Apr 9
Today, last minute the fellow meditator cancelled our brunch appt. I told her that m disappointed cos notice given too late and also I was dressed. For a moment, I reacted by feeling bit hurt for her lack of consideration for my time and then the tot came
"This is not about you", the defense mechanism drop and I recalled she drop out last minute in the trip to Ashram, so this could be her standard mode. (Apr 23 - true enough, again she cancel the visit to park, she has spread herself too thin)
Osho
Once he accept himself, hec can be a real therapist. He will allow freedom, he will simply be a presence, a light, a joy. He will not make any effort to make the patient normal. He will just share his energy.
The therapy will be wu wei; it will be action in inaction, it will be feminine. It will not force, it will simply pursuade.
The therapist is centred, grounded, is flowing; his presence, his light; his love, will help the patient's energy to come up, to surface in his being. It was always there, it lost contact.
In Zen community, they don't call him a patient, instead they call him a person who needs a prayer, a person who needs meditation, a person who needs relaxation, a person who was too much in the world and has become too tense, too tired. He is not hospitalised, he is sent to a temple to renew your contact with God because he is the source of healing.
Slow down. Relax. Forget ideals. Forget that there is any future. Let this moment be all. Relax. Enjoy the small things of life, so that you are not going, so that you are not always projecting some desire into the future. You don't have a future. Whenever the right moment comes, it will happen. You need not worry about it, you need not plan for it.
Soul
Yea, ideal. Something I have not totally let go. Part of me still tot I have not arrive becos I don't have a partner. I don't have my Top 5 fulfilled.
Osho
Sometimes you will feel like doing something; do, pour your heart in it, it will be a beautiful flowering. Sometimes you won't want to do, say so, be clear about it, there is no need to camouflage it.
Soul
In general I won't do what I don't want, unless I got no way out.
Volunteering - m not keen, I won't do. But once I am in, I give 100 percent.
Osho
Each day, each moment, free yourself from all that u have known and again become a child. To become so innocent, like a child, is the way to live and to live abundantly.
Soul
These few days, little laughter in the evening and morning even more rare. What's happening? Am I on the right track? Now that I know I achieved little samadhi and both P and M says that they can access deeper within whenver they hear me laugh. It becomes a responsibility. What if I don't laugh anymore? What about this coming Sathsang? I earlier wrote email abt being so estatic and now no emotion and here this sunday, I am supposed to share abt samyama. How? I have increased expectation and now I felt pressured to fulfill? When did this become an achievement? What's happening to me?
Sadhguru
Samyama, all emotions are cut down and just pure awareness is brought about.
Drop ur stupid thinking. All this high and low, right and wrong , is only in ur mind. When you simply look at everything, everything seems to be okay. Everything is just part of one unit. Or does the sky look better than the mountain?
Guru Pooja
Anyone - whether holy or unholy, whatsoever state he has reached - who mediates upon the lotus eyes lord become sanctified both internally and externally.
This means you are not involved in ur own self emancipation. You are not trying to improve yourself. You are not trying to purify yourself. You just contemplate on what you hold as the highest right now. Whatever is highest, you just contemplate on that. Your inner and outer purity will happen naturally.
If you try to emancipate yourself, to improve or purify yourself, the more and more you do it, the more of a mess u will be.
Soul
Thank u, Sadhguru.
Guess, I was trying to work into a frenzy. To be on the right perspective, its true I have little laughing experience this week, but the alternative tot or the awareness tot of 'This is not about you' is something very powerful and dissolve my defensivness.
Perhaps its true, I begin to attached myself with my laughter, my so called samadhi. I used not to be bothered abt it but now I am attached.
Sadhguru
Jus make the sadhana as an offering. Do it joyfully without expectation.
Soul
Father, this is reminiscent of the What is needed for resolution - Stress card.
Things are happening on their own accord. There is no need for me to make any struggle, any effort; there is no need for me to fight for anything. I can relax and be.
Resolution
Only if u r not ambitious, no desire to achieve enlightenment, u can remain in the present.
A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premeditated.
Don't worry if u stumble or fall, just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh and carry on.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Accept my role (10)
Apr 8
Whenever m disturbed, I really becos I think it is me, have to defend my turf. When I think it is not about me, I have alternative tot.
Will help new PA who is my staff.
Will help ex colleague who is my staff.
Yea, jus started on Osho book. He says that when u no longer wan to improve. When u accept urself wholly, good and bad, you also don't want to improve anyone else. You don't wan to change urself nor anyone.
Yea, that's how I feel. I used to wan to help people to be better, to know themselves. These days, I got no comment, except to say to each its own. Everyone has their own karma and if he/she is not ready to do the lesson, who am I to intervene. Besides, let me handle myself. My responsibility is to me.
But alas, my destiny calls. I have the knowledge to help. So, I will offer. But I do stop short cos I don't wan to force it.
Osho book says that a person who has accept himself/herself fully has also accepted the Now. This person will be a real psychotherapist. He give freedom of choice to the people he help. He doesn't force change but instead pursuade change.
Wit that I am going to help ex colleague who had an emotional breakdown and now under psychiatric care.
In the Osho book, it says that people who has a break down, is just tired, too tense, too much of the world. They just need a good rest.
I tot they need to recollect, need to find energy and I tot of IE. Earlier I didn't press cos not sure if IE can help her.
But if what she need is just to recover, IE will give her back her inner energy. Also, she will stay grounded n not fly wit her emotion. Yea, will pursuade her to do IE in Spore instead of KL cos then its 3 months delay.
Father, d Osho weekly card of ripeness is so right. I wonder what I can do. And here you send to me people that need help.
Even a fellow meditator wanted to read the 7thunder card.
Whenever m disturbed, I really becos I think it is me, have to defend my turf. When I think it is not about me, I have alternative tot.
Will help new PA who is my staff.
Will help ex colleague who is my staff.
Yea, jus started on Osho book. He says that when u no longer wan to improve. When u accept urself wholly, good and bad, you also don't want to improve anyone else. You don't wan to change urself nor anyone.
Yea, that's how I feel. I used to wan to help people to be better, to know themselves. These days, I got no comment, except to say to each its own. Everyone has their own karma and if he/she is not ready to do the lesson, who am I to intervene. Besides, let me handle myself. My responsibility is to me.
But alas, my destiny calls. I have the knowledge to help. So, I will offer. But I do stop short cos I don't wan to force it.
Osho book says that a person who has accept himself/herself fully has also accepted the Now. This person will be a real psychotherapist. He give freedom of choice to the people he help. He doesn't force change but instead pursuade change.
Wit that I am going to help ex colleague who had an emotional breakdown and now under psychiatric care.
In the Osho book, it says that people who has a break down, is just tired, too tense, too much of the world. They just need a good rest.
I tot they need to recollect, need to find energy and I tot of IE. Earlier I didn't press cos not sure if IE can help her.
But if what she need is just to recover, IE will give her back her inner energy. Also, she will stay grounded n not fly wit her emotion. Yea, will pursuade her to do IE in Spore instead of KL cos then its 3 months delay.
Father, d Osho weekly card of ripeness is so right. I wonder what I can do. And here you send to me people that need help.
Even a fellow meditator wanted to read the 7thunder card.
Accept my role (10)
Apr 7 evenin
Osho
If u interfere with ur own life, if you have some ideal of how it should be, the ideal brings interference. The "should" is the interference.
God is not something that you can avoid, but if you have some ideal you can postpone.
One should allow God to do whatsoever he wants. Let His Will be done.
If u try to improve urself, u will try to improve others. Your own disease goes on overflowing onto others.
Once you stop improving upon yourself, once you accept yourself as you are unconditionally, with no grudge, with no complaint; once you start loving yourself as you are, all interference disappears.
Accepting what is now, can one be a psychotherapist. He can as he will allow freedom; he will simply be a presence, a light, a joy. He is not going to change the patient, though the patient will be changed.
The theraphy will be Wu Wei; it will be action in inaction, it will be feminine. It will not be aggresive, it will not force the patient to be healed; it will simply pursuade.
Osho
If u interfere with ur own life, if you have some ideal of how it should be, the ideal brings interference. The "should" is the interference.
God is not something that you can avoid, but if you have some ideal you can postpone.
One should allow God to do whatsoever he wants. Let His Will be done.
If u try to improve urself, u will try to improve others. Your own disease goes on overflowing onto others.
Once you stop improving upon yourself, once you accept yourself as you are unconditionally, with no grudge, with no complaint; once you start loving yourself as you are, all interference disappears.
Accepting what is now, can one be a psychotherapist. He can as he will allow freedom; he will simply be a presence, a light, a joy. He is not going to change the patient, though the patient will be changed.
The theraphy will be Wu Wei; it will be action in inaction, it will be feminine. It will not be aggresive, it will not force the patient to be healed; it will simply pursuade.
This is not about you
Apr 7
Today checked on d order for 7thunders materials wit friend. She tells me that she didn't buy cos was waiting for discount. A whole month delay and she didn't update me that she has not order. Of course, ego reacted - why didn't tell me? Why delay buying? Why can't buy? If cannot shld have tell me and I can order it myself. For 5 min, ego was reacting.
Suddenly another voice came in, "This is not about you". I stopped, and asked if it is not abt me, then could it be about her instead. If its about her, my question is then why is she procastinating? Immediately ego dies down and stop reacting.
Key phrase ; "This is not about me" - it takes the personal tone out of the situation and hence defensiveness also dies down. Since it is not about us, nothing to defend against.
This morning mom was grumbling that I was too much into isha. Here I came late at night and yet wake up so early in the morning. She says I am working and should not be stressing myself out.
Osho card for the week
The issue - Ripeness
When the fruit is ripe, it drops from the tree by itself. The tree has recognised its ripeness and simply let go.
This indicates that you are ready to share your inner riches, your 'juice'. All you need to do is relax right where you are, and be willing for it to happen.
This sharing of yourself, the expression of ur creativity, can come in many ways. No special preparation is required on ur part.
Soul
Very appropriate cos am helping out in hatha yoga. I know I am ripe cos my receptivity has increased so much. Once I encountered energy, my mind is immediately silenced and I move into meditation mode without any effort from me. Its like I am part of the Energy.
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see
Thunderbolt
This card shows a tower being burned, destroyed, blown apart. A man and a woman leaping from it not because they want to, but because they have no choice. In the background is a transparent, meditating figure representing the witnessing consciousness.
Soul
I think this relates to me laughing and meditating without my consent. I couldn't help it and bit fearful. Also not sure of the impact, except I felt good after being Lost.
3. External influnce of which you are aware
Silence
The energy of the whole has taken possession of you. You are possessed.
Now it is a very precious time.
It will be easy for you to rest inside, to plumb the depths of your inner silence to the point where it meets the silence of the universe. There's nothing to do, nowhere to go, and the quality of your inner silence permeates everything you do.
It might make some people uncomfortable, accustomed as they are to all the noise and activity of the world.
Never mind, seek out those who can resonate with your silence - or enjoy your aloneness. Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of your life.
Soul
So correct. Yea, forget about others. Jus be myself. I can't help it if they are not accessing to the Energy. I can only help myself. This is a precious time.
4. What is needed for resolution
Stress
The essential man comes to know, to feel, "I am not separate from the whole, and there is no need to seek and search for any destiny on my own. Things are happening of their own accord. There is no need for me to make any struggle, any effort; there is no need to fight for anything. I can relax and be.
The accidental man is a doer, will know anxiety, stress.
Soul
Yea, thanks for reminder. I was driving myself again.
I am bit stressed firstly to finish all d reporting cos I have one day off weekly. This is a good problem.
I am also worried that nothing will come out of the time off I am taking. It already has started. And here I got nothing planned. I don't wan to sit home and do nothing. I don't wan to take care of the baby.
Guess that's why I reacted when my friend says she hasn't even place order yet. I expect to get it in April. Looks like delay by one more month.
Nevermind, will do PR for Isha.
The understanding
Moment to Moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet.
You can be in the present only if you are not ambitious - no accomplishment, no desire to achieve power, money and prestige and even enlightenment.
Only a non-ambitious man can remain in the present. A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premediatated.
This card challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now.
Life is a great ocean in which you can play if you drop all your judgements, your preferences and attachment to the details of your long-term plans.
Be available to what comes your way, as it comes. And don't worry if you stumble or fall, just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh and carry on
Soul
Amen
Today checked on d order for 7thunders materials wit friend. She tells me that she didn't buy cos was waiting for discount. A whole month delay and she didn't update me that she has not order. Of course, ego reacted - why didn't tell me? Why delay buying? Why can't buy? If cannot shld have tell me and I can order it myself. For 5 min, ego was reacting.
Suddenly another voice came in, "This is not about you". I stopped, and asked if it is not abt me, then could it be about her instead. If its about her, my question is then why is she procastinating? Immediately ego dies down and stop reacting.
Key phrase ; "This is not about me" - it takes the personal tone out of the situation and hence defensiveness also dies down. Since it is not about us, nothing to defend against.
This morning mom was grumbling that I was too much into isha. Here I came late at night and yet wake up so early in the morning. She says I am working and should not be stressing myself out.
Osho card for the week
The issue - Ripeness
When the fruit is ripe, it drops from the tree by itself. The tree has recognised its ripeness and simply let go.
This indicates that you are ready to share your inner riches, your 'juice'. All you need to do is relax right where you are, and be willing for it to happen.
This sharing of yourself, the expression of ur creativity, can come in many ways. No special preparation is required on ur part.
Soul
Very appropriate cos am helping out in hatha yoga. I know I am ripe cos my receptivity has increased so much. Once I encountered energy, my mind is immediately silenced and I move into meditation mode without any effort from me. Its like I am part of the Energy.
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see
Thunderbolt
This card shows a tower being burned, destroyed, blown apart. A man and a woman leaping from it not because they want to, but because they have no choice. In the background is a transparent, meditating figure representing the witnessing consciousness.
Soul
I think this relates to me laughing and meditating without my consent. I couldn't help it and bit fearful. Also not sure of the impact, except I felt good after being Lost.
3. External influnce of which you are aware
Silence
The energy of the whole has taken possession of you. You are possessed.
Now it is a very precious time.
It will be easy for you to rest inside, to plumb the depths of your inner silence to the point where it meets the silence of the universe. There's nothing to do, nowhere to go, and the quality of your inner silence permeates everything you do.
It might make some people uncomfortable, accustomed as they are to all the noise and activity of the world.
Never mind, seek out those who can resonate with your silence - or enjoy your aloneness. Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of your life.
Soul
So correct. Yea, forget about others. Jus be myself. I can't help it if they are not accessing to the Energy. I can only help myself. This is a precious time.
4. What is needed for resolution
Stress
The essential man comes to know, to feel, "I am not separate from the whole, and there is no need to seek and search for any destiny on my own. Things are happening of their own accord. There is no need for me to make any struggle, any effort; there is no need to fight for anything. I can relax and be.
The accidental man is a doer, will know anxiety, stress.
Soul
Yea, thanks for reminder. I was driving myself again.
I am bit stressed firstly to finish all d reporting cos I have one day off weekly. This is a good problem.
I am also worried that nothing will come out of the time off I am taking. It already has started. And here I got nothing planned. I don't wan to sit home and do nothing. I don't wan to take care of the baby.
Guess that's why I reacted when my friend says she hasn't even place order yet. I expect to get it in April. Looks like delay by one more month.
Nevermind, will do PR for Isha.
The understanding
Moment to Moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet.
You can be in the present only if you are not ambitious - no accomplishment, no desire to achieve power, money and prestige and even enlightenment.
Only a non-ambitious man can remain in the present. A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premediatated.
This card challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now.
Life is a great ocean in which you can play if you drop all your judgements, your preferences and attachment to the details of your long-term plans.
Be available to what comes your way, as it comes. And don't worry if you stumble or fall, just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh and carry on
Soul
Amen
Accept my role (9)
Apr 6 Even
Yday, close eyes I will be laughing. Today, close eyes I will be meditating. Immediately, silence comes into my mind and my body moves into meditation mode. Just now ending wit sleeping asana, suddenly I felt my lower stomach pushes out air into my lung. I faced this one or two times before during Samayama.
Six of diamond
Regardless of the situation, we can be sure that the 6 diamond is getting exactly what he or she deserves.
They are givers and can be entrusted with great responsibilities
What they have to give is a clear knowledge of higher values and the discrimination to make better personal choices.
Queens can make excellent counselors, teachers and promoters of good. They can play an instrumental part in helping large group of people better their lives. They have a lot of natural leadership ability and are able to gather people together for a good purpose.
Yday, close eyes I will be laughing. Today, close eyes I will be meditating. Immediately, silence comes into my mind and my body moves into meditation mode. Just now ending wit sleeping asana, suddenly I felt my lower stomach pushes out air into my lung. I faced this one or two times before during Samayama.
Six of diamond
Regardless of the situation, we can be sure that the 6 diamond is getting exactly what he or she deserves.
They are givers and can be entrusted with great responsibilities
What they have to give is a clear knowledge of higher values and the discrimination to make better personal choices.
Queens can make excellent counselors, teachers and promoters of good. They can play an instrumental part in helping large group of people better their lives. They have a lot of natural leadership ability and are able to gather people together for a good purpose.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
My accidental inner journey into Divine
Apr 6
Father, slept only 4 hours cos was reading Osho and also becos I ate late due to volunteer for hatha yoga.
Actually I didn't see myself as volunteering. I am just sharing what I know. I am just helping where I can. I just want everyone to experience what I have cos it is attainable.
This mornin, did the hatha yoga, I was laughing quite a lot. I am wondering why they didn't get any experience from hatha, unlike me. Perhaps, I should have been aware that jus like Teethakoon, not everyone have such experience.
Osho
The day the shadow of your I disappears, the day neither I nor you remains, on that day you will no longer have to search for the divine - the divine will come searching for you.
No man can search for the divine because he does not have the capacity for such a search. But when somebody has become ready to disappear, has become ready to be nobody, has become ready to become an emptiness, then the divine will certainly find him.
Soul
It came when I was at my ends, no longer trust myself. Know my mind is shitty and no amount of self discovery can clean it. So, I was ready and when Sadhguru says he offer Energy path, I was so overwhelmed with thanks that I can be still be saved.
My accidental journey into Isha has been so effortless despite my resistance. While I was committed, I was not serious and lots of time didn't follow instructions but yet despite all this, my experience has been so amazing. Thanks to Sadhguru for finding me. For coming here when I am ready.
Osho
Only the divine can seek the divine because even in seeking, the ego is present: "I am seeking, I have to attain God; I have every material gains - now the last goal remain - I also want to attain the divine.
