Sadness is coming out...

Jan 9
Woke up at alarm at 7am but body felt tired and so doze and woke up at 7.16 am.

Did suria namaskara and it was quite effortless. Had some tots of Z and office. Shakti and Shambavi was fine.

Father, I cried during aum chanting in Shambhavi. Same thing happen yesterday.

Finally sadness come out, I can feel it and I think my face and body shows it. Tears just at the brink. But I hold it back cos now in Cafe.

Had to check my tarot and got this Osho Healing Card.
Healing
It is time when deeply buried wounds of the past are coming to the surface and ready to be healed.
We are no longer hiding from ourselves and others. In this attitude of openness and acceptance we can be healed.

Nine of Clubs - today
This card literally means completion of plans or ideas. When this card appears, it signal a time when some ideas, ways of thinking or communicating or some personal plans of yours are ready to end.
If you choose to resist this ending, u will experience great disappointment, stubbornly holding on to things, ideas or plans that are no longer useful or helpful to u. If it seems that things are going against u when this card present, it is probably because u r resisting letting go of something, that in reality, is no longer doing u any good.

Soul
Father, thank u for both messages. You always come thru. Amen.

Just update my blog for jan 8 and saw this by Deb Shapiro
Change is the essence of all life. But when it is resisted, it brings uncertainty and doubt. If that uncertainty is resisted, it brings fear. If it is embraced, it brings security and fearlessness in deeper acceptance that nothing can be held onto, as all things are constantly changing.

Soul
This is the key to unravel my Jupiter's Seven of Diamonds.