I chose my Dream of 3 days week

Jul 4

Father, I realised now what P said its true. There is a drive or commitment in me. When I do something I like, I commit to it and I drive myself to it.

This morning, I woke up at 4 am, the body is fine but I really want to rest. I pressed alarm to 5.30 am and I woke up and I tot I really don't want to do anything.

I just want to rest as the last 2 days has been real hectic. The practices is work.
Now that I have 2 offices to take care, additional work comes in and I don't have energy for the well-being work. That's what making me unhappy.

Now I recalled, when I first started, I was only doing half hour for Shambavi. So, eventhough I work late, I still look forward to Shambavi. 8 months later, the work at old company was settled and then I channeled my energy to well-being work and did shakti and shoonya. Still it was fine. One year later, I tot of resigning and then got 4 days work and I did 3 hours in morning and 1 hour in evening. All together 4 hours a day. I slept about 4 hours plus but I was always sleepy on the road.

Now with additional work load from new company, I can no longer spent that type of hours on well-being.

The work on new and old company doesn't bring me well-being. And it is taking me away from my work on well-being. That's why I am unhappy and wanted to resign.

The same happen with volunteering work on Isha. I had to let go because I can no longer have rest time. So, letting go of Isha work has make me relieved and happier.

Now, work on new company is getting more as E has higher expectation with my team now in place. E is an extremely demanding boss who always over-deliver.

My Top 5 is my well-being. Work at corporate is just a means for me to have a comfortable life. Come year end, I need to cut either one. The one I remain would be the one that can give me 4 days work and I know E cannot give me that but S can. And in old company, I am my own boss and in new company I am not.

I am glad I told S and he told me he already fight for me to be in old company part time. So, my stay in old company is infinite.

Father, I feel better now. I know what I truly want. My well-being and my freedom.

Internal influence that u r unable to see
Consciousness
When u choose this card, it means that there is a crystal clarity available right now, detached, rooted in the deep stillness that lies at the core of ur being. There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind - the understanding u have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself.


Soul
Thank U. I needed this new company and the car to truly make me see.
If I didn't have the new company, I may still have wandering tot of what if. Now I can have the corporate sky but that's not what I truly want. I want my well-being. I want my happiness, my joy.
And I thanked S for not letting me go. For letting my part time position be infinite.