Soul
I wasn't lookin for divine enlightenment. I just wan to find ME. I know Isha is not me. I used it just like a tool. But the rest of them sees it as their lifeline. For me. Its part of my life style, just like d food I eat to get pleasure/survive. Isha is for me to get peace of mind. The joy that arise in me is totally unexpected.
Osho
So a religious person is not one who sets out in search of the divine; a religious person is one who sets out in search of his I - and the more he goes on searching, the more he will find that his I is not at all there.
And the day the I no longer remains, on that day the door which is hiding love will open for him
So, search for your Self; not for the divine.
Soul
I am on the right track.
Osho
Find out your Self; what it is? Where it is? Who it is?
And as you search for it, you will be surprised to find that this I does not exist. It was an absolutely false notion. It was your imagination I exists, it was an illusions that you were nourishing.
And the day you come to know that there is no I inside you, you have come to know the whole, that which really is - the being, the existence, the divine.
Explore love from this dimension. This exploration will begin with the ego and it will end with the attainment of love.
The man who sets out on this exploration not only will find an I but he will also attain to the divine.
Someone who is tied to the stake of the I is not able to undertake the journey into the ocean of the divine.
Soul
I am on the right track. When I started this inner journey, my objective is to clean out all my unconscious as I cannot let my unconscious control me. I want to be conscious, I want to be the master of my life. Little did I knew that after such ardous journey, I only found there is just a little me and not big Me. All such a waste.
Then wit Isha, it went into the divine level and joy arise within me. Now who knows, love is next.
Osho
I is the first thing is a person's life and I is the last.
The person tied up in the I experiences pain, and after becoming free of I, he attains to bliss.
There is no story, no tale except I
There is no dream except I.
There is no lie except I.
Soul
Tell me about it. Such shit.
Osho
Find this I, and the doors to bliss can open.
If the rock of the I is shattered, the springs of love will start flowing.
Then the heart will fill with music of love.
When the heart is fill with love, a new journey starts which is difficult to describe in words. That journey will take you to the very certain of life.
Soul
My heart is now filled with music. Who knows, maybe love is next. Love is sharing.
Osho's blessing
I hope and prayed to God that everybody will be blessed enough to attain to love, that everybody will be blessed enough to get rid of the disease of I, that everybody will be blessed enough to find that which is already within them.
Soul
Amen
My email on laughter and d park
As expected no one reply my email on d park thingy. This is just like when I first started shambavi and no one comment on my laughter, they jus ignore/deny it. V says they were envious.
Then when I begin to laugh so much and worry abt disturbing others since they says m noisy meditator, no one came and says m fine.
Its only until a new fellow meditator came in late last year and told me she like my energy and when I laugh, she felt such overwhelming feeling and begin to cry.
Then now after 6 mths later, M says the same thing. Who knows, maybe only they can access my energy. The rest can't.
Mmm, first tot felt rejection and don't wan to share anymore. Then I tot forget it. I will jus be me.
Father, slept only 4 hours cos was reading Osho and also becos I ate late due to volunteer for hatha yoga.
Actually I didn't see myself as volunteering. I am just sharing what I know. I am just helping where I can. I just want everyone to experience what I have cos it is attainable.
This mornin, did the hatha yoga, I was laughing quite a lot. I am wondering why they didn't get any experience from hatha, unlike me. Perhaps, I should have been aware that jus like Teethakoon, not everyone have such experience.
Osho
The day the shadow of your I disappears, the day neither I nor you remains, on that day you will no longer have to search for the divine - the divine will come searching for you.
No man can search for the divine because he does not have the capacity for such a search. But when somebody has become ready to disappear, has become ready to be nobody, has become ready to become an emptiness, then the divine will certainly find him.
Soul
It came when I was at my ends, no longer trust myself. Know my mind is shitty and no amount of self discovery can clean it. So, I was ready and when Sadhguru says he offer Energy path, I was so overwhelmed with thanks that I can be still be saved.
My accidental journey into Isha has been so effortless despite my resistance. While I was committed, I was not serious and lots of time didn't follow instructions but yet despite all this, my experience has been so amazing. Thanks to Sadhguru for finding me. For coming here when I am ready.
Osho
Only the divine can seek the divine because even in seeking, the ego is present: "I am seeking, I have to attain God; I have every material gains - now the last goal remain - I also want to attain the divine.
Soul
I wasn't lookin for divine enlightenment. I just wan to find ME. I know Isha is not me. I used it just like a tool. But the rest of them sees it as their lifeline. For me. Its part of my life style, just like d food I eat to get pleasure/survive. Isha is for me to get peace of mind. The joy that arise in me is totally unexpected.
Osho
So a religious person is not one who sets out in search of the divine; a religious person is one who sets out in search of his I - and the more he goes on searching, the more he will find that his I is not at all there.
And the day the I no longer remains, on that day the door which is hiding love will open for him
So, search for your Self; not for the divine.
Soul
I am on the right track.
Osho
Find out your Self; what it is? Where it is? Who it is?
And as you search for it, you will be surprised to find that this I does not exist. It was an absolutely false notion. It was your imagination I exists, it was an illusions that you were nourishing.
And the day you come to know that there is no I inside you, you have come to know the whole, that which really is - the being, the existence, the divine.
Explore love from this dimension. This exploration will begin with the ego and it will end with the attainment of love.
The man who sets out on this exploration not only will find an I but he will also attain to the divine.
Someone who is tied to the stake of the I is not able to undertake the journey into the ocean of the divine.
Soul
I am on the right track. When I started this inner journey, my objective is to clean out all my unconscious as I cannot let my unconscious control me. I want to be conscious, I want to be the master of my life. Little did I knew that after such ardous journey, I only found there is just a little me and not big Me. All such a waste.
Then wit Isha, it went into the divine level and joy arise within me. Now who knows, love is next.
Osho
I is the first thing is a person's life and I is the last.
The person tied up in the I experiences pain, and after becoming free of I, he attains to bliss.
There is no story, no tale except I
There is no dream except I.
There is no lie except I.
Soul
Tell me about it. Such shit.
Osho
Find this I, and the doors to bliss can open.
If the rock of the I is shattered, the springs of love will start flowing.
Then the heart will fill with music of love.
When the heart is fill with love, a new journey starts which is difficult to describe in words. That journey will take you to the very certain of life.
Soul
My heart is now filled with music. Who knows, maybe love is next. Love is sharing.
Osho's blessing
I hope and prayed to God that everybody will be blessed enough to attain to love, that everybody will be blessed enough to get rid of the disease of I, that everybody will be blessed enough to find that which is already within them.
Soul
Amen
My email on laughter and d park
As expected no one reply my email on d park thingy. This is just like when I first started shambavi and no one comment on my laughter, they jus ignore/deny it. V says they were envious.
Then when I begin to laugh so much and worry abt disturbing others since they says m noisy meditator, no one came and says m fine.
Its only until a new fellow meditator came in late last year and told me she like my energy and when I laugh, she felt such overwhelming feeling and begin to cry.
Then now after 6 mths later, M says the same thing. Who knows, maybe only they can access my energy. The rest can't.
Mmm, first tot felt rejection and don't wan to share anymore. Then I tot forget it. I will jus be me.
Only one whose heart love has arisen, can love
Apr 5
Father, these days I noticed my mornin meditation - no laughter. But today Suria, I was laughin.
Osho
When a person who lives a natural and spontaneous life is the master of his memory, the person who lives a sequential life is just a slave to his memory.
Soul
Yday I was angry for 10 min wit my brother in law for insisting on his own way. Of course, I calmed down later n we become ok. I judged him for his arrogance for going straight to a restaurant that we don't even know location and name. He was being his high handed self. Of cos, later I also judged mysefl as d matter on hand is food, which is a sensitive issue. So maybe we were both not right.
Apr 18 - Being aware...takes the zing out....we can't stay defensive for long. It just doesn't work anymore :)
Osho
Nothing is accidental in this manifest world.
Krishna's love is spontaneously available. If Arjuna has not come. Krishna would not have gone searching for him. Even if no one goes to Krishna and he is sitting alone in a forest, he will be loving and the solitude of the forest, the emptiness around him, the entire void of the cosmos will be recipient of his love.
It will make no difference for him and his love if someone is near him or there is nothing or no one.
Soul
Same thing as Sadhguru. Any rship with him is one-way traffic.
Osho
The medium of dance comes nearest to the mysterious, to the non-dual and to celebration. Nothing can express better than dance.
Dance is the most primitive of human language, because when man had not yet learned to speak, he spoke through gestures.
Soul
I am now dancing nearly everday during meditation
Osho card - Everybody and everything has its own season, its own moment of fulfillment for which one must trust with patience. Until the moment comes, it is not going to happen.
Father, jus read my Osho cards, so timely. Of late, I noticed ego is pushing me on PR of Isha and also to find my Destiny. While m affected, but I didn't act on the ego's instruction. This week Osho cards is so true. As always
Evenin
Did shoonya and I was laughing so much and I was dancing too. Later, whenever I close my eyes, I start to feel happy and laugh.
Teacher said that for shoonya, I must stay still no matter what I feel inside.
Mmm, don't recall that instruction. Infact, shoonya was non committal and says that whatever happen or not happen, jus close eyes for 15 min.
Later d CS, a fellow meditator from India told me that he is going back to get reinitiated for Shoonya. I was surprised and asked him. He said he stop for some time and now he need to get back. I told him that I only do 5 days a week. He says u must not miss to get full benefit. I told him it doesn't matter, what's more important is that I stay true. Beside I don't take Isha seriously. I am committed but it is not my only life line. I also don't take myself seriously, just like I don't take my samadhi moments seriously.
Anyway, before I say no to still shoonya. I will try cos I do miss d silence.
Osho
Bliss is the only criterion for life. If your life is not blissful, then know you are moving wrongly. Suffering is the criterion for being wrong.
Soul
This is similar to the choice of being right or being happy. I would change direction and be wrong as long as it makes me happy. I never took isha seriously and never wanted to go in such depth but surprisingly things turn out so well despite my resistance.
Mmm, childhood vs now. I would say now m more happy as we are financially independent and need not kow tow to people. I need get good favour to get good food. I need not be good gal to get good food. I need go to school and have to keep quiet.
Osho
Meditation. Jus be silent. Jus sit and do nothing.
While listening you will find that within you a deep silence and emptiness has arisen. It is into this emptiness that one has to go on moving deeper and deeper, deeper and deeper. It is through the door of this emptiness that some day you will realise the whole.
Soul
Perhaps another msg to reinforce teacher's msg on shoonya. I will be silent.
Osho
Only one whose heart love has arisen, can love.
None of you can love because within u there is no flow of love. When you say to somebody, "I love you", you are infact not giving love, you are asking for love. All of you ask for love, and how can one who is himself asking for love, give love? How can people who are asking for love be the givers of love. All of you ask each other for love. All of you ask for one another without realising that the friend is himself also asking for love. You are like two beggars standing infront of each other holding your begging bowls.
Only one who has risen above the need to ask for love can give love. Love is sharing, it is not begging. Love know only about giving, it does not know anything about asking.
Essential law; someone who asks for love will never, ever get it.
Whatever we give comes back to us.
Love only comes to the door of a house from where the desire for love has disappeared.
Love starts showering on the house of someone who has stopped asking for love.
Love will not flow towards an asking heart. The asking heart does not have the kind of receptivity that makes it possible for love to enter.
Only a sharing heart, a giving heart has the kind of receptivity for love to come to its door and say, "Open the door, I have come!".
You are all beggars, and you all go on asking other beggars for that which they don't have. And when you don't get it, you become sad; you weep and cry and feel that you are not getting love.
Love is not something obtained from the outside;
Love is the music of your inner being.
Nobody can give you love.
Love can arise from within you but it cannot be obtained from outside.
Love is an inner flowering; it arises from some dormant energy within.
Search for love within yourself.
Love is an essential treasure with which each individual is born. Man is born with love.
I is the absence of love itself - I is the lack of love. And the more you go on strengthening the your I, the less possible it will be to find love within you.
Soul
My year card - Ace of Heart - search for love within. Three quarters of my year is over and I have found it. I have found the bliss within and I am dancing everyday.
Father, these days I noticed my mornin meditation - no laughter. But today Suria, I was laughin.
Osho
When a person who lives a natural and spontaneous life is the master of his memory, the person who lives a sequential life is just a slave to his memory.
Soul
Yday I was angry for 10 min wit my brother in law for insisting on his own way. Of course, I calmed down later n we become ok. I judged him for his arrogance for going straight to a restaurant that we don't even know location and name. He was being his high handed self. Of cos, later I also judged mysefl as d matter on hand is food, which is a sensitive issue. So maybe we were both not right.
Apr 18 - Being aware...takes the zing out....we can't stay defensive for long. It just doesn't work anymore :)
Osho
Nothing is accidental in this manifest world.
Krishna's love is spontaneously available. If Arjuna has not come. Krishna would not have gone searching for him. Even if no one goes to Krishna and he is sitting alone in a forest, he will be loving and the solitude of the forest, the emptiness around him, the entire void of the cosmos will be recipient of his love.
It will make no difference for him and his love if someone is near him or there is nothing or no one.
Soul
Same thing as Sadhguru. Any rship with him is one-way traffic.
Osho
The medium of dance comes nearest to the mysterious, to the non-dual and to celebration. Nothing can express better than dance.
Dance is the most primitive of human language, because when man had not yet learned to speak, he spoke through gestures.
Soul
I am now dancing nearly everday during meditation
Osho card - Everybody and everything has its own season, its own moment of fulfillment for which one must trust with patience. Until the moment comes, it is not going to happen.
Father, jus read my Osho cards, so timely. Of late, I noticed ego is pushing me on PR of Isha and also to find my Destiny. While m affected, but I didn't act on the ego's instruction. This week Osho cards is so true. As always
Evenin
Did shoonya and I was laughing so much and I was dancing too. Later, whenever I close my eyes, I start to feel happy and laugh.
Teacher said that for shoonya, I must stay still no matter what I feel inside.
Mmm, don't recall that instruction. Infact, shoonya was non committal and says that whatever happen or not happen, jus close eyes for 15 min.
Later d CS, a fellow meditator from India told me that he is going back to get reinitiated for Shoonya. I was surprised and asked him. He said he stop for some time and now he need to get back. I told him that I only do 5 days a week. He says u must not miss to get full benefit. I told him it doesn't matter, what's more important is that I stay true. Beside I don't take Isha seriously. I am committed but it is not my only life line. I also don't take myself seriously, just like I don't take my samadhi moments seriously.
Anyway, before I say no to still shoonya. I will try cos I do miss d silence.
Osho
Bliss is the only criterion for life. If your life is not blissful, then know you are moving wrongly. Suffering is the criterion for being wrong.
Soul
This is similar to the choice of being right or being happy. I would change direction and be wrong as long as it makes me happy. I never took isha seriously and never wanted to go in such depth but surprisingly things turn out so well despite my resistance.
Mmm, childhood vs now. I would say now m more happy as we are financially independent and need not kow tow to people. I need get good favour to get good food. I need not be good gal to get good food. I need go to school and have to keep quiet.
Osho
Meditation. Jus be silent. Jus sit and do nothing.
While listening you will find that within you a deep silence and emptiness has arisen. It is into this emptiness that one has to go on moving deeper and deeper, deeper and deeper. It is through the door of this emptiness that some day you will realise the whole.
Soul
Perhaps another msg to reinforce teacher's msg on shoonya. I will be silent.
Osho
Only one whose heart love has arisen, can love.
None of you can love because within u there is no flow of love. When you say to somebody, "I love you", you are infact not giving love, you are asking for love. All of you ask for love, and how can one who is himself asking for love, give love? How can people who are asking for love be the givers of love. All of you ask each other for love. All of you ask for one another without realising that the friend is himself also asking for love. You are like two beggars standing infront of each other holding your begging bowls.
Only one who has risen above the need to ask for love can give love. Love is sharing, it is not begging. Love know only about giving, it does not know anything about asking.
Essential law; someone who asks for love will never, ever get it.
Whatever we give comes back to us.
Love only comes to the door of a house from where the desire for love has disappeared.
Love starts showering on the house of someone who has stopped asking for love.
Love will not flow towards an asking heart. The asking heart does not have the kind of receptivity that makes it possible for love to enter.
Only a sharing heart, a giving heart has the kind of receptivity for love to come to its door and say, "Open the door, I have come!".
You are all beggars, and you all go on asking other beggars for that which they don't have. And when you don't get it, you become sad; you weep and cry and feel that you are not getting love.
Love is not something obtained from the outside;
Love is the music of your inner being.
Nobody can give you love.
Love can arise from within you but it cannot be obtained from outside.
Love is an inner flowering; it arises from some dormant energy within.
Search for love within yourself.
Love is an essential treasure with which each individual is born. Man is born with love.
I is the absence of love itself - I is the lack of love. And the more you go on strengthening the your I, the less possible it will be to find love within you.
Soul
My year card - Ace of Heart - search for love within. Three quarters of my year is over and I have found it. I have found the bliss within and I am dancing everyday.
Accept my role (8)
Apr 4
Father, amazing, unbelievable. I am so blessed. Amen.
Just got back from my weekly walk in the Park near my house. I am feeling really blessed cos was laughing intermittently and that make my walk so effortless and I savour it.
Yesterday, during my swim, I was also laughing wit joy. So much laughter, no idea why, maybe after effects of samyama :)
I have just wrote an email to the volunteers asking them to use the park for members day out. I also drafted the email to entice Isha slackers back. I got the title - Was the RM500 a waste? from yesterday dinner. A was sharing with them my IE sharing. They asked if I knew during IE that I would attain so much. I told them that I had no idea and infact I was sleeping when Sadhguru was doing the "Can u become a mother to all the children in the world". I recalled thinking that there goes my RM500 since I can sleep while others are having such major emotional response.
My teacher love it and says that the subject title will definitely make people open their emails.
Now reading natal charts.
I m encouraged to learn another language, perhaps Spanish or computer language. I immediately say yes to Spanish cos I wan to go to Spain to eat all d lovely food there.
Potential income
Them of "twoness"
Paid speaker and published author.
You can be a channel for higher spiritual force.
In the chase after what you want, you are drive, willful, energetic, assertive, competitive, dramatic and enterprising.
In the pursuit of your goals, you are willing to work hard and if necessary face danger. You tend to do what you think is right and not one to give up or give in to fear.
To become a star you need to channel some of your energy into physical activity, athletics and exercise. When you are restless, you need to work out.
Soul
Alas, I admit I am courageous and hardworking. People used to say but I deny it cos I am pursuing what I want and it the price to be paid to get what I want. I m not hardworking.For me, I am just doing what I have to do, thats all. But now learning more abt others who after knowing what they want, are still unwilling to pay the price.
Mmm, physical activity. Well, am now doing hatha yoga, swimming and walk. So, its good.
