Feeling uncertain..refers to 7thunders cards

Jan 8 Eve 1

I wonder what is mine for next 5 months (Feb to Jun). In times of uncertainty, I like a glimpse of my future as I am feeling lost. Nothing to hold on to. Z is no more.

Destiny Cards
1. Saturn in Seven of Clubs, but I have Four of Hearts as second card.
Think this is feeling pessimism on romantic rship. But I will aim for spiritual elevation and hope for best.

2. Five of Diamond in Uranus and second card is Queen of Spades.
Unexpected change in my quest for Self-mastery

3. Queen of Spades in Neptune.
Dream of self-mastery

Ruling Cards
1. Seven of Diamonds in Saturn, followed by Jack of Diamonds. Mmm, looks like Z, my cosmic lesson is still with me till 19 March 2013. Perhaps I was still holding on till his birthday on 1 April 2013.  I checked his message again. He said his marriage is fixed on 14 Jul 2013. Father, let me wake up n remind myself of my flawed perception. . Need to keep that msg as reminder since I lacked clarity.

2. Seven of Clubs in Uranus, followed by Five of Diamonds.
Unexpected hike (positive or negative) on changes in values



3. Five of Diamonds in Neptune.
Changes in values

Displacement from age 42 to 48
Six of spades.
Underlying theme is that of finding your true purpose in life. You will get some opportunities to fine tune ur direction in life and have the chance to discard any activities that are not contributing to u achieving ur heart-felt goals and desires.

Regardless of ur personal situation, destined events are very likely to occur this period, one that will change the course of ur life in a significant way. As all of this is going on, practice fairness in all ur dealings and u will be directed to the right path for u and ur fulfilment.

Soul
I was 'changed' in terms of career as I am now on 3 days week. Work no longer defines me, it is not longer my valuation mode. But I have transferred the valuation to Z..
But now Z is already taken away.
Both was taken away.