Taking a risk in pursuing Z, eventhough it looks futile

Jan 6
I didn't help him to face his challenge to change his mind. I m both his environment and result. I was focused on my sadness, but not taking action.

I didn't help cos I don't want to influence him. I want him to do it on his own. Alas, its because I m afraid to ask for what I want.

It is not too late yet for him to change his mind. Let me be creative. Let me pursue what I want. His card said change of mind, there is such a possibility, there is hope. Let me learn from ex-boss J, who is never afraid to pursue what she wants, even losing her pride, she focused on her goal.
Let me get answer from my card.


Jupiter in Ruling
Three of Spades / Queen of Hearts
This is a time where diversity usually brings many blessings. Success is possible in two areas at once or in business that involve artistic or creative expressions. This is called The Artist Card and thus very favourable for any sort of art or expression of ideas. In Jupiter, it could bring great financial success if channelled into positive creative work.

This influence is actually favourable for many things, such as gambling or short term speculation, if u can handle the risk.

Soul
I am taking a short term gamble on Z for the next 3 months. The only risk is my pride. If I don't try, I already lost him.

Queen of heart
This influence promotes ease, comfort, and pleasure, as well as good mixture of love and money.  It also brings a spiritual quality to ur personal rships, causing them to glow with goodness and grace.

Soul
Yes, gambling is in rship with Z.

Jupiter in Destiny
Seven of Diamonds / Three of Hearts
This card here is called The Millionaire Card. It often indicates a great deal of money being spent, but also a lot of money coming in to cover it as well. If u r feeling prosperous during this period, u could attract huge amount of money. Of course, this will not occur if ur prosperous thinking is only masking an inner fear of poverty and limited resources. But the chances are good for overcoming any fears about money and realising the 'Lucky Seven' side of this card.
This card can also means a large financial investment in ur business or occupation for the purposes of expansion.

Whether it is about money, plans to make money, or love, situations will present themselves to test our faith in the abundance of the universe. By realising and then releasing our fear, we can transform our attachment into total fearlessness and personal freedom.

Soul
My investment in web site is taken care of. I m secure in my money.
Now I m going to invest in Z, to feel secure about myself, to ask for what I want.

Three of Hearts
An over abundance of charm and magnetism could lead to social or romantic problems during this period.
On the positive side, this energy is best used for success in social or business situations, as u apply ur charm to groups. The peoples u meet now could be very helpful.

Soul
I can interpret the cards positively. Like Sadhguru says, my tots and imagination is mine to create. And it will also create my world. So, I will create sweet life for myself.
I have started with first kapalvriksha last Friday, will do so again today.
Let me learn to play, without fear of loss.
My 2nd ruling's karma card is ace of hearts, creation of rship. So. I can easily create with Z again.
My 2nd destiny's card is nine of diamond. So, I can easily let go. So, no fear of holding on. There is no fear of suffering nor pain. Let me use my rship skills at work in my romantic rship. I want to activate my femininity.

Sadhguru
Masculine mind wants to conquer, to dominate and so can't be a devotee.
There is misunderstanding on feminine mind due to limitation of physical capabilities.
Feminine and masculinity are both required to make a good life.
Feminine feel fulfilled by giving. Giving is good unless it is misused. When u consciously become a slave, ur ego is dissolved. Even Krishna said he is a slave, willing to live his life for someone else. R
Masculine feel fulfilled by conquering.

Krishna is the way. Leela is the process. Life is celebration, a festival.




Soul
Suddenly I was crying cos I haven't been living that way, except for food.
Then moments later I was laughing loads. I wonder why I never wanted to watch Sadhguru's dvd...they are really good for me as I am receptive towards his energy.

Sadhguru
Krishna is a smiling rogue. People wonder how can he be God's incarnation. Gautama went thru the serious way. After a few days of enlightenment, he asked for food and he is eating joyfully. His disciples left him thinking Gautama had 'fallen' as he now enjoyed food.
But when Krishna on brahmachari, he never complain about food nor his clothes. He went into street begging for 6 years of his life, eventhough he can be a King.

(Jan 9 - It is my fear of sadness and attachment to Z, cloud my perception,..make it flawed. Now thinking it was him changing his mind on the method of wealth creation - stopped going after the potential new biz and focused on his own personal biz which finally make him turnaround. I had previously advised him a few times but he said the potential new biz is the way. Finally he changed his mind and go back to his own business. That is the meaning of Five of Clubs and Queen of Diamonds. This is not me...)