Natal chart - how to be a Star
You are serious, responsible, industrious and hardworking.
You can become a Star by becoming more purposeful.
Your discipline can make you a self-made person.
You can become a Star by learning how to get more joy out of the sheer struggle of life. Becomes consciously aware of the rules that u have made for urself and others. Become aware of the internal voices that judge u.
Until you deal with issues around anger, it may seem as if you are injury or accident or disaster prone.
Soul
What anger have I not dealt with??
Your physical and psychological conditions are intertwined. When the chemistry is right, u r superhuman and unstoppable. You have strong desires and physical needs and a fearless persistence and determination to get what u want.
You are motivated by satisfaction. You are motivated by passion and deep commitment to people and causes.
Discipline and ambition, that's you. It sound simple and it is not easy.
You can gain more power and status and security through the consistent application of hard work and ambition.
In time you can become a leader.
You are capable of about as much personal change as you decide. Dare to be a unique individual. Rather than reacting or responding to circumstances, try initiating change.
Soul
Again, a message to motivate me to my Soul's purpose.
I am less resistant, I am accepting my role.
Father, amazing, unbelievable. I am so blessed. Amen.
Just got back from my weekly walk in the Park near my house. I am feeling really blessed cos was laughing intermittently and that make my walk so effortless and I savour it.
Yesterday, during my swim, I was also laughing wit joy. So much laughter, no idea why, maybe after effects of samyama :)
I have just wrote an email to the volunteers asking them to use the park for members day out. I also drafted the email to entice Isha slackers back. I got the title - Was the RM500 a waste? from yesterday dinner. A was sharing with them my IE sharing. They asked if I knew during IE that I would attain so much. I told them that I had no idea and infact I was sleeping when Sadhguru was doing the "Can u become a mother to all the children in the world". I recalled thinking that there goes my RM500 since I can sleep while others are having such major emotional response.
My teacher love it and says that the subject title will definitely make people open their emails.
Now reading natal charts.
I m encouraged to learn another language, perhaps Spanish or computer language. I immediately say yes to Spanish cos I wan to go to Spain to eat all d lovely food there.
Potential income
Them of "twoness"
Paid speaker and published author.
You can be a channel for higher spiritual force.
In the chase after what you want, you are drive, willful, energetic, assertive, competitive, dramatic and enterprising.
In the pursuit of your goals, you are willing to work hard and if necessary face danger. You tend to do what you think is right and not one to give up or give in to fear.
To become a star you need to channel some of your energy into physical activity, athletics and exercise. When you are restless, you need to work out.
Soul
Alas, I admit I am courageous and hardworking. People used to say but I deny it cos I am pursuing what I want and it the price to be paid to get what I want. I m not hardworking.For me, I am just doing what I have to do, thats all. But now learning more abt others who after knowing what they want, are still unwilling to pay the price.
Mmm, physical activity. Well, am now doing hatha yoga, swimming and walk. So, its good.
Natal chart - how to be a Star
You are serious, responsible, industrious and hardworking.
You can become a Star by becoming more purposeful.
Your discipline can make you a self-made person.
You can become a Star by learning how to get more joy out of the sheer struggle of life. Becomes consciously aware of the rules that u have made for urself and others. Become aware of the internal voices that judge u.
Until you deal with issues around anger, it may seem as if you are injury or accident or disaster prone.
Soul
What anger have I not dealt with??
Your physical and psychological conditions are intertwined. When the chemistry is right, u r superhuman and unstoppable. You have strong desires and physical needs and a fearless persistence and determination to get what u want.
You are motivated by satisfaction. You are motivated by passion and deep commitment to people and causes.
Discipline and ambition, that's you. It sound simple and it is not easy.
You can gain more power and status and security through the consistent application of hard work and ambition.
In time you can become a leader.
You are capable of about as much personal change as you decide. Dare to be a unique individual. Rather than reacting or responding to circumstances, try initiating change.
Soul
Again, a message to motivate me to my Soul's purpose.
I am less resistant, I am accepting my role.
He alone wins who does not desire to win and he who wants to win loses
Apr 2
Father, d breathing meditation was good. I hardly doze off. D samyama is not ok, but wil do. My focus on breathin moment by moment.
Osho
He alone wins who does not desire to win and he who wants to win loses.
If someone is desiring and striving to win in life, it means deep down he is lacking something, that he is suffering from an inferiority complex. Deep down, such a person is aware of the inferiority he is trying to cover through winning. And if, on the other hand, someone is not out to win it means he is already established in his eminence, there is not even a shade of inferiority in him to disprove by resorting to winning.
Soul
In work, I didn't plan to win. I just plan to take charge and be control n that resulted in good work. As I do good work, I was promoted and tat give me a mode of achievement that I matter. Once I promote, people above me is less and hence I have more control over my work.
As for ptnrs who love me, its a dilemma. I wan cos I don't love myself and but yet I don't wan cos its not having control. I do yearn but these days less cos I have enough love for myself.
Osho
Lao Tzu - no one could defeat me because I was already defeated. It was difficult to defeat me because I never wanted to win.
Jesus
Blessed are the meek, because they shall inherit the earth.
If one does not seek anything, it means he does not lack it, he already has it.
When one thinks of attacking and defeating another, it means one has already accepted one's inferiority before the other. One who is really strong and great cannot think of fighting and subduing anyone, because he does not find himself inferior to another in any manner.
He does not need to defeat someone to buttress his self-confidence; he is sufficient unto himself.
It is always the inner feeling of inferiority that makes one aggressive and violent.
One often says, "I gave so and so my love". But love cannot be given, it is not a commodity. Love simply happens; it is neither given nor taken.
A master, a guru, is an illusion. There are no masters in the world, they are all just catalysts. In presence of someone ur consciousness can attain to a height which may not be possible without that presence.
Soul
Sadhguru was d catalyst for me. He is d bridge.
Father, d breathing meditation was good. I hardly doze off. D samyama is not ok, but wil do. My focus on breathin moment by moment.
Osho
He alone wins who does not desire to win and he who wants to win loses.
If someone is desiring and striving to win in life, it means deep down he is lacking something, that he is suffering from an inferiority complex. Deep down, such a person is aware of the inferiority he is trying to cover through winning. And if, on the other hand, someone is not out to win it means he is already established in his eminence, there is not even a shade of inferiority in him to disprove by resorting to winning.
Soul
In work, I didn't plan to win. I just plan to take charge and be control n that resulted in good work. As I do good work, I was promoted and tat give me a mode of achievement that I matter. Once I promote, people above me is less and hence I have more control over my work.
As for ptnrs who love me, its a dilemma. I wan cos I don't love myself and but yet I don't wan cos its not having control. I do yearn but these days less cos I have enough love for myself.
Osho
Lao Tzu - no one could defeat me because I was already defeated. It was difficult to defeat me because I never wanted to win.
Jesus
Blessed are the meek, because they shall inherit the earth.
If one does not seek anything, it means he does not lack it, he already has it.
When one thinks of attacking and defeating another, it means one has already accepted one's inferiority before the other. One who is really strong and great cannot think of fighting and subduing anyone, because he does not find himself inferior to another in any manner.
He does not need to defeat someone to buttress his self-confidence; he is sufficient unto himself.
It is always the inner feeling of inferiority that makes one aggressive and violent.
One often says, "I gave so and so my love". But love cannot be given, it is not a commodity. Love simply happens; it is neither given nor taken.
A master, a guru, is an illusion. There are no masters in the world, they are all just catalysts. In presence of someone ur consciousness can attain to a height which may not be possible without that presence.
Soul
Sadhguru was d catalyst for me. He is d bridge.
New challenges kept us aware
Apr 1
Father, called my ex-colleague yday. Surprisingly she told me that my close friend say that I have grown younger since I have taken up meditation. Surprisingly d close friend says I hav not change. She says that she also wan to try but know that she is lazy and can't preservere. She said that I am disciplined. But I told her that I m doing cos there is benefit and my RA propel me too.
Mmm, again d word of me being dsicplined. I guess perhaps its becos my energy is being prioritised. Not sure why I didn't find it as a compliment....
For me. If its good for me, I will do even if it inconvenient to me, even if I don't like it. My main focus is to be happy and I am feeling such joy everytime. These days I noticed d laughter slow down but the dancing has increased. It is spontaneous cos sometimes it surprises me. Isn't it ironic, me who can't dance, who can't sing and doesn't care for music is now into dance and music.
Father, Ace of heart ending 3 July 2010 - 3 months to go. The 1.5 mth is me accepting my responsibility. The second part I don't know. But at least I now accept Ace of Heart is not me finding a partner to love me but its finding Me to love me. Amen.
Osho
It is the job of a master to put his disciples in difficulty, in crisis, because only in crisis can they become aware of myself.
Soul
Timely msg, for a moment I felt bit guilty for wanting CEO to go thru crisis. Its better for to come earlier than later. This year is Ace of spade - death and new beginning.
Osho
At the deepest level, self nature is without any form, without any attributes, it is utter emptiness. It becomes manifest wit our attributes. Then the play of attributes happens. And it all becomes unmanifest once again.
Soul
Same msg as let go of my small identity with all its forms and join d Big identity that its formless.
Osho
The sceptics will see only the visible but the one who has faith, who is trusting wil see the other side too, the invisible, the unmanifest.
Thought, contemplation and logic cannot go beyond the form, the manifest; but trust, prayer and meditation can enter the reality, the unseen, the unmanifest.
But one who fails to grasp even the form, the manifest, the gross, can hardly be expected to reach the formless, the unmanifest, the subtle.
But thought and logic, rightly used, can take u to the point where the seen, the manifest ends and the unseen, the manifest begins.
Beyond it, thought is absolutely useless. Beyond it, you have to get out of your intellect, your mind, you have to go beyond your own mind, beyond self. Actually you have to transcend yourself.
Soul
I know that thought, contemplation and logic cannot go beyond the form. But it brought me to the end of form. That's why I cried for help and Sadhguru came to bridge me.
I now meditate and contemplate, but prayer and trust is still lacking.
I was at d end of form, perhaps that's why I immediately access the unseen when Sadhguru gave me the bridge.
I have reached d point that I don't know what's next. Was scared at first but now I just let it be where It wants to take me.
Osho
But the transcedence of the mind does not mean that one will cease to know everything that he has known before.
Now all that he has known before will be absorbed and assimilated in the newly acquired knowledge of the beyond.
The day the manifest and the unmanifest meet and merge into each other, the ultimate truth comes into being.
Soul
Exactly what I experience. Earlier I said that meditation helps to bring together all my knowledge and led me to experience what I know.
As for the ultimate truth, don't know yet.
But at least I accept the responsibility. This is real helpful to M also. He has searched, will gave him a nudge. Jus emailed him.
Today
The queen of clubs is a card of great intuition, good organisational ability and the desire to serve and nurture others with some form of knowledge or information.
Soul
Apart frm email to M. Close friend and GM seek my counsel and I think I help them somewhat.
This time when GM was wit me, I remember to do breathe awareness and I found myself not as tired as norm.
Sadhguru
Love and compassion are not qualities that u can develop; it is just an outpouring of ur heart, and outpouring of ur being. Only when a person keeps the garbage of his mind aside and interacts with the world through his innermost being, will he be capable of love and compassion. Otherwise, what one calls love is only a convenience to fulfill the compulsive needs that one have within themselves.
Soul
Jus now I wanted to do my meditation, especially tonite I need it. But mom was alone wit nephew and she look tired. So I only did brahma nanda and shoonya. My mom was surprised I came out so fast. I told her I cut short my meditation cos I wan to help her take care of nephew. She was happy. Guess m changing.
Father, called my ex-colleague yday. Surprisingly she told me that my close friend say that I have grown younger since I have taken up meditation. Surprisingly d close friend says I hav not change. She says that she also wan to try but know that she is lazy and can't preservere. She said that I am disciplined. But I told her that I m doing cos there is benefit and my RA propel me too.
Mmm, again d word of me being dsicplined. I guess perhaps its becos my energy is being prioritised. Not sure why I didn't find it as a compliment....
For me. If its good for me, I will do even if it inconvenient to me, even if I don't like it. My main focus is to be happy and I am feeling such joy everytime. These days I noticed d laughter slow down but the dancing has increased. It is spontaneous cos sometimes it surprises me. Isn't it ironic, me who can't dance, who can't sing and doesn't care for music is now into dance and music.
Father, Ace of heart ending 3 July 2010 - 3 months to go. The 1.5 mth is me accepting my responsibility. The second part I don't know. But at least I now accept Ace of Heart is not me finding a partner to love me but its finding Me to love me. Amen.
Osho
It is the job of a master to put his disciples in difficulty, in crisis, because only in crisis can they become aware of myself.
Soul
Timely msg, for a moment I felt bit guilty for wanting CEO to go thru crisis. Its better for to come earlier than later. This year is Ace of spade - death and new beginning.
Osho
At the deepest level, self nature is without any form, without any attributes, it is utter emptiness. It becomes manifest wit our attributes. Then the play of attributes happens. And it all becomes unmanifest once again.
Soul
Same msg as let go of my small identity with all its forms and join d Big identity that its formless.
Osho
The sceptics will see only the visible but the one who has faith, who is trusting wil see the other side too, the invisible, the unmanifest.
Thought, contemplation and logic cannot go beyond the form, the manifest; but trust, prayer and meditation can enter the reality, the unseen, the unmanifest.
But one who fails to grasp even the form, the manifest, the gross, can hardly be expected to reach the formless, the unmanifest, the subtle.
But thought and logic, rightly used, can take u to the point where the seen, the manifest ends and the unseen, the manifest begins.
Beyond it, thought is absolutely useless. Beyond it, you have to get out of your intellect, your mind, you have to go beyond your own mind, beyond self. Actually you have to transcend yourself.
Soul
I know that thought, contemplation and logic cannot go beyond the form. But it brought me to the end of form. That's why I cried for help and Sadhguru came to bridge me.
I now meditate and contemplate, but prayer and trust is still lacking.
I was at d end of form, perhaps that's why I immediately access the unseen when Sadhguru gave me the bridge.
I have reached d point that I don't know what's next. Was scared at first but now I just let it be where It wants to take me.
Osho
But the transcedence of the mind does not mean that one will cease to know everything that he has known before.
Now all that he has known before will be absorbed and assimilated in the newly acquired knowledge of the beyond.
The day the manifest and the unmanifest meet and merge into each other, the ultimate truth comes into being.
Soul
Exactly what I experience. Earlier I said that meditation helps to bring together all my knowledge and led me to experience what I know.
As for the ultimate truth, don't know yet.
But at least I accept the responsibility. This is real helpful to M also. He has searched, will gave him a nudge. Jus emailed him.
Today
The queen of clubs is a card of great intuition, good organisational ability and the desire to serve and nurture others with some form of knowledge or information.
Soul
Apart frm email to M. Close friend and GM seek my counsel and I think I help them somewhat.
This time when GM was wit me, I remember to do breathe awareness and I found myself not as tired as norm.
Sadhguru
Love and compassion are not qualities that u can develop; it is just an outpouring of ur heart, and outpouring of ur being. Only when a person keeps the garbage of his mind aside and interacts with the world through his innermost being, will he be capable of love and compassion. Otherwise, what one calls love is only a convenience to fulfill the compulsive needs that one have within themselves.
Soul
Jus now I wanted to do my meditation, especially tonite I need it. But mom was alone wit nephew and she look tired. So I only did brahma nanda and shoonya. My mom was surprised I came out so fast. I told her I cut short my meditation cos I wan to help her take care of nephew. She was happy. Guess m changing.
Accept my role (7)
Mar 31
Father, m getting fat. Guess this one month of food fest has taken its toil. At first wan to say isha yoga not workin, then I remember Sadhguru says 2 meals a day only. Here I eat 3 meals a day and double my pre Isha yoga days. Jus eat western set, feel good.
Jus now was wondering if I can eat all I can without gainin an inch, wld I be happy. The answer is no. Mmm, looks like dream also changing.
Today I wake up feeling refreshed, something I seldom experience. That is good.
Osho
1. Issue - Existence.
Now is the time to look at whether u r allowing yourself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling "at home" wherever u r. If u r, savour it. If u r not n feeling d world out to get u, take a break.
Soul
I guess even wit 4 days week, m feeling bit empty, no achievement, so eat to be happy but that comes wit weight gain n make me more sad, cos like going backward.
Aiyah, jus savour dis time.
This week is qtrly report, surprisingly m fine. I guess m more familiar wit things now. The swell on left hand has reduced further.
Father, m doing my breathe n samyama meditation. Not sure of any outcome. Jus do lah. Wonder what's next.
2. Internal influence u r unable to see - Playfulness.
Life is rarely as serious as we believe it to be and when we recognise this fact, it responds by giving us more and more opportunities to play.
You are ready for the fresh and new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and u have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it wit open arms.
Soul
Not so sure. But at least on d weight, I shake it off when ego says to use weighin machine. I know my weight will go back to normal. And even if it don't, doesn't matter, am 43, I don't have to be in a shape that need approval.
(Apr 18 - weight is back to normal)
3. External influence - Guidance.
Trust ur inner guidance. In following the inner guide, u will feel more whole, more integrated, as if u r moving outwards from the center of ur being. If u go wit it, this beam of light will carry you exactly where u need to go.
Soul
Jus looked at my Passion card. Yeap, will jus focus on my personal interest. Job is jus a means.
Yeap, will follow.
4. What is needed for resolution
The dream
You look for lover, for job in order to avoid ur aloneness.
No one and no thing has any obligation to deliver ur happiness on a platter - nor could they even if they wanted to.
Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.
5. Resolution - the understanding - Letting go.
In surrendering to gravity and slipping off the leaf, the dew drop loses its previous identity and joins the vastness of the water below. We can imagine that it must have trembled before it fell, just on the edge between the known and unknownable.
To choose this card is a recognition that something is finished - ur achievement mode that has helped to define who u r - it is time to let go of it, allowing any sadness but not trying to hold on.
Something greater is awaiting you, new dimensions are there to be discovered. You are past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work. Go with it - it represent liberation.
Soul
Guess I was focus on losing myself instead of focusing on joining the Universe.
This mornin, I felt a sense of connection with all the trees that I passed by. I felt we were talkin. They says they feeling refreshed after d rain. I replied me too after my shower n hair wash. They says they felt good and I replied I felt at home too.
Mmm, both cards also says new beginning. So, jus focus on me joining the Universe.
I accept my role as Helper. This mornin tot of D n instead of deliberatin, I jus asked my Intuition, how can I guide her to see her mirror. The answer came.
Father, m getting fat. Guess this one month of food fest has taken its toil. At first wan to say isha yoga not workin, then I remember Sadhguru says 2 meals a day only. Here I eat 3 meals a day and double my pre Isha yoga days. Jus eat western set, feel good.
