Blissful - joy

May 22

Woke up to do my practice. Only got one and half hour to spare, so did just shakti and shambavi. I find my body very nimble and I was laughing during aum chanting.

There were many tots. But I was able to ignore and focused on my shakti and shambavi. Somehow I had a tot that whatever I think is irrelevant. Anyway, when I am done, I just know love him and I am not ready to leave him. Also, I want to ask him whether he tot of marrying me or not. Its good to talk face to face. I am no longer afraid.

I see what I am facing and I am going in once more. I just know he is a good man.

Sadhguru
After years of focused research, scientist said that it is only because human body is producing its own narcotic that feelings of peace, pleasure and joy can happen within u (without any stimulus from outside). It is the chemistry of ur own joy or blissfulness.

Soul
From now onward, I will do my practice when I work with E. Yday night, I was sad about Z but somehow my joy still bubble through. I am no longer afraid of sadness with external as my joy is internal and not dependent on external.