When we are uncertain, be detached; don't decide

May 31

Father, I woke up 5.15 am. I now decide that I let my body sleep 5 hours. Sadhguru is doing 4 hours, so 5 is reasonable for me. I need not push it to 4. I find less reason not to wake up. Just doing the best I can.

Just go with the flow on the ending with old company.

Checked to my Osho and saw that Resolution card is Patience. Just wait.
Even for Z. All I can do is wait.


Diamond Heart - Book 1
When u r working on urself, u need the attitude of the warrior. U need to live the life of an impeccable warrior. To do all that u can do is to pay attention, especially at those times when u have a tendency to not pay attention.

Soul
Suddenly tot of my outburst to E. He was pushy but my response was bit overt. I know its the issue of unfairness. Just because I can stretched, why me! Why can't I too be a damsel in distress.

Diamond Heart - Book 1
We all need vacations from what we are doing even though we may be doing what is healthiest for us. If and when u want to take a break, u decide it advance, a conscious choice instead of being ruled by ur personality. U r acknowledging ur limitations, not excusing urself.

If u want ur aim to work, that's what needs to happen. If u don't give ur aim ur full and constant attention, if u indulge urself, the one who indulges will be strengthened. It is the infant in u, the part of u that does not want to be responsible. That part that continues to urn ur life.

Soul
Suddenly I tot. I really don't know what will happen in future. What is really best for me. My personality doesn't want to grow. It wants to hide.
What I know is best for me is my inner path. That's where I am going to focus on. As for the rest, just go with the flow.

Diamond Heart - Book 1
To deal with uncertainty impeccably, u do the best u can do in the situation. At the moment of uncertainty, u might need to pay more attention to urself, to take the attitude of the detached observer instead of deciding to go this way or that way.

As u confront ur indulgences, u will see that to continue to be really impeccable and not succumb to ur indulgences will mean letting go of all kind of things. Impeccability means letting go of those attachments.
To be impeccable is to be realistic. U don't expect from urself what u cannot do; u expect the best u can do. So, to act impeccably means to act with certainty.

If u r an impeccable warrior, u do not look to the future. Every minute u have a task. U r completely dedicated to that task and u r not thinking of the result. The result will happen without ur thinking about it. If u r thinking about the result, u r not impeccable.

May 31 Aft
Father, what an irony. I who thinks reporting is shit and low level job, now have to work on a complex excel.

This weekend, I will take time to learn it. All the while in other jobs, I always do that except for this one.