Jus now was wondering if I can eat all I can without gainin an inch, wld I be happy. The answer is no. Mmm, looks like dream also changing.
Today I wake up feeling refreshed, something I seldom experience. That is good.
Osho
1. Issue - Existence.
Now is the time to look at whether u r allowing yourself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling "at home" wherever u r. If u r, savour it. If u r not n feeling d world out to get u, take a break.
Soul
I guess even wit 4 days week, m feeling bit empty, no achievement, so eat to be happy but that comes wit weight gain n make me more sad, cos like going backward.
Aiyah, jus savour dis time.
This week is qtrly report, surprisingly m fine. I guess m more familiar wit things now. The swell on left hand has reduced further.
Father, m doing my breathe n samyama meditation. Not sure of any outcome. Jus do lah. Wonder what's next.
2. Internal influence u r unable to see - Playfulness.
Life is rarely as serious as we believe it to be and when we recognise this fact, it responds by giving us more and more opportunities to play.
You are ready for the fresh and new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and u have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it wit open arms.
Soul
Not so sure. But at least on d weight, I shake it off when ego says to use weighin machine. I know my weight will go back to normal. And even if it don't, doesn't matter, am 43, I don't have to be in a shape that need approval.
(Apr 18 - weight is back to normal)
3. External influence - Guidance.
Trust ur inner guidance. In following the inner guide, u will feel more whole, more integrated, as if u r moving outwards from the center of ur being. If u go wit it, this beam of light will carry you exactly where u need to go.
Soul
Jus looked at my Passion card. Yeap, will jus focus on my personal interest. Job is jus a means.
Yeap, will follow.
4. What is needed for resolution
The dream
You look for lover, for job in order to avoid ur aloneness.
No one and no thing has any obligation to deliver ur happiness on a platter - nor could they even if they wanted to.
Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.
5. Resolution - the understanding - Letting go.
In surrendering to gravity and slipping off the leaf, the dew drop loses its previous identity and joins the vastness of the water below. We can imagine that it must have trembled before it fell, just on the edge between the known and unknownable.
To choose this card is a recognition that something is finished - ur achievement mode that has helped to define who u r - it is time to let go of it, allowing any sadness but not trying to hold on.
Something greater is awaiting you, new dimensions are there to be discovered. You are past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work. Go with it - it represent liberation.
Soul
Guess I was focus on losing myself instead of focusing on joining the Universe.
This mornin, I felt a sense of connection with all the trees that I passed by. I felt we were talkin. They says they feeling refreshed after d rain. I replied me too after my shower n hair wash. They says they felt good and I replied I felt at home too.
Mmm, both cards also says new beginning. So, jus focus on me joining the Universe.
I accept my role as Helper. This mornin tot of D n instead of deliberatin, I jus asked my Intuition, how can I guide her to see her mirror. The answer came.
New challenges kept us New and Alive
Mar 30
Father, I am feeling bit off. Good thing is I woke up feeling refreshed. Anyway, swelling in left hand reduced. Second sis says she asked her master about my RA. Her buddhist master says to jus focus on my meditation n forget abt my RA. If pain comes, just ignore it. Guess this is Ur msg. Guess I was feeling off cos tot my RA under control and here it swell in places unknown. Of cos, part of me thinks that this would ensure I follow my path.
Osho
Buddha's emptiness (where mind cease to be) will bring you relaxation and rest.
Krishna's emptiness will lead you to immense action.
Buddha goes to the people out of compassion, to tell them that they too can long for, strive for and attain what he himself attained.
Krishna goes to the people out of his bliss.
Buddha separates nirvana (mind ceases) and mahanirvana (body ceases to be)
Krishan does not separate.
If we want to be fully alive, if we want to live a rich and full life, we should be ready to invite and face any number of new and living problems. And we live a morbid and dead life if we try to be finished with all our problems for good. Problems are necessary, but they must always be new and live problem and man should have will, confidence and courage to meet them squarely and solve them.
Soul
Aiyoh, a msg. Guess I was lamenting I shld not have problem anymore. RA should not be activated, 3 days work shld not be questioned.
Osho
Almost everyone is not satisfied with their life and is steeped in misery on account it but if u point out their reality to them, they will immediately enumerate the various problems that will arise if they try to do something about it. The irony is that they are already ridden with problems, but they are not aware of them because they have become so used to them.
If you make a change, problems are bound to arise. But what is worth this security in comparison with the freedom and ecstasy of flying in the open sky. If you think only of security, then the grave is the most secured place.
Work is just a means to celebrate life. But the irony is that the way we live there is no leisure left to sing and dance and celebrate life.
We turn means into an end. Then we keep running for the rest of our lives in the hope that someday we will have time to relax, rest and enjoy life.
Soul
Aiyah, at least m breaking ground and now on 4 days week.
When I hav a project, will take 3 days week.
Osho
Being is primary and doing is secondary. Celebration comes first and work takes a back seat in their lives. Work is preparatory to celebration.
Soul
I think this also troubles me. I have no sense of achievement now I let go of my work. Also no sense of outward achievement for my path if I compare. Aiyah...no wonder I m feeling this way m comparing and I found myself lacking. Also, apart from RA activation, I gained weight. Granted m eating double but I tot my achievement was to eat as much as I wan to. I know ever since I came back from 6 weeks of veg, I been on a roll for food and also the continuous outstation trip didn't help either.
(Apr 18 - weight back to normal)
Osho
Entertainment vs celebration. Entertainment, u r only a spectator. In celebration, you are a participant.
You watch a man and woman loving each other and you enjoy it vicariously. It is a false substitute. It is utterly useless. It is not going to give you a taste of love; it is not going to satiate your thirst for love. On the other hand, increases your disatisfaction and torment will deepen and land you in still greater misery.
For God's sake, know love directly, enter into it and only then u will be satisfied and happy. Real love alone can make life festive, entertainment won't.
It is true that Krishna's lovers gradually withdrew themselves from the world of outer activity, from the world of extroversion. They dived deep into the interiority of life and drank at the fountain of its bliss. The bliss comes from being, not from doing. You can be so blissful that you burst into song and dance. This is as it should be, because Krishna knows how, when u lose urself in its outer activities, u r missing life itself.
Soul
I m bursting with song and dance when I m meditating. But outside, not yet. Mmm. Inner purpose fulfilled is d main thing. Remember Ekhart Tolle.
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Father, I am feeling bit off. Good thing is I woke up feeling refreshed. Anyway, swelling in left hand reduced. Second sis says she asked her master about my RA. Her buddhist master says to jus focus on my meditation n forget abt my RA. If pain comes, just ignore it. Guess this is Ur msg. Guess I was feeling off cos tot my RA under control and here it swell in places unknown. Of cos, part of me thinks that this would ensure I follow my path.
Osho
Buddha's emptiness (where mind cease to be) will bring you relaxation and rest.
Krishna's emptiness will lead you to immense action.
Buddha goes to the people out of compassion, to tell them that they too can long for, strive for and attain what he himself attained.
Krishna goes to the people out of his bliss.
Buddha separates nirvana (mind ceases) and mahanirvana (body ceases to be)
Krishan does not separate.
If we want to be fully alive, if we want to live a rich and full life, we should be ready to invite and face any number of new and living problems. And we live a morbid and dead life if we try to be finished with all our problems for good. Problems are necessary, but they must always be new and live problem and man should have will, confidence and courage to meet them squarely and solve them.
Soul
Aiyoh, a msg. Guess I was lamenting I shld not have problem anymore. RA should not be activated, 3 days work shld not be questioned.
Osho
Almost everyone is not satisfied with their life and is steeped in misery on account it but if u point out their reality to them, they will immediately enumerate the various problems that will arise if they try to do something about it. The irony is that they are already ridden with problems, but they are not aware of them because they have become so used to them.
If you make a change, problems are bound to arise. But what is worth this security in comparison with the freedom and ecstasy of flying in the open sky. If you think only of security, then the grave is the most secured place.
Work is just a means to celebrate life. But the irony is that the way we live there is no leisure left to sing and dance and celebrate life.
We turn means into an end. Then we keep running for the rest of our lives in the hope that someday we will have time to relax, rest and enjoy life.
Soul
Aiyah, at least m breaking ground and now on 4 days week.
When I hav a project, will take 3 days week.
Osho
Being is primary and doing is secondary. Celebration comes first and work takes a back seat in their lives. Work is preparatory to celebration.
Soul
I think this also troubles me. I have no sense of achievement now I let go of my work. Also no sense of outward achievement for my path if I compare. Aiyah...no wonder I m feeling this way m comparing and I found myself lacking. Also, apart from RA activation, I gained weight. Granted m eating double but I tot my achievement was to eat as much as I wan to. I know ever since I came back from 6 weeks of veg, I been on a roll for food and also the continuous outstation trip didn't help either.
(Apr 18 - weight back to normal)
Osho
Entertainment vs celebration. Entertainment, u r only a spectator. In celebration, you are a participant.
You watch a man and woman loving each other and you enjoy it vicariously. It is a false substitute. It is utterly useless. It is not going to give you a taste of love; it is not going to satiate your thirst for love. On the other hand, increases your disatisfaction and torment will deepen and land you in still greater misery.
For God's sake, know love directly, enter into it and only then u will be satisfied and happy. Real love alone can make life festive, entertainment won't.
It is true that Krishna's lovers gradually withdrew themselves from the world of outer activity, from the world of extroversion. They dived deep into the interiority of life and drank at the fountain of its bliss. The bliss comes from being, not from doing. You can be so blissful that you burst into song and dance. This is as it should be, because Krishna knows how, when u lose urself in its outer activities, u r missing life itself.
Soul
I m bursting with song and dance when I m meditating. But outside, not yet. Mmm. Inner purpose fulfilled is d main thing. Remember Ekhart Tolle.
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Meditation wakes up your consciousness; you become Aware
Mar 29
Osho
Meditation is the way for waking up the consciousness deep inside u, not making it go to sleep.
That which is hiding deep inside u should wake up and become so aware that not a single part inside remain asleep.
Your whole being should wake up. Meditation is the name of the state of awareness.
Glory does not develop through repetition (mantra and aum chanting); repetition gives birth only to unconsciousness.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru. That's why he says when doing aum chanting focus on d breathe movement in d body so that its done wit awareness.
Apr 18 - now I know what is being conscious means. It is the message; "This is not about you" that came whenever I felt that I am under perceived attack and I unconsciously start to defend myself and of course attack the other, leading to self-sabotage.
Osho
Meditation is the way for waking up the consciousness deep inside u, not making it go to sleep.
That which is hiding deep inside u should wake up and become so aware that not a single part inside remain asleep.
Your whole being should wake up. Meditation is the name of the state of awareness.
Glory does not develop through repetition (mantra and aum chanting); repetition gives birth only to unconsciousness.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru. That's why he says when doing aum chanting focus on d breathe movement in d body so that its done wit awareness.
Apr 18 - now I know what is being conscious means. It is the message; "This is not about you" that came whenever I felt that I am under perceived attack and I unconsciously start to defend myself and of course attack the other, leading to self-sabotage.
Right food, right work, right sleep
Mar 28
Osho
1. Right diet - it should not create excitement; should not be intoxicating, it should not be heavy.
After eating, you shld not feel heaviness and drowsiness.
The more happily and joyously and the more relaxed and without worry a person can be when eating, the more his food will start becoming the right food.
When eating with anger, in suffering, in worry, man is also eating violently.
So should eat in a very peaceful, a very joyful state. If u r not in such a state, then it is better to wait until u r. When the mind is absolutely ready, only then u should eat ur meals.
On the body level, right-food shld be healthy, non-stimulating and non-violent;
On the psychological level, the mind should be in a blissful state, graceful and joyous
On the level of the soul, there should be a feeling of gratefulness, of thankfulness.
There three things make food the right-food.
2. Right work
Some physical labour is absolutely essential for the agility of the body, the complete alertness of the mind and the awakening of the being. The more fresh air there is inside the body, the more blissful each and every breathe is, the more vitality a person will have to explore the inner.
Working and praying is a repetition. Work and prayer mean the same thing, they are synonymous. And the day that work becomes prayer, and prayer becomes work is the day that right-work will be attained.
3. Right-sleep.
If life proceeds rightly on these 3 points, then there is more possibility of opening what I call the navel center - which is the door to spiritual life.
If you get close to that door, it opens then, a very unique thing happens, something of which u have had no experience in ur ordinary life.
Desire alone is not enough; determination and effort are also needed. The only proof of your desire is the effort that you make to satisfy it. Otherwise there is no proof that u have a desire.
The center of intellect is the mind
The center of feelings is the heart
The center of will-power is the navel.
The more activated the navel is, the more intense the will-power becomes and the more you can attain the determination, the power, the life-energy to do something.
Or in the reverse, the more determined you are, the more you gather energy for doing, the more your navel center will develop.
The more you think, the more ur intellect will develop;
The more you love, the more your heart will develop
The meaning of determination is to have courage, the inner strength and willpower to do something about whatever it is you want, to act according to whatever you think is right and to follow whichever path seems right to you. If u do not have this determination, then nothing can happen through my or anybody else's words. Nobody can do anything unless u urself are ready to do it.
To understand the perversion ur mind.
1. Tremendous fearlessness in encountering the mind
2. No restrictions, no conditions on the mind
3. No judgement about whatsoever thoughts and longings arise in the mind, no judgement of good or bad, ur attitude should simply be indifferent.
Thoughts cannot be thrown out by making an effort to get rid of them, but if the energy of the mind which usually goes into thinking starts flowing into some other stream, then thoughts will automatically become weak. (Soul - no wonder the prescribed moment to moment conscious breathing)
When the man's mind become distracted his thoughts dried up and become lifeless - because thoughts get their life from ur attention.
Thoughts have no life of their own. The more attention you give to a thought, the more alive it becomes. The more u remove your attention, the more dead it becomes.
Soul
Until now m stil not sure of samyama direction
But I recalled Sadhguru says if u r able to hold ur breathe awareness n tot together, that be great.
Osho
1. Right diet - it should not create excitement; should not be intoxicating, it should not be heavy.
After eating, you shld not feel heaviness and drowsiness.
The more happily and joyously and the more relaxed and without worry a person can be when eating, the more his food will start becoming the right food.
When eating with anger, in suffering, in worry, man is also eating violently.
So should eat in a very peaceful, a very joyful state. If u r not in such a state, then it is better to wait until u r. When the mind is absolutely ready, only then u should eat ur meals.
On the body level, right-food shld be healthy, non-stimulating and non-violent;
On the psychological level, the mind should be in a blissful state, graceful and joyous
On the level of the soul, there should be a feeling of gratefulness, of thankfulness.
There three things make food the right-food.
2. Right work
Some physical labour is absolutely essential for the agility of the body, the complete alertness of the mind and the awakening of the being. The more fresh air there is inside the body, the more blissful each and every breathe is, the more vitality a person will have to explore the inner.
Working and praying is a repetition. Work and prayer mean the same thing, they are synonymous. And the day that work becomes prayer, and prayer becomes work is the day that right-work will be attained.
3. Right-sleep.
If life proceeds rightly on these 3 points, then there is more possibility of opening what I call the navel center - which is the door to spiritual life.
If you get close to that door, it opens then, a very unique thing happens, something of which u have had no experience in ur ordinary life.
Desire alone is not enough; determination and effort are also needed. The only proof of your desire is the effort that you make to satisfy it. Otherwise there is no proof that u have a desire.
The center of intellect is the mind
The center of feelings is the heart
The center of will-power is the navel.
The more activated the navel is, the more intense the will-power becomes and the more you can attain the determination, the power, the life-energy to do something.
Or in the reverse, the more determined you are, the more you gather energy for doing, the more your navel center will develop.
The more you think, the more ur intellect will develop;
The more you love, the more your heart will develop
The meaning of determination is to have courage, the inner strength and willpower to do something about whatever it is you want, to act according to whatever you think is right and to follow whichever path seems right to you. If u do not have this determination, then nothing can happen through my or anybody else's words. Nobody can do anything unless u urself are ready to do it.
To understand the perversion ur mind.
1. Tremendous fearlessness in encountering the mind
2. No restrictions, no conditions on the mind
3. No judgement about whatsoever thoughts and longings arise in the mind, no judgement of good or bad, ur attitude should simply be indifferent.
Thoughts cannot be thrown out by making an effort to get rid of them, but if the energy of the mind which usually goes into thinking starts flowing into some other stream, then thoughts will automatically become weak. (Soul - no wonder the prescribed moment to moment conscious breathing)
When the man's mind become distracted his thoughts dried up and become lifeless - because thoughts get their life from ur attention.
Thoughts have no life of their own. The more attention you give to a thought, the more alive it becomes. The more u remove your attention, the more dead it becomes.
Soul
Until now m stil not sure of samyama direction
But I recalled Sadhguru says if u r able to hold ur breathe awareness n tot together, that be great.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Breathing affect Mind and vice versa
Mar 27
Osho
Someone who is a friend to All will sooner or later reach to the divine because his relationship are happening with everyone's naval center.
Life energy is flowing from all directions but those whose navel centers are not open will be deprived of that flow. They will not even know about it. They will not even realise that this energy was there and could have affected them, that there was something hidden within them could be open. They will not even know this. This flowering of the navel which is called opening of lotus.
Soul
Reminds me of Sadhguru's initiation during IE.
Osho
The more loaded the mind becomes, the less the breathing will flow; it will become obstructed.
The contrary is also true, the flow of ur breathe is absolutely harmonious, it changes the state of ur mind.
Either u change the mind and the breathe changes, or you change the breathe and it affects the mind.
The deeper ur breathing, the more u can become capable of working on ur navel and developing it.
As long as ur breathing remaining harmonious, ur thinking will become less, there will be almost no tots. If the breathing is absolutely even, the tots in the mind will totally disappear. The deeper and slower the flow of breathe, the more ur navel center will develop.
The more fearless a man is, the closer he will reach to the navel.
Soul
Perhaps that's why my navel easily open cos I am fearless.
Osho
When the adventures of life and fearlessness are inviting you, when dangers are calling u, if u go, u will certainly reach closer to the divine.
Flowers do not know whether the sun will rise tomorrow or not. They do not know whether they will get water tomorrow or not - but today they have blossomed in their joy.
Soul
Tot of my calling to be Corrector or right perception.
Osho
Someone who is a friend to All will sooner or later reach to the divine because his relationship are happening with everyone's naval center.
Life energy is flowing from all directions but those whose navel centers are not open will be deprived of that flow. They will not even know about it. They will not even realise that this energy was there and could have affected them, that there was something hidden within them could be open. They will not even know this. This flowering of the navel which is called opening of lotus.
