Cosmic Lesson (67) - beginning of ending

Jun 7

Father, my practise is fine today except I slept in the end. Today was on the cold side. Had tots of Z during practise and I ignored it. Even if pix of Sadhguru also we should ignore, what's more Z.

Father, today I am feeling bit down. Two times I wanted to call Z yesterday. The first time is when I tot I had some trouble with my car and second time when I wanted to share about LK's father passing away. It was not an expected death but a blessed one as it is quick. The first time I ignored it cos Z would tell me I need to change car. The second time I called but dropped after 2 rings. I remembered my Issue for this week - Aloneness - u have to be a light unto yourself.

Father, I am bit down cos I am scared as he is already under my skin. He is the first one I tot of when I am sad, when I am afraid. I don't want to depend on him and I am not even sure I have the right to do so or whether he even wanted me.

Aiyah. He wanted me to. Last Saturday when I told about J, immediately he start to give me his input.

The Science of Mind
Since we are thinking beings and cannot stop thinking, and since Creative Mind receives our tot and cannot stop creating. It must always creating something for us. What It will make depends wholly upon what we are thinking and what we shall attract will depend upon that on which our tots dwell.

Soul
Exactly the same msg as Expect A miracle which I read yday. What a coincidence.

The Science of Mind
Our tots make our world and and peoples it with our experiences. By the activity of our tot, things come into our life and we are limited only because we have not known the Truth. We have tot that outside things controlled us, when all the time we have had that within which could have changed everything and given us freedom from bondage.
There is no power in the Universe but ourselves that can free us.
Someone may help us on the road to realisation but substantiality and permanence can come only through the consciousness of our own life and thought.
Man must bring himself to the place in mind where there is no misfortune, no calamity, no accident, no trouble, no confusion; where there is nothing but plenty, peace, power, Life and Truth.

Soul
I am a happy person and I generally attract happy situation. Z is hardworking and generally attract situation he has to work had.
I am attracted to the goodness in Z. I know he makes a great husband and he will take care of me. I am also attracted to him allowing me to be free. A tall order, I want to be free to do whatever I want and yet to be taken care of if I need it.

The Science of Mind
Law of Reflection. If u want a friend, be a friend.

Soul
Does this means if I want a boyfriend, be a girlfriend. I have never been one. Z said he is my boyfriend and yet until now I still cannot say that I am his girlfriend.
Interesting. I keep on saying Z didn't want us to be a couple but he was the first to declare he is my boyfriend.

Father, I just realised that I have never tot of myself as someone's girlfriend. Maybe that's why M also said she cannot imagine me as someone's girlfriend.

Actually buying the body wash for him was spontaneous by me. A first time for me. I have never bought a man something because I wanted to. He didn't ask for it.

Yea,,visualise me as a girlfriend.