Search for Self Mastery...is search for Divinity

Jan 16 Eve
Father, thank U for the tools. Today I received an urgent email on client negotiation. I can feel my fear coming up. Then I said, don't have to be stressed. Let life takes me.

Just now doing on What's app. Then scroll down to Z, saw my msg to him since last Friday. Didn't open him cos it is over. Today, little tots of him. He already taken me out of his life, so need not look back.

I checked my stats for my blog and noted many times page view for the journal on Pe's feedback on Z. I tot it is probably Z checking out if I told any mutual friends about us. Bit sad that its his major concern.

Osho
The search for divinity means only this: I want something so I no longer need to search for happiness outside of myself, so that I find my happiness within myself, so that the fountainhead of my happiness can burst forth within me.

Soul
 I started my journey because I don't want to be sad because of someone or something. I don't want my well being to be affected by others.
Didn't realised it was a path of divinity.

Osho
Everything in the world is just ur belief. Ur wife is a belief, ur husband is a belief, the rship of brother and sister is a belief.
If u believed in it, it is okay but there is nothing more than that.

The shops, the bazaar, fame, position and prestige - all are ur beliefs. They are all a dream. The world is a dream that u dream with ur eyes open.

Don't place any value on it. Don't think of it as real. It is neither worth grasping nor worth renouncing. As it doesn't exist,.what can u grasp, what can u renounce ?  The world is only worth waking up from.

Soul
When I read this, I tot my rship with Z is my belief. Because I believed we had a rship, that's why I feel sad when he broke it off. I felt its loss.
So, why don't I remove my belief that we had one, then no loss. I believed we had, whereas he doesn't believe so.
That's why he can switched me off from him. He doesn't feel any pain cos he doesn't believed I belong to him, what's there to lose.

So, need to do the same.