Soul
Reminds me of Sadhguru's initiation during IE.
Osho
The more loaded the mind becomes, the less the breathing will flow; it will become obstructed.
The contrary is also true, the flow of ur breathe is absolutely harmonious, it changes the state of ur mind.
Either u change the mind and the breathe changes, or you change the breathe and it affects the mind.
The deeper ur breathing, the more u can become capable of working on ur navel and developing it.
As long as ur breathing remaining harmonious, ur thinking will become less, there will be almost no tots. If the breathing is absolutely even, the tots in the mind will totally disappear. The deeper and slower the flow of breathe, the more ur navel center will develop.
The more fearless a man is, the closer he will reach to the navel.
Soul
Perhaps that's why my navel easily open cos I am fearless.
Osho
When the adventures of life and fearlessness are inviting you, when dangers are calling u, if u go, u will certainly reach closer to the divine.
Flowers do not know whether the sun will rise tomorrow or not. They do not know whether they will get water tomorrow or not - but today they have blossomed in their joy.
Soul
Tot of my calling to be Corrector or right perception.
RA pain is back
Mar 26
My left fingers are stiff. The last time this happen was a couple months back and I went for hatha yoga in Oct. I realised the joint stiffness normally comes after one or two weeks of stress. It was rushing out d budget 1 week earlier.
Today felt tired, even when doing suria. But I preservere cos its good for me. When it comes to my practice, do it regardless of how I felt.
Yday shakti was great. Was singing and dancing loads. My right feet is better after IE initiation, so that's good.
My left fingers are stiff. The last time this happen was a couple months back and I went for hatha yoga in Oct. I realised the joint stiffness normally comes after one or two weeks of stress. It was rushing out d budget 1 week earlier.
Today felt tired, even when doing suria. But I preservere cos its good for me. When it comes to my practice, do it regardless of how I felt.
Yday shakti was great. Was singing and dancing loads. My right feet is better after IE initiation, so that's good.
Sadhguru - go for ur Vision, even if it is unattainable in this lifetime
Mar 25
Sadhguru
If u feel the world around you - when I say the world, I mean the human part of the world around you - you will see your experience is a cacophony - voices, thoughts and emotions. These voices, thoughts and emotions are all an outpouring of confusions of many different levels and states. With a very distorted perception of the current reality, these voices, thoughts and emotions are formed and expressed.
When man is in this level of confusion, when he is subjugated by the misconceptions or the wrong perception of reality around him, the noise that he creates around himself, the pain and suffering that he creates around himself and the other people around him and to all other life forms around him is very unfortunate.
Soul - my role is to help people to have the right perception. To have clarity and always choose to be themselves and be happy. In the beginning is choosing to be happy instead of being yourself right. Later, much later, you will choose yourself, this time full acceptance.
Sadhguru
If a man has a vision of what he wishes to do with himself and the world around him, it is not beyond man's capacity to create it.
It may happen in this lifetime, it may take a couple of lifetimes, but what we want will definitely come.
For that person for whom his vision of life is clear to him and he just seeks it every moment of this life, for him, the highest things will come and fall at his feet.
It is only because man is a bundle of confusion, it is only because most of the time man is seeking what he doesn't want, things that he really wants never come to him. This lack of vision and will in his life is fundamentally because of a distorted understanding of the world around us.
We are always trying to create our life based on the current reality that exist around us at this moment. This moment whatever may be with us, that is not the point.
Where we want to go tomorrow need not be connected to where we are right now.
What we want as the highest in life, it need not have anything to do with our present situation. If we enslave our visions to current situations, then it is once again settling for what is attainable, what is easy, what u think is possible.
It is just in terms of what seeing what is ur vision, what is the highest that you can seek in ur life.
What you know as the highest, u just seek that. It doesn't matter whether it is going to happen or not going to happen, simply living with the vision itself is very elevating, is itself very liberating, is itself a very joyous process for any person.
Whether it is going to happen tomorrow or day after tomorrow is not the point. You are not concerned whether it is easy or difficult, you are not concerned whether it is attainable or not-attainable, or in other words, you are not concerned about the result in the end.
It is just that you have a vision and you give your life towards it.
This one of the easiest ways to attain the highest also.
The whole Gita is just about this - to simply give yourself to what you want, not caring whether it is going to happen or not going to happen. It is a spiritual process by itself.
If one wants to live here without any vision, without being burdened by visions, without being burdened by will, then that person should be absolutely innocent - should be absolutely egoless.
Such a person can simply live here. He need not live with a vision. He does not need a vision. He does not have to have a will about anything if he is absolutely egoless and childlike.
If this is not so, it is very important that man lives with a vision.
Vision is an important way of transcending limitations within ourselves and outside ourselves.
At any given moment in life, if we go by the experience of our past, or in other words if you trust your mind - trust your logical mind to decide what is possible, what is not possible, what is attainable, what is not attainable, then it will always tell you mediocre things as to what is possible.
At every moment logically if you question this and think in terms of whether it is attainable or not attainable, then the confusion that u create in ur mind, the confusion that u create in the world around you makes the world itself into a big confusion.
Soul - everything I needed to uncover myself comes to me. Even now, this magazine fell to me. Funnily how a fellow meditator asked me collect Forest Flower in the Ashram. Firstly, cannot get the guy n secondly I need not have to take. Becos, I was up in the store room. I located several old newsletters and after coming back from ashram, abt one month and today tot of reading and this msg is jus so correct. How can I not say the Universe is with me.
I will pursue my vision to be a great Transformational leader. Even if not this life time, next one. I will definitely write a book in this lifetime.
Sadhguru
The greatest crime one can commit is to be a joyless person. The basic aspect of yoga is to make a person naturally joyous, peaceful and loving by changing the chemistry within.
Soul
I am a live example.
Sadhguru
If u feel the world around you - when I say the world, I mean the human part of the world around you - you will see your experience is a cacophony - voices, thoughts and emotions. These voices, thoughts and emotions are all an outpouring of confusions of many different levels and states. With a very distorted perception of the current reality, these voices, thoughts and emotions are formed and expressed.
When man is in this level of confusion, when he is subjugated by the misconceptions or the wrong perception of reality around him, the noise that he creates around himself, the pain and suffering that he creates around himself and the other people around him and to all other life forms around him is very unfortunate.
Soul - my role is to help people to have the right perception. To have clarity and always choose to be themselves and be happy. In the beginning is choosing to be happy instead of being yourself right. Later, much later, you will choose yourself, this time full acceptance.
Sadhguru
If a man has a vision of what he wishes to do with himself and the world around him, it is not beyond man's capacity to create it.
It may happen in this lifetime, it may take a couple of lifetimes, but what we want will definitely come.
For that person for whom his vision of life is clear to him and he just seeks it every moment of this life, for him, the highest things will come and fall at his feet.
It is only because man is a bundle of confusion, it is only because most of the time man is seeking what he doesn't want, things that he really wants never come to him. This lack of vision and will in his life is fundamentally because of a distorted understanding of the world around us.
We are always trying to create our life based on the current reality that exist around us at this moment. This moment whatever may be with us, that is not the point.
Where we want to go tomorrow need not be connected to where we are right now.
What we want as the highest in life, it need not have anything to do with our present situation. If we enslave our visions to current situations, then it is once again settling for what is attainable, what is easy, what u think is possible.
It is just in terms of what seeing what is ur vision, what is the highest that you can seek in ur life.
What you know as the highest, u just seek that. It doesn't matter whether it is going to happen or not going to happen, simply living with the vision itself is very elevating, is itself very liberating, is itself a very joyous process for any person.
Whether it is going to happen tomorrow or day after tomorrow is not the point. You are not concerned whether it is easy or difficult, you are not concerned whether it is attainable or not-attainable, or in other words, you are not concerned about the result in the end.
It is just that you have a vision and you give your life towards it.
This one of the easiest ways to attain the highest also.
The whole Gita is just about this - to simply give yourself to what you want, not caring whether it is going to happen or not going to happen. It is a spiritual process by itself.
If one wants to live here without any vision, without being burdened by visions, without being burdened by will, then that person should be absolutely innocent - should be absolutely egoless.
Such a person can simply live here. He need not live with a vision. He does not need a vision. He does not have to have a will about anything if he is absolutely egoless and childlike.
If this is not so, it is very important that man lives with a vision.
Vision is an important way of transcending limitations within ourselves and outside ourselves.
At any given moment in life, if we go by the experience of our past, or in other words if you trust your mind - trust your logical mind to decide what is possible, what is not possible, what is attainable, what is not attainable, then it will always tell you mediocre things as to what is possible.
At every moment logically if you question this and think in terms of whether it is attainable or not attainable, then the confusion that u create in ur mind, the confusion that u create in the world around you makes the world itself into a big confusion.
Soul - everything I needed to uncover myself comes to me. Even now, this magazine fell to me. Funnily how a fellow meditator asked me collect Forest Flower in the Ashram. Firstly, cannot get the guy n secondly I need not have to take. Becos, I was up in the store room. I located several old newsletters and after coming back from ashram, abt one month and today tot of reading and this msg is jus so correct. How can I not say the Universe is with me.
I will pursue my vision to be a great Transformational leader. Even if not this life time, next one. I will definitely write a book in this lifetime.
Sadhguru
The greatest crime one can commit is to be a joyless person. The basic aspect of yoga is to make a person naturally joyous, peaceful and loving by changing the chemistry within.
Soul
I am a live example.
Accept my role (6)
Mar 25 Evening
Osho
To think in terms of utilitarianism is basically wrong. The whole movement of life is non-utilitarian; it is purposeless. Life is for its own sake, for the sake of being life. The flower blooms out of his own joy. The clouds, the galaxies all move out of their own bliss. And what do u think u r and why?
You too are here out of ur own joy.
Soul
Mmm, I gather knowledge to heal myself. And I mus remember I help others so that I can remember my knowledge n it doesn't grow rut.
Osho
In my vision, social conditions are not important; it is consciousness that has the highest value. And I tell you that life is not utilitarian; it serves no purpose, no end; life is like a play, a leela. Try to understand between life with purpose and life as play.
The day something in ur life happens causelessly, when ur action has no motive or condition attached to it, when u do something just for the love and joy of doing it, u will know what religion is, what God is.
If u walk with Krishna, you will hav to walk endlessly. His journey has no destination, or I should say, for him journeying itself is his destination. But on ur part, u wld like to reach somewhere and rest. But Krishna would say, We have to go farther and still farther.
Soul
My issue card.
Osho
Thought, thinking, is not the ultimate, it is only the beginning. A moment should come in the life of each one of you when u can transcend thoughts, when u can go beyond words and images.
You have to follow only one person, and that is u.
Understand everybody and follow yourself, follow your intrinsic nature.
Know and accept urself. Live ur lives.
Soul
I follow me, whatever my Inner me tells me.
Osho
Meditation and ecstasy are born in the dark where the light of intellect cannot reach, where every process of mentation comes to a stop, where even knowledge cease to be.
Krishna
Death comes to him in countless forms and always goes back disappointed. Everyday Krishna is triumphantly marching towards life and every death is laying down its arm before him. And then a day comes when death accept defeat and surrenders to him.
Soul
Tot of me and my challenges in life. One after another. I told CEO that I come a long way these 2 years. I overcomed my challenges and I am now happy.
This seem to be the card of Innocence - max experience.
Osho
To think in terms of utilitarianism is basically wrong. The whole movement of life is non-utilitarian; it is purposeless. Life is for its own sake, for the sake of being life. The flower blooms out of his own joy. The clouds, the galaxies all move out of their own bliss. And what do u think u r and why?
You too are here out of ur own joy.
Soul
Mmm, I gather knowledge to heal myself. And I mus remember I help others so that I can remember my knowledge n it doesn't grow rut.
Osho
In my vision, social conditions are not important; it is consciousness that has the highest value. And I tell you that life is not utilitarian; it serves no purpose, no end; life is like a play, a leela. Try to understand between life with purpose and life as play.
The day something in ur life happens causelessly, when ur action has no motive or condition attached to it, when u do something just for the love and joy of doing it, u will know what religion is, what God is.
If u walk with Krishna, you will hav to walk endlessly. His journey has no destination, or I should say, for him journeying itself is his destination. But on ur part, u wld like to reach somewhere and rest. But Krishna would say, We have to go farther and still farther.
Soul
My issue card.
Osho
Thought, thinking, is not the ultimate, it is only the beginning. A moment should come in the life of each one of you when u can transcend thoughts, when u can go beyond words and images.
You have to follow only one person, and that is u.
Understand everybody and follow yourself, follow your intrinsic nature.
Know and accept urself. Live ur lives.
Soul
I follow me, whatever my Inner me tells me.
Osho
Meditation and ecstasy are born in the dark where the light of intellect cannot reach, where every process of mentation comes to a stop, where even knowledge cease to be.
Krishna
Death comes to him in countless forms and always goes back disappointed. Everyday Krishna is triumphantly marching towards life and every death is laying down its arm before him. And then a day comes when death accept defeat and surrenders to him.
Soul
Tot of me and my challenges in life. One after another. I told CEO that I come a long way these 2 years. I overcomed my challenges and I am now happy.
This seem to be the card of Innocence - max experience.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Accept my role (5)
Mar 25
Father, d 3 days thingy not so easy. 4 days is fine but timing also not within my control.
Funny, mind react n says we must hav 3 days and earlier it was so worried abt 3 days.
Its fine, since my 2 target is Isha promotion and 7thunder. Besides I still have weekend too.
Once the 2 is ongoing, I will do Befriender and also takes a writing course.
I wanted to do Osho card too.
1. Humanmetrics - psychology
2. 7thunder cards - astrology
3. Osho - spiritual
Osho weekly
1. Issue - Travelling
Life is a continuity always and always. There is no final destination. Don't be concerned abt the goal - jus dance and being in pilgrimage, moving joyously.
Indicates a time of movement and change. It may be a physical movement or inner movement from one way of being to another.
This card promises that the going will be easy and will bring a sense of adventure and growth, there is no need to struggle or plan too much. Accept and embrace the new. This attitude of openess and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our life.
Soul - true, now started 4 day week. Now also on moment to moment breathing. CEO has ceased to impact me. But part of me also wan to take her out cos she attacker. But if she not around, can I have 3 days. Actually maybe wit her I can't have 3 days since she can't have any delayed gratification at all. Now d ball is in GM's court. By right, is d best time for her to take action. Why not taking? She has not suffer enough.
CEO's year card of Ace of spade and 52 days card of six of diamond will be interesting.
For me, is acceptance of my Purpose and now gathering tool. Of cos, there will be pay cut but m fine.
M definitely excited abt this new phase. Not sure outcome but at the minimum I hav 4 days off and that by itself is good even if I didn't achieve anything.
2. Internal influence
Comparison
Comparison brings inferiority, superiority. When u don't compare, all inferiority, superiority, disappears. Then u r, you are simply there. A small bush or big high tree, doesn't matter _ u r yourself.
The way to find out who you are is not by comparing yourself with others, but by looking to see whether you are fulfilling your own potential in the best way you know how.
Soul
Yea, don't hav to compare. Jus be myself. Same msg wit Krishna.
3. External influence - Awareness
Once u start dropping thoughts, the dust that u have collected in the past, the flame arises - clean, clear, alive and young. Your whole life becomes a flame, and a flame without any smoke. That is what awareness is.
Your illusion is starting to burn away. Any sense u might have had that u r groping in the dark is dissolving now.
Let yourself settle, and remember deep inside u r just a witness, eternally silent and aware and unchanged.
A channel is now opening from the circumference of activity to that center of witnessing. It will help you to become detached, and a new awareness will lift the veil from ur eyes.
Soul - I know.
4. What is needed for resolution
Going wit the flow
Be passive and receptive without being dull or sleepy. He is just available to the current of life, without a tot of "I don't like that" or "I prefer to go the other way".
Every moment in life we have a choice of whether to enter to life's water and float or to try to swim upstream.
You are about to float now, trusting that life will support you in ur relacatiion and take you exactly where it wants to go.
Allow this feeling of trust to grow more and more, everything is happening exactly as it should.
5. Resolution - Innocence
If u drop knowledge, u will have a totally different quality to ur being; innocence.
This will be a crucifixion of the persona, the personality, and there will be a resurrection of your innocence. You will become a child again, reborn.
You will radiate a childlike delight in the world. There is a sense of grace surrounding him as if he is at home with himself and with what life has brought.
A time of letting go, relaxation and sweetness. They are a response to his presence, a reflection of his own qualities.
The innocence that comes from a deep experience of life is childlike but not childish. It has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life.
Soul - I know. I am at home. So d 3 days thing don't have to fight. Since I can't do 4 days jus stay wit this.
Day card
Nine of club
You are ready to awaken to a new and higher way of thinking that will be better than u have imagined.
This can be also a signal that powerful spiritual experience may occur, such as universal consciousness, and also indicates the success of any endeavours that involve spreading higher truths to the world.
Father, d 3 days thingy not so easy. 4 days is fine but timing also not within my control.
Funny, mind react n says we must hav 3 days and earlier it was so worried abt 3 days.
Its fine, since my 2 target is Isha promotion and 7thunder. Besides I still have weekend too.
Once the 2 is ongoing, I will do Befriender and also takes a writing course.
I wanted to do Osho card too.
1. Humanmetrics - psychology
2. 7thunder cards - astrology
3. Osho - spiritual
Osho weekly
1. Issue - Travelling
Life is a continuity always and always. There is no final destination. Don't be concerned abt the goal - jus dance and being in pilgrimage, moving joyously.
Indicates a time of movement and change. It may be a physical movement or inner movement from one way of being to another.
This card promises that the going will be easy and will bring a sense of adventure and growth, there is no need to struggle or plan too much. Accept and embrace the new. This attitude of openess and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our life.
Soul - true, now started 4 day week. Now also on moment to moment breathing. CEO has ceased to impact me. But part of me also wan to take her out cos she attacker. But if she not around, can I have 3 days. Actually maybe wit her I can't have 3 days since she can't have any delayed gratification at all. Now d ball is in GM's court. By right, is d best time for her to take action. Why not taking? She has not suffer enough.
CEO's year card of Ace of spade and 52 days card of six of diamond will be interesting.
For me, is acceptance of my Purpose and now gathering tool. Of cos, there will be pay cut but m fine.
M definitely excited abt this new phase. Not sure outcome but at the minimum I hav 4 days off and that by itself is good even if I didn't achieve anything.
2. Internal influence
Comparison
Comparison brings inferiority, superiority. When u don't compare, all inferiority, superiority, disappears. Then u r, you are simply there. A small bush or big high tree, doesn't matter _ u r yourself.
The way to find out who you are is not by comparing yourself with others, but by looking to see whether you are fulfilling your own potential in the best way you know how.
