to tease me etc and I wasn't in the mood. So, I hang up on him after 5 min.
I was tired and bit piss at him. He knows I was sad for a couple of days and expect TLC from him. Yet he still teases me. Then tears flow and I cried wailing. And felt better.
Mind saying Z doesn't love me etc, might as well break up and etc. Then I said why he didn't call me, he didn't love me.
I ignored it, I knew he was just teasing, wanting to make me laugh. On not calling back, he knows that when I am angry or sad, I don't want to talk.

After 15 minutes, I called him back. I told him about my feelings and he tries to comfort me. We chat about his biz and later on him getting his debt back from his friend.