Going a full circle - becoming a real eagle once I found the swan in me

un 27

Father, it was a good session. Suria was quite good. Shakti and Shambavi was deep. I am glad I woke up at 4.30 am since I slept late last night. I think let's make my time flexi. I have enough sleep and rest and can do my practices.

On the GE case, it is up to them to take it up. I share the idea and contact. I cannot take charge as my plate is full at work. And the E even tot of us doing APAC share services and as usual said I be leading it.

Father, I told E I cannot handle so many things. He said I be hiring people to do things, so be fine.

Aiyoh, this is really an expansion mode and with it come challenges.
Father, I am still seeing challenges or rather growth as suffering. I just want to rest.

A tot just came in - Go with the flow.

What is needed for resolution?
Integration
The conflict is in man. Unless it is resolved there, it cannot be resolved anywhere else.
The politics is within u; it is between two parts of the mind.

The eagle is the embodiment of power and aloneness.
The swan is the embodiment of space, purity, gently floating and diving, upon and within element of the emotions, entirely content and complete within her perfection and beauty.

We are the union of eagle and swan: male and female, fire and water, life and death. The card of integration is the symbol of self-creation, new life and mystical union; otherwise known as alchemy.

Soul
On challenges as opportunities, I can see it. The old me would grab it cos I needed challenges to feel valuation. The new me doesn't want it nor need it. I am just contented. Why don't the world just let me be?

Father, I used to be an eagle and then swan emerge and I want to be a swan. I no longer want to be eagle.
But why my life seems to go towards eagle direction.

Why can't I just be a swan now? It took me so long to let the swan within me arise. I am worried I lose my swan if I let my eagle comes up. I just want to be alone in my swan mode. I just want to savour myself. I don't want to reach out, I don't want to share.

A tot came when I read the Osho card. I have come a full circle, I started with being a pure eagle, then slowly turning into swan and now I am back to eagle.

This is similar to me being happy go lucky, then sadness came and now joy.

Perhaps the Swan in me is to make become a real powerful Eagle - not just outside but inside too.

Resolution
Be a fool in the Taoist sense. Don't try to create a wall of knowledge around u. Whatsoever experience comes to u, let it happen and then go on dropping it.
Go on cleaning ur mind continuously; go on dying to the past so u remain the present, herenow, as if just born, just a babe.
What is really yours cannot be robbed from you, that which is really yours nobody can steal from u.
The Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.
Soul
This card is asking me to trust and go with the flow. I need not worry about losing being a swan as it is in me.
As for being an eagle, my inherent is an eagle, a leader. I cannot stop being one.
I have both of them in me.


Jun 27 Aft
It is now 2.55 pm and I am still waiting for my lunch. Like SL says, I am transformed. She knows how much I love food.