Soul
Yea, don't hav to compare. Jus be myself. Same msg wit Krishna.
3. External influence - Awareness
Once u start dropping thoughts, the dust that u have collected in the past, the flame arises - clean, clear, alive and young. Your whole life becomes a flame, and a flame without any smoke. That is what awareness is.
Your illusion is starting to burn away. Any sense u might have had that u r groping in the dark is dissolving now.
Let yourself settle, and remember deep inside u r just a witness, eternally silent and aware and unchanged.
A channel is now opening from the circumference of activity to that center of witnessing. It will help you to become detached, and a new awareness will lift the veil from ur eyes.
Soul - I know.
4. What is needed for resolution
Going wit the flow
Be passive and receptive without being dull or sleepy. He is just available to the current of life, without a tot of "I don't like that" or "I prefer to go the other way".
Every moment in life we have a choice of whether to enter to life's water and float or to try to swim upstream.
You are about to float now, trusting that life will support you in ur relacatiion and take you exactly where it wants to go.
Allow this feeling of trust to grow more and more, everything is happening exactly as it should.
5. Resolution - Innocence
If u drop knowledge, u will have a totally different quality to ur being; innocence.
This will be a crucifixion of the persona, the personality, and there will be a resurrection of your innocence. You will become a child again, reborn.
You will radiate a childlike delight in the world. There is a sense of grace surrounding him as if he is at home with himself and with what life has brought.
A time of letting go, relaxation and sweetness. They are a response to his presence, a reflection of his own qualities.
The innocence that comes from a deep experience of life is childlike but not childish. It has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life.
Soul - I know. I am at home. So d 3 days thing don't have to fight. Since I can't do 4 days jus stay wit this.
Day card
Nine of club
You are ready to awaken to a new and higher way of thinking that will be better than u have imagined.
This can be also a signal that powerful spiritual experience may occur, such as universal consciousness, and also indicates the success of any endeavours that involve spreading higher truths to the world.
Integration leads to Decision
Mar 24
Did meditation this mornin, lots of tots, not focused. Finished by 6.30 am and I continued and then I went in deep for 10 min.
Yday shambavi at IE final day was invogarating. Was feeling so energised.
Father, am accepting responsibility for my role as guiding people on their right path.
Osho
You may think that Krishna imposed his will on Arjuna and almost forced him to fight. You may say that Arjuna is trying his best to escape, but Krishna, through is intelligent arguments, goads him to fight. But u are wrong to think so. The truth is, all the time Krishna is trying to liberate Arjuna, to lead him to freedom. That is why he explains to him at length what he can be, what his potentiality is, what his intrinsic nature is. He exposes real Arjuna to Arjuna, he unfolds real Arjuna.
And if, after listening to the whole of Gita, Arjuna has refused to fight and escaped. Krishna was not going to tell him "Don't go". There was no one to prevent him from escaping.
Soul
Tot of me and my guiding role. But unlike Krishna, I would be resentful that after all my effort still don't wan to change. Or perhaps I am judging myself that I am not good enough to guide people.
Perhaps this is jus fear of failure.
Osho
Krishna does not create Arjuna, he only uncovers him, only uncovers his self nature. He makes him see what he is. Krishna"s chisel cuts away the unnecessary and ugly parts of his personality and restores him to his pristine being and beauty.
Osho
You have to be clear and decisive about your basic role in life. Indecisiveness splits one into fragments and fragmentation leads to confusion and conflict, to grief and disintegration.
The bigger the decision, the greater the integration. And if one comes to a total decision in life, he has a will of his own, he becomes one, he attains to a togetherness, to yoga, to unio mystica.
Soul
Yea, I accepted my role as a Guide. I already got the order for 7thunder and I wld start on Befriender (still pending since I only have 1 day off).
I admit I m still unsure how things will unfold but I am no longer fearful.
Osho
Keep chiseling from the rock, with the hammer of doubt, the foreign elements that have entered ur nature, until u eliminate the last of them and nothing remains to be eliminated. Then the state of trust will appear in full splendour.
But remember if u continue to use the hammer of doubt even after the statue has manifested, u will injure the statue, u will hurt ur being.
Trust is the ultimate product of doubt, and insanity is the ultimate result of indecision. An indecisive person will end up insane; he will disintegrate and perish.
Soul
I understand. This is for me and J.
Father, again U come to my help. When I first read this Osho, it was jus more philosophy. I didn't relate it to me.
Now that I am facing a crossroad and finally decided to follow my Destiny. You came and Krishna does reflect me accept that I haven't mature.
Evening
D shared wit me a cd about being a healer. For her, she wan to be a teacher n also to take up psychology.
I used to want that. But later interest waned cos I know psychology not the answer cos still under mind control. Of cos, now that I m on spiritual path, I no longer keen.
She also says that her friend, our new colleague is a tarot card reader. So I can share wit her, that's good.
God will bring me what I need.
CD put his resignation after yday heavy attack by CEO. He has been on his case recently.
CEO year card is Ace of spade - represent death and new beginning. Her 52 days card is six of diamond - payback or balancing period. Coincidentally CD resign n its a hit on her, payback time.
GM could have use this period to show card, but she didn't.
Me, went to the dinner event. Loads of beauties, this time I am comfortable, no sense of insecurities. Guess is a turnaround.
Today CEO raise her voice, I ignored her tone and continue wit my view.
Did meditation this mornin, lots of tots, not focused. Finished by 6.30 am and I continued and then I went in deep for 10 min.
Yday shambavi at IE final day was invogarating. Was feeling so energised.
Father, am accepting responsibility for my role as guiding people on their right path.
Osho
You may think that Krishna imposed his will on Arjuna and almost forced him to fight. You may say that Arjuna is trying his best to escape, but Krishna, through is intelligent arguments, goads him to fight. But u are wrong to think so. The truth is, all the time Krishna is trying to liberate Arjuna, to lead him to freedom. That is why he explains to him at length what he can be, what his potentiality is, what his intrinsic nature is. He exposes real Arjuna to Arjuna, he unfolds real Arjuna.
And if, after listening to the whole of Gita, Arjuna has refused to fight and escaped. Krishna was not going to tell him "Don't go". There was no one to prevent him from escaping.
Soul
Tot of me and my guiding role. But unlike Krishna, I would be resentful that after all my effort still don't wan to change. Or perhaps I am judging myself that I am not good enough to guide people.
Perhaps this is jus fear of failure.
Osho
Krishna does not create Arjuna, he only uncovers him, only uncovers his self nature. He makes him see what he is. Krishna"s chisel cuts away the unnecessary and ugly parts of his personality and restores him to his pristine being and beauty.
Osho
You have to be clear and decisive about your basic role in life. Indecisiveness splits one into fragments and fragmentation leads to confusion and conflict, to grief and disintegration.
The bigger the decision, the greater the integration. And if one comes to a total decision in life, he has a will of his own, he becomes one, he attains to a togetherness, to yoga, to unio mystica.
Soul
Yea, I accepted my role as a Guide. I already got the order for 7thunder and I wld start on Befriender (still pending since I only have 1 day off).
I admit I m still unsure how things will unfold but I am no longer fearful.
Osho
Keep chiseling from the rock, with the hammer of doubt, the foreign elements that have entered ur nature, until u eliminate the last of them and nothing remains to be eliminated. Then the state of trust will appear in full splendour.
But remember if u continue to use the hammer of doubt even after the statue has manifested, u will injure the statue, u will hurt ur being.
Trust is the ultimate product of doubt, and insanity is the ultimate result of indecision. An indecisive person will end up insane; he will disintegrate and perish.
Soul
I understand. This is for me and J.
Father, again U come to my help. When I first read this Osho, it was jus more philosophy. I didn't relate it to me.
Now that I am facing a crossroad and finally decided to follow my Destiny. You came and Krishna does reflect me accept that I haven't mature.
Evening
D shared wit me a cd about being a healer. For her, she wan to be a teacher n also to take up psychology.
I used to want that. But later interest waned cos I know psychology not the answer cos still under mind control. Of cos, now that I m on spiritual path, I no longer keen.
She also says that her friend, our new colleague is a tarot card reader. So I can share wit her, that's good.
God will bring me what I need.
CD put his resignation after yday heavy attack by CEO. He has been on his case recently.
CEO year card is Ace of spade - represent death and new beginning. Her 52 days card is six of diamond - payback or balancing period. Coincidentally CD resign n its a hit on her, payback time.
GM could have use this period to show card, but she didn't.
Me, went to the dinner event. Loads of beauties, this time I am comfortable, no sense of insecurities. Guess is a turnaround.
Today CEO raise her voice, I ignored her tone and continue wit my view.
Accept my role (4)
Mar 23
Did my mornin meditation, now wit aum chanting corrected, shambavi is better still. At the point of watch ur breathing, I found I was in deep.
I also did breathe watching without leaning on d bed, this reduce the chance of sleep off. While tot do wonder, but come back on my own.
Shambavi really does energise cos nowadays not sleepy in the morning compared to when I did Shakti in the morning.
Osho
Krishna-consciousness is just a witnessing: whatever happens to you, pain or pleasure, u simply watch it without any comment, without any judgement. And to be in Krishna consciousness is to be in bliss.
Soul
I can only say that I am not disturbed.
Osho
Bliss divided into two, is happiness and unhappiness.
Happiness is what u accept and unhappiness is the part that is discordant to u, that u deny.
The word bliss, is anand in Sanskrit, is without an opposite.
Moksha, which means freedom or liberation, also has no opposite. Moksha is the state of bliss. Moksha means that happiness and misery are equally acceptable.
Osho
It is natural that a person who is whole in every dimension will have disadvantages and advantages both. He will not compare well with one who has achieved wholeness in a particular dimension, in so far as that particular dimension is concerned.
Soul
Mmm, comparison msg. True, since I wanted all, I cannot compare to others who is focused on one direction. Key note for me is whatever I am at that moment.
Krishna
He was lying restfully under a tree; it was really not an occasion for death. Someone, a hunter saw him from a distance, thought a deer was lying there and hit him with his arrow. His death was so accidental, so out of place. Everybody's death has an element of predetermination. Krisha's death seems to be totally undertermined. He dies in a manner as if his death has no utility whatsoever. It is as ordinary as a flower blooming, withering and dying. His life was wholly non-utilitarian; so is his death.
Soul
Non-comparison msg again.
Krishna
He does not live according to a plan, a schedule; he lives without any planning. He lives in the moment. What will happen will happen.
There are 2 ways to achieve egolessness. One way is through negation. One goes on negating his ego. The other way is thru expansion. The seeker goes on expanding himself, his self, so much that all existence is included.
The spiritual discipline of Krishna is most difficult in the beginning, but once you get over that, there is smooth sailing to the end.
But in the disciplin of Buddha, the beginning is easy enough. The real difficulty is at the end, when bereft of all its props, the ego remains in its purified form. How to get rid of this very subtle ego is the real problem.
Soul
Sadhguru way is combination of negation and expansion. Wow, I have changed. Previously I wld have said I m on expansion mode, but I know I m still limited. As for negation mode, it is not possible for me. At the moment, my path is to do what needs to be done to connect me to the Source.
While it is true, that Being is within but we do need sadhana to activate and energise to manifest it cos it is unmanifested. For me, its becos I haven't live my life fully. Krishna's way take lots of courage and I m not that courageous.
So, for me Sadhguru is. As for Osho, he gave me what Sadhguru don't, but I don't accept him fully either. I have no tot of going to his ashram, despite keen in his tot. To me, Osho tot represent Sadhguru.
Osho
Krishna is not a seeker. He is a siddha, an adept, an accomplished performer of all life's arts.
What sadhana can u do with Krishna? You can dance with him, you can sing with him, you can celebrate with him, and u can merge with him.
Soul
After samyama, my meditative experience includes dancing and singing.
Osho
With Krishna, u r already a king, but u have forgotten. U jus need to remember, recall who u are, and the journey is complete in a single sweep.
Remembering is the essence of Krishna's philosophy of life. Therefore it is not any kind of spiritual discipline, it is a direct leap into awakening, into enlightenment.
Freedom is a kind of explosion totally outside the chain of cause and effect. There is absolutely no connection between the two.
If u only understand it for yourself, u can be free here and now. Whether one deserves it or does not deserve it, is not the question. It is not a matter of worthiness or otherwise. It is also not a question of any sadhana.
Wit Krishna, we learn the way of Being.
Soul
I agree. Since day one, my Shambavi was not correct, but I already can connect. That's why when teacher says my steps no correct, I laugh and says that if I can still connect on wrong steps, imagine how far I go wit right step.
Evening
Received a call from a fellow meditator asking feedback. At first, I was trying to give some standard advice but noted that she wasn't keen and I tot that I really don't know her well at all and also its true phone and I can't sense it. (Mmm, Befriender - how.. A learning there). Suddenly tot of Love card n checked that she is a Nine of Club - death card - a transformation required. So, I told her to ride the phase and that she is on d right track.
On BSP, she said all of them looking for the flower. For me, I avoid all flowers cos I don't wan to stay in India. Now I recall that in my oneness wit the flower, wit d song in d background, I was dancing.
And I never danced when I got back, only until samyama. I am right on track.
I also noted that I m not resentful of being asked to give advice. And I also find that if I don't know also fine. I guess part of my issue was also achievement issue.
Amen.
Osho
Dharma means self-nature
Krishna says follow ur own dharma. It is better to die in one's own dharma than to live with an alien dharma. (Know rightly who u are. It is better to die upholding ur self-nature than to live as a second-hand man. That is sheer madness)
Be immaculately yourself. Follow ur own true nature and don't follow and imitate others. Don't follow a guru or a guide. Be your own guide. Don't allow ur individuality, ur subjectivity to be dominated, dictated and smothered by anybody else.
We are not yet the ocean. We are like a river. And every river has to find its own way to the ocean. On reaching the ocean, of course, both the river and its path will disappear into the ocean.
Remember that a river never moves on a ready-made path, it always creates its own path to the ocean. Life, too, does not follow a ready-made path; it cannot. Life is like a river, not a railroad.
Soul
When J says she wan to volunteer, for a moment I wanted to say no cos u not sure what u want but I held myself back cos then people will question me on not wantin to be in Isha. So, to each its own.
Father, noticed of my slight attention on D, which is surprising. Anyway, don't judge myself.
Did my mornin meditation, now wit aum chanting corrected, shambavi is better still. At the point of watch ur breathing, I found I was in deep.
I also did breathe watching without leaning on d bed, this reduce the chance of sleep off. While tot do wonder, but come back on my own.
Shambavi really does energise cos nowadays not sleepy in the morning compared to when I did Shakti in the morning.
Osho
Krishna-consciousness is just a witnessing: whatever happens to you, pain or pleasure, u simply watch it without any comment, without any judgement. And to be in Krishna consciousness is to be in bliss.
Soul
I can only say that I am not disturbed.
Osho
Bliss divided into two, is happiness and unhappiness.
Happiness is what u accept and unhappiness is the part that is discordant to u, that u deny.
The word bliss, is anand in Sanskrit, is without an opposite.
Moksha, which means freedom or liberation, also has no opposite. Moksha is the state of bliss. Moksha means that happiness and misery are equally acceptable.
Osho
It is natural that a person who is whole in every dimension will have disadvantages and advantages both. He will not compare well with one who has achieved wholeness in a particular dimension, in so far as that particular dimension is concerned.
Soul
Mmm, comparison msg. True, since I wanted all, I cannot compare to others who is focused on one direction. Key note for me is whatever I am at that moment.
Krishna
He was lying restfully under a tree; it was really not an occasion for death. Someone, a hunter saw him from a distance, thought a deer was lying there and hit him with his arrow. His death was so accidental, so out of place. Everybody's death has an element of predetermination. Krisha's death seems to be totally undertermined. He dies in a manner as if his death has no utility whatsoever. It is as ordinary as a flower blooming, withering and dying. His life was wholly non-utilitarian; so is his death.
Soul
Non-comparison msg again.
Krishna
He does not live according to a plan, a schedule; he lives without any planning. He lives in the moment. What will happen will happen.
There are 2 ways to achieve egolessness. One way is through negation. One goes on negating his ego. The other way is thru expansion. The seeker goes on expanding himself, his self, so much that all existence is included.
The spiritual discipline of Krishna is most difficult in the beginning, but once you get over that, there is smooth sailing to the end.
But in the disciplin of Buddha, the beginning is easy enough. The real difficulty is at the end, when bereft of all its props, the ego remains in its purified form. How to get rid of this very subtle ego is the real problem.
Soul
Sadhguru way is combination of negation and expansion. Wow, I have changed. Previously I wld have said I m on expansion mode, but I know I m still limited. As for negation mode, it is not possible for me. At the moment, my path is to do what needs to be done to connect me to the Source.
While it is true, that Being is within but we do need sadhana to activate and energise to manifest it cos it is unmanifested. For me, its becos I haven't live my life fully. Krishna's way take lots of courage and I m not that courageous.
So, for me Sadhguru is. As for Osho, he gave me what Sadhguru don't, but I don't accept him fully either. I have no tot of going to his ashram, despite keen in his tot. To me, Osho tot represent Sadhguru.
Osho
Krishna is not a seeker. He is a siddha, an adept, an accomplished performer of all life's arts.
What sadhana can u do with Krishna? You can dance with him, you can sing with him, you can celebrate with him, and u can merge with him.
Soul
After samyama, my meditative experience includes dancing and singing.
Osho
With Krishna, u r already a king, but u have forgotten. U jus need to remember, recall who u are, and the journey is complete in a single sweep.
Remembering is the essence of Krishna's philosophy of life. Therefore it is not any kind of spiritual discipline, it is a direct leap into awakening, into enlightenment.
Freedom is a kind of explosion totally outside the chain of cause and effect. There is absolutely no connection between the two.
If u only understand it for yourself, u can be free here and now. Whether one deserves it or does not deserve it, is not the question. It is not a matter of worthiness or otherwise. It is also not a question of any sadhana.
Wit Krishna, we learn the way of Being.
Soul
I agree. Since day one, my Shambavi was not correct, but I already can connect. That's why when teacher says my steps no correct, I laugh and says that if I can still connect on wrong steps, imagine how far I go wit right step.
Evening
Received a call from a fellow meditator asking feedback. At first, I was trying to give some standard advice but noted that she wasn't keen and I tot that I really don't know her well at all and also its true phone and I can't sense it. (Mmm, Befriender - how.. A learning there). Suddenly tot of Love card n checked that she is a Nine of Club - death card - a transformation required. So, I told her to ride the phase and that she is on d right track.
On BSP, she said all of them looking for the flower. For me, I avoid all flowers cos I don't wan to stay in India. Now I recall that in my oneness wit the flower, wit d song in d background, I was dancing.
And I never danced when I got back, only until samyama. I am right on track.
I also noted that I m not resentful of being asked to give advice. And I also find that if I don't know also fine. I guess part of my issue was also achievement issue.
Amen.
Osho
Dharma means self-nature
Krishna says follow ur own dharma. It is better to die in one's own dharma than to live with an alien dharma. (Know rightly who u are. It is better to die upholding ur self-nature than to live as a second-hand man. That is sheer madness)
Be immaculately yourself. Follow ur own true nature and don't follow and imitate others. Don't follow a guru or a guide. Be your own guide. Don't allow ur individuality, ur subjectivity to be dominated, dictated and smothered by anybody else.
We are not yet the ocean. We are like a river. And every river has to find its own way to the ocean. On reaching the ocean, of course, both the river and its path will disappear into the ocean.
Remember that a river never moves on a ready-made path, it always creates its own path to the ocean. Life, too, does not follow a ready-made path; it cannot. Life is like a river, not a railroad.
Soul
When J says she wan to volunteer, for a moment I wanted to say no cos u not sure what u want but I held myself back cos then people will question me on not wantin to be in Isha. So, to each its own.
Father, noticed of my slight attention on D, which is surprising. Anyway, don't judge myself.
Accept my role (3)
Mar 22 Even (52 days Six of diamond)
Power equals to responsibility. Instead of trying to avoid my responsibility n feeling resentful that I must help others. Why don't I be greatful that I can help? Same advice given to J.
Coincidentally, jus when I wanted to write to P, he drop me a mail instead. Will see.
The Sixes
All things must ultimately be brought into balance.
Their lives seem to go a certain way for a long time and then finally change to a new condition. This long time can be up or down, financially, relationship or otherwise.
A six person will budge only when they are ready.
Six is symbolised by the Star of David - balance and peace.
Sixes can be guilty of not accepting the aggressiveness and other emotional qualities that life often contains. They may try to avoid their own feelings and situations of conflict because that would upset their peace and balance.
Soul
This seem to represent my relationship wit the world and with my dream partner.
Sixes
They are psychic because they do achieve enough peace in their life that they are in a better position to hear "the voice within"
Many people who are Sixes have come to fulfill a special and unique purpose during the course of their life that will involve becoming a signpost to others for a better way of life.
John the Baptist - though he himself was not Jesus, he cleared the way for the coming of Jesus and led people to Him. Some will become famous spiritual leaders and teachers, while others will practice their uplifting of souls among the members of their family or co-worker.
It is those Sixes that listen to their inner voice who realise that they are here to bring others to the light.
Then they find that their life has much more meaning than just getting by day-to-day and fulfilling their personal desires and ambitions.
Soul
This ring true. I accept my role to uplift others. I have the power and I accept the responsibility.
Jus now tot it could be either rship with the world or partner, but now I know its partner.
I finally proceed wit 4 days week, it wil be reduced pay but m fine.
Let me accept the power in me and I will love myself even more.
Six of Diamond
Once they get going, they can attain most anything they desire. There is protection for them in work and action.
They are to help others come to a greater understanding of values.
(Soul - what is truly important to our Being. What is important for us to meet our purpose. What is required to be spiritual? What is required to unravel the joy in us?)
Sixes of diamond
If they accept what they receive inwardly through their natural intuition, they will be happy, regardless of the circumstances in their life.
If they have discovered their special mission in life, they will not worry about how much money they have.
These people make great teachers. They are givers and can be entrusted with great responsibility.
What they have to give is a clear knowledge of higher values and the discrimination to make better personal choices. They are the keepers of the law.
Soul
Father, thank u. I have already decided on 3 days week, already decided on Befrienders, 7thunders and also be grateful for my power of shedding light to others.
Sixes of diamond
Underneath the tough exterior of the 6 of diamond lies a person who is having a difficult time meeting their needs for affection. There are often deep fears of abandonment that underlie much of what they do in their personal relationships. Until those fears are dealt with directly, they can have a hard time understanding the repeated failures that make up their love life.
Soul
Spoken of my issue in rship. Anyway, will park this aside. One thing at a time. For now jus focus on my Purpose. Besides there is no one in view. So no need to explore now.
Six of diamond
They also have a highly mental approach to love that can lead them to think they can set up their love life as one would a college curriculum. When their brilliant romantic scheme are being subtly driven by fears, they backfire.
They must learn to first give themselves the affection they seek from others.
Honesty about their own feelings and emotions can bring them the information they need to make better assessments of their relationship problems. They must also practice being honest with themselves and others and not fall into creatively talking themselves into and out of situations while avoiding their true feelings.
Their karmic pattern usually involves one breakup of a major rship which transforms their life and teach them about themselves.
Soul
Oh God, this is truly the advice I would give myself. I am really so creative that I can talk myself into and out of a relationship.
Father, thank u for this advice. It is really made for me. If I have seen this earlier, I wouldn't accept it. But now I can at least accept it is me.
As for how I can transform, am not sure cos I know m still guided by fear in rship.
Six of diamond
they often have deep emotional wounds that are hidden from the view of the world by their friendly exterior. They are often extremely sensitive and introverted on a personal level.
However, on the exterior, they seem happy and well adjusted. They dislike appearing emotional or even least bit affected by things. They are known to have a cool exterior.
They have a reputation for keeping calm under intense pressure.
Soul
This is so me. Except that my wounds are expressed and healed. My interior now matched my exterior happy self.
Jus finished my meditation. Was crying during Brahma Nanda (it has been a long long while since I cried). Also cried profusely in Shoonya n then followed by heavy dancing.
Then tot of Isha promotion to existing members. Invite them back.
Did samyama but wasn't able to watch my tot. Perhaps shld jus use what I know first. Did that n if the time comes, I will know, jus like aum.
Its funny, aum is abt manifestation. Finally when I decide to take responsibility for my power to shed Light. I got the right method to do aum, that means to manifest my responsibility.
Shakti was great. Was dancing and noticed that pain has lessen considerably. Could be becos of yday initiation.
Sadhguru
Existing out of ur mind - don't get into all these kind of things. As far as u r concerned, there is no such things right now. Your purpose is jus to understand that your mind functions with whatever limited perception it has had till now and that is very limited. And with this limitedness, u cannot aspire for something which is beyond or unlimited.
If u understand that much, u will not give too much importance to what ur mind is saying.
If u try to suppress it, if u try to avoid it, if you try to get out of it, I am telling u, it will be a lifetime of endless deception, because such things cannot happen.
If u jus understand the limitations of the mind and accept it for its limitation; if u value the opinions of ur minds within those limited spaces that it understands; if the rest of the time, you see that it has no perception of the other aspects of life; and if u just keep urself open - then what needs to happen, whill happen.
Ur mind may be good at certain things; use it for that. But if u try to consult it for everything, then it will be no good. So just recognise the limitations of ur mind.
Soul
Exactly my tot. Similar to what
I convey to M.
Sadhguru
U shld either become all-inclusive or you see everything as nothing.
Power equals to responsibility. Instead of trying to avoid my responsibility n feeling resentful that I must help others. Why don't I be greatful that I can help? Same advice given to J.
Coincidentally, jus when I wanted to write to P, he drop me a mail instead. Will see.
The Sixes
All things must ultimately be brought into balance.
Their lives seem to go a certain way for a long time and then finally change to a new condition. This long time can be up or down, financially, relationship or otherwise.
A six person will budge only when they are ready.
Six is symbolised by the Star of David - balance and peace.
Sixes can be guilty of not accepting the aggressiveness and other emotional qualities that life often contains. They may try to avoid their own feelings and situations of conflict because that would upset their peace and balance.
Soul
This seem to represent my relationship wit the world and with my dream partner.
Sixes
They are psychic because they do achieve enough peace in their life that they are in a better position to hear "the voice within"
Many people who are Sixes have come to fulfill a special and unique purpose during the course of their life that will involve becoming a signpost to others for a better way of life.
John the Baptist - though he himself was not Jesus, he cleared the way for the coming of Jesus and led people to Him. Some will become famous spiritual leaders and teachers, while others will practice their uplifting of souls among the members of their family or co-worker.
It is those Sixes that listen to their inner voice who realise that they are here to bring others to the light.
Then they find that their life has much more meaning than just getting by day-to-day and fulfilling their personal desires and ambitions.
Soul
This ring true. I accept my role to uplift others. I have the power and I accept the responsibility.
Jus now tot it could be either rship with the world or partner, but now I know its partner.
I finally proceed wit 4 days week, it wil be reduced pay but m fine.
Let me accept the power in me and I will love myself even more.
Six of Diamond
Once they get going, they can attain most anything they desire. There is protection for them in work and action.
They are to help others come to a greater understanding of values.
(Soul - what is truly important to our Being. What is important for us to meet our purpose. What is required to be spiritual? What is required to unravel the joy in us?)
Sixes of diamond
If they accept what they receive inwardly through their natural intuition, they will be happy, regardless of the circumstances in their life.
If they have discovered their special mission in life, they will not worry about how much money they have.
These people make great teachers. They are givers and can be entrusted with great responsibility.
What they have to give is a clear knowledge of higher values and the discrimination to make better personal choices. They are the keepers of the law.
Soul
Father, thank u. I have already decided on 3 days week, already decided on Befrienders, 7thunders and also be grateful for my power of shedding light to others.
Sixes of diamond
Underneath the tough exterior of the 6 of diamond lies a person who is having a difficult time meeting their needs for affection. There are often deep fears of abandonment that underlie much of what they do in their personal relationships. Until those fears are dealt with directly, they can have a hard time understanding the repeated failures that make up their love life.
Soul
Spoken of my issue in rship. Anyway, will park this aside. One thing at a time. For now jus focus on my Purpose. Besides there is no one in view. So no need to explore now.
Six of diamond
They also have a highly mental approach to love that can lead them to think they can set up their love life as one would a college curriculum. When their brilliant romantic scheme are being subtly driven by fears, they backfire.
They must learn to first give themselves the affection they seek from others.
Honesty about their own feelings and emotions can bring them the information they need to make better assessments of their relationship problems. They must also practice being honest with themselves and others and not fall into creatively talking themselves into and out of situations while avoiding their true feelings.
Their karmic pattern usually involves one breakup of a major rship which transforms their life and teach them about themselves.
Soul
Oh God, this is truly the advice I would give myself. I am really so creative that I can talk myself into and out of a relationship.
Father, thank u for this advice. It is really made for me. If I have seen this earlier, I wouldn't accept it. But now I can at least accept it is me.
As for how I can transform, am not sure cos I know m still guided by fear in rship.
Six of diamond
they often have deep emotional wounds that are hidden from the view of the world by their friendly exterior. They are often extremely sensitive and introverted on a personal level.
However, on the exterior, they seem happy and well adjusted. They dislike appearing emotional or even least bit affected by things. They are known to have a cool exterior.
They have a reputation for keeping calm under intense pressure.
Soul
This is so me. Except that my wounds are expressed and healed. My interior now matched my exterior happy self.
Jus finished my meditation. Was crying during Brahma Nanda (it has been a long long while since I cried). Also cried profusely in Shoonya n then followed by heavy dancing.
Then tot of Isha promotion to existing members. Invite them back.
Did samyama but wasn't able to watch my tot. Perhaps shld jus use what I know first. Did that n if the time comes, I will know, jus like aum.
Its funny, aum is abt manifestation. Finally when I decide to take responsibility for my power to shed Light. I got the right method to do aum, that means to manifest my responsibility.
Shakti was great. Was dancing and noticed that pain has lessen considerably. Could be becos of yday initiation.
Sadhguru
Existing out of ur mind - don't get into all these kind of things. As far as u r concerned, there is no such things right now. Your purpose is jus to understand that your mind functions with whatever limited perception it has had till now and that is very limited. And with this limitedness, u cannot aspire for something which is beyond or unlimited.
If u understand that much, u will not give too much importance to what ur mind is saying.
If u try to suppress it, if u try to avoid it, if you try to get out of it, I am telling u, it will be a lifetime of endless deception, because such things cannot happen.
If u jus understand the limitations of the mind and accept it for its limitation; if u value the opinions of ur minds within those limited spaces that it understands; if the rest of the time, you see that it has no perception of the other aspects of life; and if u just keep urself open - then what needs to happen, whill happen.
Ur mind may be good at certain things; use it for that. But if u try to consult it for everything, then it will be no good. So just recognise the limitations of ur mind.
Soul
Exactly my tot. Similar to what
I convey to M.
Sadhguru
U shld either become all-inclusive or you see everything as nothing.
Accept my role (2)
Mar 22
This mornin when doing suria namaskara, halfway head is shaking and then I was laughing.
I tot that I already forget to plan and worry abt my work, so as for my spiritual devt, also need not worry abt it. Whatever has to happen will happen.
Again this mornin tot of Befriender. Earlier I tot all d calls is desperate suicidal. Looks like only 20 percent is suicidal.
Yday my irritation wit M died down, after I gave him d counselling that his mind is running riot. His wife is emotional and he is mindnal. Of which he says he is grounded. I told him nope cos being grounded means being in touch ur being, and feeling is involved. He is not grounded, it just that he is not emotional.
I guess I reacted earlier when he keep on calling me master n wanted my input was that I don't wan to be counsellor.
Over here, I also don't wan to be a counsellor but somehow I am forced to it.
Pehaps like my advice to J, I shld be grateful that I have the strength to be a counsellor instead of feeling resentful that I have to counsel people. I guess this resentment was hidden. I tot God doesn't love me, I have to help myself and he send Others to be helped by me. Isn't that unfair?
And this people need loads of attention n time. After giving them right advice, still don't wan to take. I m already so skilled that I can give right advice in d early stage so as to cut the time required and they can leave me and I am free. But instead they don't take heed and yet still approach me, taking my time, making me even more resentful.
Not only u need my help, u also need my time. Whenever God give me input, I will normally act on it asap. Yea, I got low tolerance level.
I know what I wil do in my 2 days off. Goin to visit my siblings and friends, enjoy myself and also
1. Learn destiny card
2. Be a counsellor at Befriender (at least this have time. I am not ready to be a Coach yet cos still feeling resentment)
3. Write abt my experience in my journey. Gather all d books that make an impact on me.
4. Promote Isha.
CEO and CFO's thingy abt me shldn't be on 3 days. At first I was moved but now m focused. I m only taking 3 days on my slack period. Will do up the calendar.
P becoming a brahmachari. Frankly I knew he wasn't happy in his world, he experienced happiness in ashram, so I can understand. But a waste to the world, he is a good kind man.
Osho
If you consent to drop ur choices and preferences and understand Krishna in his totality, you will find, by and by, that ur inner contradictions and conflicts habe diminished and disappeared and that all your fragments have come together into an integrated whole.
Then you will attain to what is yoga or unity.
Soul
That's what I need.
Krishna
He is in good and he is in bad too.
His peace is limitless, yet he takes his stand in battlefield
His love is infinite, yet he will not hesitate to kill if it becomes necessary.
He loves God tremendously, yet he loves the world in the same measure.
Neither can he abandon the world for God nor can he abandon God for the world. He is committed to the whole. He is whole.
Soul
Exactly my tot. Between food & comfort vs spirituality. I wan to have both. Both equally important. I cannot give up one for the other.
Now I realised why S and M was send to my life. My conflict was due to mind. Once I see how their mind played them, I dropped mine. Now I accept whatever in front of me. Coincidentally 52 days of conflicting values has finished.
Jus now CEO imply that I am on ECD's side. At first I tot that was not right, then it subside and I watch my breathe n things become fine again.
52 days card
6 of diamond
This powerful stabilising influence is present, there will be some sort of settling of accounts. It can manifest in payment of money or other forms of "value".
The 6 of diamonds will also encourage u to make compromises where money is concerned and to take full responsibility for all ur debts and actions that involve exchange of value.
Soul
I interpret as me finally accepting that I do have a coaching/counselling role.
I accept that my income will be reduced as I go on 3 days week.
I will also be going to Befriender.
I will pay for my course in destiny card.
Juus now did shoonya cos I need it. I felt my irritation arise. Surprisingly when I did it, I was laughing throughout. I tot while my surface is irritated but my Being is not. The key is to bring out the Being. To manifest the Unmanifested.
Osho
Life is both happiness and sorrow is a fact.
We all don't want to reduce our happiness into pain and suffering. Since we don't want to part with happiness, we cling to it and it is clinging that turns it into suffering.
We very much desire to be rid of pain and suffering, and for this very reason, our suffering deepens. But if we accept suffering and stay with it for a while, it will be transformed into happiness.
The feeling of suffering stems from its being unfamiliar, but it will not take you long to become familiar wit it. The same case with happiness. Familiarity changes everything.
You can only understand Krishna when u accept both happiness and misery together and at the same level. Not before.
And do u know the state you will be in when u say an unconditional yes to both, when u know pain as the precursor of pleasure and pleasure as the precursor of pain, when u receive them both without being agitated in any way, with equal equnamity, when u refuse to interpreting and labelling things.
The person who accept things without judging, without naming there, immediately enters the state of bliss.
Bliss means u wil not interpret suffering that make it really suffering
Bliss means u will not interpret happiness in a way that makes u cling to it and to deisre it more and more.
Now things are as they are; what is, is.
Now u r not going to be affected by either, because now u know that things come and go but u remain the same.
Pain and pleasure, happiness and sorrow, are like clouds moving in the sky but the sky remains untouched, the same. And that which remains the same, untrammeled and unchanging, is ur consciousness. This is Krishna-consciousness.
Soul - that's what I tot during shoonya. When I said surface of d pool is stirred but me inside pool is stil calmed.
This is what I experienced since last Friday.
This mornin when doing suria namaskara, halfway head is shaking and then I was laughing.
I tot that I already forget to plan and worry abt my work, so as for my spiritual devt, also need not worry abt it. Whatever has to happen will happen.
Again this mornin tot of Befriender. Earlier I tot all d calls is desperate suicidal. Looks like only 20 percent is suicidal.
Yday my irritation wit M died down, after I gave him d counselling that his mind is running riot. His wife is emotional and he is mindnal. Of which he says he is grounded. I told him nope cos being grounded means being in touch ur being, and feeling is involved. He is not grounded, it just that he is not emotional.
I guess I reacted earlier when he keep on calling me master n wanted my input was that I don't wan to be counsellor.
Over here, I also don't wan to be a counsellor but somehow I am forced to it.
Pehaps like my advice to J, I shld be grateful that I have the strength to be a counsellor instead of feeling resentful that I have to counsel people. I guess this resentment was hidden. I tot God doesn't love me, I have to help myself and he send Others to be helped by me. Isn't that unfair?
And this people need loads of attention n time. After giving them right advice, still don't wan to take. I m already so skilled that I can give right advice in d early stage so as to cut the time required and they can leave me and I am free. But instead they don't take heed and yet still approach me, taking my time, making me even more resentful.
Not only u need my help, u also need my time. Whenever God give me input, I will normally act on it asap. Yea, I got low tolerance level.
I know what I wil do in my 2 days off. Goin to visit my siblings and friends, enjoy myself and also
1. Learn destiny card
2. Be a counsellor at Befriender (at least this have time. I am not ready to be a Coach yet cos still feeling resentment)
3. Write abt my experience in my journey. Gather all d books that make an impact on me.
4. Promote Isha.
CEO and CFO's thingy abt me shldn't be on 3 days. At first I was moved but now m focused. I m only taking 3 days on my slack period. Will do up the calendar.
P becoming a brahmachari. Frankly I knew he wasn't happy in his world, he experienced happiness in ashram, so I can understand. But a waste to the world, he is a good kind man.
Osho
If you consent to drop ur choices and preferences and understand Krishna in his totality, you will find, by and by, that ur inner contradictions and conflicts habe diminished and disappeared and that all your fragments have come together into an integrated whole.
Then you will attain to what is yoga or unity.
Soul
That's what I need.
Krishna
He is in good and he is in bad too.
His peace is limitless, yet he takes his stand in battlefield
His love is infinite, yet he will not hesitate to kill if it becomes necessary.
He loves God tremendously, yet he loves the world in the same measure.
Neither can he abandon the world for God nor can he abandon God for the world. He is committed to the whole. He is whole.
Soul
Exactly my tot. Between food & comfort vs spirituality. I wan to have both. Both equally important. I cannot give up one for the other.
Now I realised why S and M was send to my life. My conflict was due to mind. Once I see how their mind played them, I dropped mine. Now I accept whatever in front of me. Coincidentally 52 days of conflicting values has finished.
Jus now CEO imply that I am on ECD's side. At first I tot that was not right, then it subside and I watch my breathe n things become fine again.
52 days card
6 of diamond
This powerful stabilising influence is present, there will be some sort of settling of accounts. It can manifest in payment of money or other forms of "value".
The 6 of diamonds will also encourage u to make compromises where money is concerned and to take full responsibility for all ur debts and actions that involve exchange of value.
Soul
I interpret as me finally accepting that I do have a coaching/counselling role.
I accept that my income will be reduced as I go on 3 days week.
I will also be going to Befriender.
I will pay for my course in destiny card.
Juus now did shoonya cos I need it. I felt my irritation arise. Surprisingly when I did it, I was laughing throughout. I tot while my surface is irritated but my Being is not. The key is to bring out the Being. To manifest the Unmanifested.
Osho
Life is both happiness and sorrow is a fact.
We all don't want to reduce our happiness into pain and suffering. Since we don't want to part with happiness, we cling to it and it is clinging that turns it into suffering.
We very much desire to be rid of pain and suffering, and for this very reason, our suffering deepens. But if we accept suffering and stay with it for a while, it will be transformed into happiness.
The feeling of suffering stems from its being unfamiliar, but it will not take you long to become familiar wit it. The same case with happiness. Familiarity changes everything.
You can only understand Krishna when u accept both happiness and misery together and at the same level. Not before.
And do u know the state you will be in when u say an unconditional yes to both, when u know pain as the precursor of pleasure and pleasure as the precursor of pain, when u receive them both without being agitated in any way, with equal equnamity, when u refuse to interpreting and labelling things.
The person who accept things without judging, without naming there, immediately enters the state of bliss.
Bliss means u wil not interpret suffering that make it really suffering
Bliss means u will not interpret happiness in a way that makes u cling to it and to deisre it more and more.
Now things are as they are; what is, is.
Now u r not going to be affected by either, because now u know that things come and go but u remain the same.
Pain and pleasure, happiness and sorrow, are like clouds moving in the sky but the sky remains untouched, the same. And that which remains the same, untrammeled and unchanging, is ur consciousness. This is Krishna-consciousness.
Soul - that's what I tot during shoonya. When I said surface of d pool is stirred but me inside pool is stil calmed.
This is what I experienced since last Friday.
Accept my role
Mar 21
Yday n today I was irritated wit M. Non-stop asking question. Anyway, I did my part, I finally told him that he is too much mind, mirror to his wife that is too much emotion. I told him to stop seekin n asking understanding. Jus be in the moment. He said that wld be suppression. I said, if the mind is running wild, he shld take charge of it and stop it.
Jus now also tot of M, I noted some slight irritation at me. Keep on highlighting that Teacher may not be ok wit me, that m not following rule. Then I tot of Teacher sudden decision of not asking me to do sathsang. Perhaps, like what Mu said people are jealous n of cos m not the normal devotion path, so not right to lead, that I can relate. Beside, I also not keen. Jus wan to enjoy myself. I think I agree wit Mu, that I must have some yoga experience in my past life, otherwise, I won't fall into it.
Mmm, aum chanting. After samyama, only I discover that I have done incorrectly after 1.5 years. And I will do this more.
Today initiation, wow, I was 'flying', similar experience during shoonya pgm. My head was rolling and I was dancing. Something has definitely changed inside me.
Yday n today I was irritated wit M. Non-stop asking question. Anyway, I did my part, I finally told him that he is too much mind, mirror to his wife that is too much emotion. I told him to stop seekin n asking understanding. Jus be in the moment. He said that wld be suppression. I said, if the mind is running wild, he shld take charge of it and stop it.
Jus now also tot of M, I noted some slight irritation at me. Keep on highlighting that Teacher may not be ok wit me, that m not following rule. Then I tot of Teacher sudden decision of not asking me to do sathsang. Perhaps, like what Mu said people are jealous n of cos m not the normal devotion path, so not right to lead, that I can relate. Beside, I also not keen. Jus wan to enjoy myself. I think I agree wit Mu, that I must have some yoga experience in my past life, otherwise, I won't fall into it.
Mmm, aum chanting. After samyama, only I discover that I have done incorrectly after 1.5 years. And I will do this more.
Today initiation, wow, I was 'flying', similar experience during shoonya pgm. My head was rolling and I was dancing. Something has definitely changed inside me.
Life yield to you, when you surrender to it
Krishna
He can remain like a lotus in water, untouched and unattached while living in the throes of relationship.
He can hold to his love and compassion even on the battlefield, he can continue to love with his whole being while yielding a sword in his hand.
Soul
That's my aspiration. Won't be easy. Its true, I haven't even got thru samyama meditation but I can do breathing meditation and this is a start.
Osho
The body and soul are not separate, that they are 2 poles of the same phenomenon. The visible part of the soul is known as the body and the invisible part of the body is called the soul.
Nature is visible, the gross aspect of God and God is invisible, the subtle aspect of nature. There is no such point where nature ends and God begin.
It is nature itself, that through a subtle process of its dissolution turns into God and it is God himself, who, through a subtle process of manifestation, turns into nature.
Nature is manifest God;
God is unmanifest nature.
Soul
Aah Ha
Tot of me - the body dissolving and turns into Being.
My Being will then turn the new evolved body.
(Of course, this hasn't happen yet cos my body is still dissolving. But I can already see the outer subtle manifestation such as body dancing, body listening to music, body relaxing in water)
Finished half cup of coffee, can feel heart quicken, not as relax. I don't quite enjoy coffee as I used to. I like the cake. Wil hav to find another drink to match wit cake. In the office, I found honey is fine complement. Will see.
Osho
We can only change our friends; the question of changing those we treat as enemies simply does not arise. There is no way to even understand our enemies; it is just impossible. To understand something, it is essentially to be friendly wit it.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru, u cannot fight the mind, u have to be friendly wit it.
I guess that's why breathing awareness is jus to slow down the mind, not fighting it, jus slow it down so the mind don't take us over (we be unconscious)
Before Isha, I tot my mind was shitty.
After Isha, I tot my mind is good except that it is compulsive.
So, use breathe watching to slow down its compulsiveness. Take some attention/energy from the mind.
Firstly, I was irritated at S and M. Both have loads of knowledge. S has not even started and want to know 100 percent. M is into so many things n yet still wan to know more.
When I shared, M keep on claiming am the Master, which I ignored. Then today when I shared that I had now only realised why my aum chanting is not good cos its not correct. I have never attended the Saturday IE before. Finally I got it, say Aa n jus close ur mouth slowly, the aa, oo and mm sound is made by the degree I close my mouth.
Sadhguru
Whether it is spirituality or anything else for that matter, life will not yields to you because you desire it; life yields to you because you make yourself capable.
Whether it is money, love or spiritual process, anything in this world yields to you because u do the right things, otherwise it won't.
In your life, if you do not do what u cannot do, there is no problem. But if you do not do what you can do, you are a disaster.
First settle this one (what's going on inside) then, taking charge of the destiny, we will see.. Destiny is: are u moving towards liberation or are you getting entangled? That's the fundamental question with life.
The Power of Now
Enlightenment consciously chosen means to relinquish your attachment to past and future and to make the Now the main focus of your life.
It means choosing to dwell in the state of presence rather than in time.
It means staying to what is.
You then don't need pain anymore.
You will not create any more pain nor suffering.
The mind always adheres to the known. The unknown is dangerous because it has no control over it. That's why the mind dislikes and ignores the present moment. Present moment awareness creates a gap not only in the stream of mind but also in the past-future continuum.
He can remain like a lotus in water, untouched and unattached while living in the throes of relationship.
He can hold to his love and compassion even on the battlefield, he can continue to love with his whole being while yielding a sword in his hand.
Soul
That's my aspiration. Won't be easy. Its true, I haven't even got thru samyama meditation but I can do breathing meditation and this is a start.
Osho
The body and soul are not separate, that they are 2 poles of the same phenomenon. The visible part of the soul is known as the body and the invisible part of the body is called the soul.
Nature is visible, the gross aspect of God and God is invisible, the subtle aspect of nature. There is no such point where nature ends and God begin.
It is nature itself, that through a subtle process of its dissolution turns into God and it is God himself, who, through a subtle process of manifestation, turns into nature.
Nature is manifest God;
God is unmanifest nature.
Soul
Aah Ha
Tot of me - the body dissolving and turns into Being.
My Being will then turn the new evolved body.
(Of course, this hasn't happen yet cos my body is still dissolving. But I can already see the outer subtle manifestation such as body dancing, body listening to music, body relaxing in water)
Finished half cup of coffee, can feel heart quicken, not as relax. I don't quite enjoy coffee as I used to. I like the cake. Wil hav to find another drink to match wit cake. In the office, I found honey is fine complement. Will see.
Osho
We can only change our friends; the question of changing those we treat as enemies simply does not arise. There is no way to even understand our enemies; it is just impossible. To understand something, it is essentially to be friendly wit it.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru, u cannot fight the mind, u have to be friendly wit it.
I guess that's why breathing awareness is jus to slow down the mind, not fighting it, jus slow it down so the mind don't take us over (we be unconscious)
Before Isha, I tot my mind was shitty.
After Isha, I tot my mind is good except that it is compulsive.
So, use breathe watching to slow down its compulsiveness. Take some attention/energy from the mind.
Firstly, I was irritated at S and M. Both have loads of knowledge. S has not even started and want to know 100 percent. M is into so many things n yet still wan to know more.
When I shared, M keep on claiming am the Master, which I ignored. Then today when I shared that I had now only realised why my aum chanting is not good cos its not correct. I have never attended the Saturday IE before. Finally I got it, say Aa n jus close ur mouth slowly, the aa, oo and mm sound is made by the degree I close my mouth.
Sadhguru
Whether it is spirituality or anything else for that matter, life will not yields to you because you desire it; life yields to you because you make yourself capable.
Whether it is money, love or spiritual process, anything in this world yields to you because u do the right things, otherwise it won't.
In your life, if you do not do what u cannot do, there is no problem. But if you do not do what you can do, you are a disaster.
First settle this one (what's going on inside) then, taking charge of the destiny, we will see.. Destiny is: are u moving towards liberation or are you getting entangled? That's the fundamental question with life.
The Power of Now
Enlightenment consciously chosen means to relinquish your attachment to past and future and to make the Now the main focus of your life.
It means choosing to dwell in the state of presence rather than in time.
It means staying to what is.
You then don't need pain anymore.
You will not create any more pain nor suffering.
The mind always adheres to the known. The unknown is dangerous because it has no control over it. That's why the mind dislikes and ignores the present moment. Present moment awareness creates a gap not only in the stream of mind but also in the past-future continuum.
Samyama - definitely got something (5)
Mar 20
Did shakti, breathe watching cum samyama and then shambavi. All in all, abt 2 hours. Next time to put alarm at 7 am instead of 7.15 am.
Went for a swim. Had a blast there. In my first lap, I noticed my own breathe and I was swimming slowly at my own pace, focusing on my breathe in water, so peaceful. At the end of the lap, I was laughing so much, head also shaking.
Pre samyama, I already have these experiences but never at this scale, this double the experience I had previously. Father, when I was back from Samyama, I keep on saying no Take-back, actually my inside has changed.
Today lots of people, I wasn't scared as per norm. I jus proceed to swim and went people come near instead of panic n stop swim, I jus focus on my breathe in water n swim slower.
Amazing experience. My astrology says that water is my base, my home. I used to wonder if it is so, why m I so afraid of water then. But yet, if so afraid, why I continue to swim. Well, I preserve cos when I m not feeling scared, I felt so at ease.
For the first time, I felt at home in the water.
All the people swimming near me, I am not affected by their antics. I jus managed my breathing. Amazing. Thanks Sadhguru, u r really great.
To able to experience this in water, my place of fear, my place of no control, that jus show how much my inner engineering has changed my Being.
So much laughter that tears of gratitude came. Thank you, Father.
I will promote Isha.
So, 2 projects - destiny cards and isha promotion.
I am focused on 3 days week. CEO says that I may lose my job if I keep on pushing for this. She says just take off whenever I can.
Read Osho's Krishna discourse jus before I took Isha prgm. Jus finished The Power of Now n suddenly tot of re-reading this book instead of those Osho book that I bought back from I from India.
Krishna
Despite reaching the absolute height and depth of religion, he is not at all serious and sad, not in tears. He alone who comes dancing, singing and laughing.
Soul
Before samyama, I was laughing and humming. After samyama, I was laughing, dancing and singing, albeit in meditation.
I tot nothing from samyama.
While I was able to breathing meditation, I can't seem to do samyama meditation. Never mind, jus continue my practices.
Krishna
Krishna is a laughing religion, a religion that accept life in its totality.
Apart from Krishna, Zarathustra is another. About him, it is said he was born laughing.
If a man fights with himself, he can only ruin and destroy himself. If I make my left hand fight wit my right hand, neither is going to win. That is how, through denial and suppression of his natural instincts and emotions, man become suicidal and killed himself.
Soul
Yday watching Sadhguru talked abt havin natural food and avoid meat. I know he is right, but if I follow him I be unhappy. So, I m wrong, but m happy. Beside, the 40 days veg that I did and the fact that I can delayed my food for my daily practices tells me while I enjoy food, I am not as attached to food per se. I am only attached to the taste of food, to the luxury of food.
Krishna
Krishna accepts the duality, the dialetics of life altogether and therefore transcends duality.
What we call transcendence is only possible when u choicelessly accept both parts together, when u accept the whole.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru's inevitability of this moment.
Yday Sadhguru abt this moment is inevitable. We are only happy when we have what we want at the moment. So, instead of not wanting, resisting it - we not happy. Tot of me n my reporting. I still don't like it. While its true, I can now do it but there is still emotion attached. Will see.
Same tot abt me n my enjoyment of food. I wan inner well being and outer well being.
Did shakti, breathe watching cum samyama and then shambavi. All in all, abt 2 hours. Next time to put alarm at 7 am instead of 7.15 am.
Went for a swim. Had a blast there. In my first lap, I noticed my own breathe and I was swimming slowly at my own pace, focusing on my breathe in water, so peaceful. At the end of the lap, I was laughing so much, head also shaking.
Pre samyama, I already have these experiences but never at this scale, this double the experience I had previously. Father, when I was back from Samyama, I keep on saying no Take-back, actually my inside has changed.
Today lots of people, I wasn't scared as per norm. I jus proceed to swim and went people come near instead of panic n stop swim, I jus focus on my breathe in water n swim slower.
Amazing experience. My astrology says that water is my base, my home. I used to wonder if it is so, why m I so afraid of water then. But yet, if so afraid, why I continue to swim. Well, I preserve cos when I m not feeling scared, I felt so at ease.
For the first time, I felt at home in the water.
All the people swimming near me, I am not affected by their antics. I jus managed my breathing. Amazing. Thanks Sadhguru, u r really great.
To able to experience this in water, my place of fear, my place of no control, that jus show how much my inner engineering has changed my Being.
So much laughter that tears of gratitude came. Thank you, Father.
I will promote Isha.
So, 2 projects - destiny cards and isha promotion.
I am focused on 3 days week. CEO says that I may lose my job if I keep on pushing for this. She says just take off whenever I can.
Read Osho's Krishna discourse jus before I took Isha prgm. Jus finished The Power of Now n suddenly tot of re-reading this book instead of those Osho book that I bought back from I from India.
Krishna
Despite reaching the absolute height and depth of religion, he is not at all serious and sad, not in tears. He alone who comes dancing, singing and laughing.
Soul
Before samyama, I was laughing and humming. After samyama, I was laughing, dancing and singing, albeit in meditation.
I tot nothing from samyama.
While I was able to breathing meditation, I can't seem to do samyama meditation. Never mind, jus continue my practices.
Krishna
Krishna is a laughing religion, a religion that accept life in its totality.
Apart from Krishna, Zarathustra is another. About him, it is said he was born laughing.
If a man fights with himself, he can only ruin and destroy himself. If I make my left hand fight wit my right hand, neither is going to win. That is how, through denial and suppression of his natural instincts and emotions, man become suicidal and killed himself.
Soul
Yday watching Sadhguru talked abt havin natural food and avoid meat. I know he is right, but if I follow him I be unhappy. So, I m wrong, but m happy. Beside, the 40 days veg that I did and the fact that I can delayed my food for my daily practices tells me while I enjoy food, I am not as attached to food per se. I am only attached to the taste of food, to the luxury of food.
Krishna
Krishna accepts the duality, the dialetics of life altogether and therefore transcends duality.
What we call transcendence is only possible when u choicelessly accept both parts together, when u accept the whole.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru's inevitability of this moment.
Yday Sadhguru abt this moment is inevitable. We are only happy when we have what we want at the moment. So, instead of not wanting, resisting it - we not happy. Tot of me n my reporting. I still don't like it. While its true, I can now do it but there is still emotion attached. Will see.
Same tot abt me n my enjoyment of food. I wan inner well being and outer well being.
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